A/N: OK, guys, here's the next chapter, let me know what you think, I myself am not sure if this is working, but I decided to post it, I can always rewrite it, right ;). Oh, and thanks so much for all the great comments, loving them :).
Update: I've just changed the name of this chapter from "Realizations" to "Undone" so I just wanted to give credit to "Kim_Pfeiffer_1971" whose comment inspired me to realize there was a better name for it. Thanks "Kim_Pfeiffer_1971" :) and thanks to "cstarj" for assuring me it works :). Hope you all agree.
Oh, and BTW, don't worry people, I always finish what I start so I would finish the story even if no one had read it :).
Frost got into the car, Jane was already sitting inside. ˝What was that Rizzoli?˝
˝What was what?˝, Jane replied pretending not to understand.
˝You, Maura, running away?˝
˝It was nothing. What were you doing here so early in the morning Frost?˝ Jane tried to change the subject.
˝I was playing golf.˝
˝Huh, since when do you play golf?˝, Jane said mockingly.
˝Since when do you fill out profiles without any significant info?˝ he replied in equal measure. ˝Or do you do that only when you have to run away from Maura?˝ he continued.
Jane figured she had to tell him something, OK half truth. ˝I was actually trying to get out of lunch with that friend of hers, she just rubbed me the wrong way when I met her and it would have been rude to tell Maura that her friend is really annoying, that's all. Doing something at the station was the first thing that popped to my head at that moment.˝
˝You do realize she saw right through it?˝
˝Bah, who cares!˝ Jane replied with a bit of irritation in her voice.
Emma was already at the restaurant when Maura came, ˝You're alone? Where's the hot detective?˝
˝She ran away from me˝, Maura chuckled, ˝Actually, I guess she ran away from us both.˝
¨I understand why she would run away from me, I saw how uncomfortable I made her feel, but why on Earth would she run away from you, I thought you were her best friend?˝, Emma asked.
˝I challenged her to a bet and I've been doing some things to prove to her that a woman can turn her on, and it has already worked, she's just refusing to admit it.˝ Maura smiled smugly.
Emma laughed out loud. ˝So what did you do?˝
˝Oh, among other things I wrote her an email saying what I would do to her if she was naked in the shower with me.˝
˝You what!? Maura, you don't do that with your best friend, that's just...˝
˝It's just a bet˝, Maura interrupted her.
˝Uh-huh, are you sure?˝, Emma asked, looking questioningly at Maura.˝What happens after you seduce her?˝
˝Oh, so you agree that I could seduce her?˝ Maura said smiling brightly.
˝Maura, you're so sexy you could seduce the Statue of Liberty.˝
Maura laughed heartily, ˝Oh, she has always looked gay to me... but... well I guess that would make it easier to seduce her, so that doesn't count then, right?˝
Emma shook her head, ˝Earth to Maura, it's a statue! You're missing the point my dear.˝
˝Which is?˝
˝Well..., what about you, were you turned on?˝
Maura paused, ˝What do you mean?˝
˝It's a very simple question, Maura. Did writing that email turn YOU on?˝
˝Of course it turned me on˝, Maura stated calmly.
˝Did you get off thinking about her after writing it?˝
˝I beg your pardon!?˝
˝Masturbate Maura, did you do it with her on your mind?˝
˝I know what get off means!˝, Maura stated a bit offended.
˝Well, did you?˝
˝Don't you think that's a tad too personal?˝
˝You did, didn't you?˝
Maura stayed silent, sipping her wine.
˝Maura?˝ - Emma insisted, looking at Maura.
Maura looked down and nodded her head slightly, holding her glass pressed on her lips.
˝And you don't see anything wrong with that?˝
˝Well, I was concentra...˝
Emma interrupted her, ˝Yeah, you were so caught up in your little game, obsessed with winning that you failed to realize you're actually playing with fire. You're messing with your own head my dear. Do you intend to sleep with her Maura? More importantly, do you want to sleep with her? And what happens if you do, what happens if you fall in love with her, do you think she could have the same feelings for you? Is she ready to be in a relationship with a woman? Are you Maura?˝
˝I like you better when you're flirting with me.˝ Maura said taking another sip. ˝I haven't given that any thought.˝ she said pensively.
˝No kidding!˝ Emma said throwing her hands in the air. ˝Don't you think you should?˝
˝Yeah, I guess you are right˝, Maura agreed quietly, playing with her glass.
When Maura came back to work she started examining the body immediately, she decided it was best to concentrate on work now. After an hour she phoned Korsak. ˝Detective Korsak, I have finished my examinations of the body, you and detective Rizzoli can come down to the morgue.˝ Korsak was confused, Since when does she call me, and uses the term detective Rizzoli. ˝Sure, we'll be right down.˝ He turned to Jane, ˝Come on detective Rizzoli, Dr. Isles is done with the autopsy.˝
˝Since when do you call me detective Rizzoli?˝, Jane was puzzled.
˝I'm just repeating what Dr. Isles has just said˝ he looked at her and shrugged his shoulders. Jane took a long breath, Here we go again. She was a bit nervous going down to the morgue, Korsak kept on saying some things but she wasn't paying attention. When they entered the morgue Maura was leaning over the body, wearing her scrub suit. ˝I have confirmed that the weapon was a golf club, a sand wedge to be precise, with 1.1 kg it's the heaviest club.˝ Maura not once lifted her head, not once did she look at Jane, or seductively move her body. Jane noticed the change in Maura's behavior and was taken aback. She's not teasing anymore, she's actually distant and a bit cold, she's not body flirting with me anymore. Jane had no idea what made her move closer, but she was suddenly standing behind Maura, leaning in to get a closer look. Maura was trying to ignore her but she was the one feeling nervous now. Her mind stopped thinking about the body lying in front of her, instead she kept on analyzing Jane's body, her cheekbones, her lips, her long fingers. Damn you Emma for screwing with my head, she thought.
˝That looks like a weird angle˝, Jane's words brought her back to reality and Maura composed herself quickly.
˝Yes, judging by the angle it appears that the killer is fairly tall, the hit came from below, a shorter person would do it from above the head˝, Maura explained.
As Jane stepped away, Maura caught herself wanting to grab her and pull her in. This is not good, Maura thought.
˝Come on Korsak, let's go back to the Club and see if we can find some taller members. See you later, Maura˝, she said looking at her, but Maura's eyes were locked on the body.
˝Good luck˝ she just said. As Jane and Korsak turned around, she looked up, trailing her eyes down Jane's body. Aargh, Emma has really put some thoughts into my head.
Three hours later, Jane slumped into her chair at the station, ˝I thought this info would have been helpful, who would have thought so many people play golf in this freaking town.˝
˝Well, apparently a lot more than we thought, hey even Frost is playing it˝ Korsak said jokingly.
Jane laughed. ˝Yeah, go figure.˝
When Maura appeared at the door Jane's heart started beating a bit faster. ˝Any news?˝ Maura asked.
˝Nope, half the town is playing golf, and plenty of them are tall, we'll have to go through the whole database tomorrow.˝ Jane replied disappointed by the work tone in Maura's voice.
˝Well, hopefully you'll find something then. I'll go through the body again tomorrow and see if there's something else that could help us.˝ She turned towards the exit and hesitated a bit. ˝See you tomorrow, detectives.˝ she finally added before leaving.
˝Goodbye Dr. Isles˝ Korsak said and turned to Jane.
˝What did you do to Dr. Isles?˝
˝Huh?˝
˝Maybe I'm seeing things but I'd bet she's avoiding you.˝ Unfortunately she is, Jane thought.
˝No eye contact with you, no mention of a drink at the Dirty Robber, she just left home˝, Korsak continued a bit shocked.
˝Oh, you know Maura, she can be weird sometimes.˝ Did I just think 'unfortunately'?, Jane panicked a bit. ˝Let's go through some of that database now˝ better that than thinking about Maura, she assured herself. Jane was trying to concentrate on work but it was difficult, she kept on wondering what was wrong with Maura. ˝You know what, let's leave this for tomorrow, I feel like I'm not making any progress at all˝, Jane finally said.
˝Yeah, maybe we should, I can't stare at the screen any more either. Wanna go for a beer?˝
˝Nah, I'd just like to put my feet up and enjoy the evening with some beer and TV.˝
Korsak smiled turning off his computer and grabbing his jacket, ˝OK, goodnight then.˝
˝Night Korsak.˝
Jane entered her apartment and turned the light on, she dropped her keys on the table and headed straight toward the fridge placing her phone on the kitchen counter. She opened the beer and took a big gulp. She looked at her phone and then pressed the button on it to light the screen. Nothing, no text messages, no phone calls, there's nothing. She sat down on her couch and checked her mail. Nothing either. What's going on, why is she not writing anything? Wait, do I want her to write? Jane closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Maura appeared in her head again but this time she wasn't doing anything. Jane was doing things to her. Jane quickly opened her eyes. Shit! She took another breath and closed her eyes again to test herself. And there it was again, Jane kissing Maura's neck, her palms on Maura's breasts, her tongue travelling down Maura's body. She opened her eyes and jumped off the couch. What the...? She started pacing the room. What does this mean? Am I attracted to her so much that I want her, that I want to do things to her, sexual things...? Jane started rubbing her scars. Am I disappointed now that she has stopped with her little game? She's changed ever since we were at the crime scene. She can't be mad because I lied about having to work with Frost. I'm sure she had a nice lunch with Emma. OMG! Emma! Everything changed after their lunch! Are they back together, is that why she has stopped everything? Well, who cares if they are back together, she's finally letting me breathe. She sat down and started flipping the channels, her mind started to imagine Maura leaning into Emma and giggling, her heart sank. Wait... am I jealous?
Maura was sitting on her couch rubbing her temples, Is Emma right? Have I cornered myself with all of this? She leaned her head back and closed her eyes taking a long breath and then exhaled slowly. Ok, Maura, time for some soul-searching... let's see... you definitely reacted to her closeness in the morgue, now, was that real or was it because Emma talked about it? She allowed her mind to go back to that email, and imagined them in the shower. ˝Well, I definitely wouldn't mind trailing kisses down her body...˝ she said out loud. Then she imagined Jane's tongue on her breasts, her warm breath on her skin, and her hands exploring her body. Maura opened her eyes and sighed, Well, I guess that settles it, I definitely wouldn't mind engaging in sexual activities with her. And judging by her behavior from earlier today, she's not far either. Ah, who am I kidding, she would never go for it, she's already freaking out, God only knows what she would do if I actually did something for real, she'd most definitely run away. And fast. Damn, now I'm gonna have to lose the bet.
Jane kept on pacing her living room, looking at the cell phone. I should send her a message. She reached out and then pulled away. No! That's a bad idea. She opened her laptop again and started surfing the web giving occasional glances towards her cell phone. After a few minutes she got up and started walking around the room again, shifting the phone from one hand to another. Then she suddenly stopped and started typing, Are you surrendering? :p and quickly hit the send button. Her phone immediately buzzed back.
Maybe you are right, it's impossible to determine who wins.
˝Something's definitely changed˝ Jane said out loud.
˝I guess that's that˝ Maura said before her phone sounded, she opened Jane's reply.
Ha,ha,ha, who's chicken now! Next time my dear, don't start something you don't have the guts to follow through. :pppp
˝Oh I have plenty of guts, detective Rizzoli˝, Maura said out loud, got up and grabbed her car keys. ˝To hell with it!˝ she said and stormed out of the house.
No reply, Jane thought. Oh well, she sat back down a bit disappointed and started watching a baseball match but not really paying attention to it. Fifteen minutes later her doorbell rang. Jane looked at her watch, ˝That's strange.˝ She got up and opened the door. ˝Maura!? What are you doing here?˝
Maura pushed Jane inside slamming the door behind her. ˝Winning a bet!˝ she said before turning Jane around and pinning her to the door. Jane stopped breathing. Maura put both her hands on the door on each side of Jane's head, her lips so close to Jane's. ˝I'm going to kiss you now, Jane Rizzoli˝, she said slowly. Jane didn't reply. Breathe Rizzoli, she kept on reminding herself. Maura knew that Jane was strong enough to push her away if she wanted to. She held her gaze, looking directly into Jane's eyes, then slowly leaned in and closed the distance between their lips. She started slowly, lightly touching Jane's lips and Jane caught herself wanting more, she opened her mouth slightly and invited Maura to deepen the kiss. Maura pushed herself firmly against Jane's body, pressing her to the door as her tongue started exploring Jane's mouth. Jane got completely lost, she could smell Maura's skin, she could feel her breasts on her body, her breath on her skin, having Maura so close started making her dizzy. Maura started breaking the kiss, catching Jane's lower lip with her teeth and pulling it lightly as she moved away slowly, leaving Jane with closed eyes. Jane opened her eyes slowly and whispered, ˝Shit! Maura, why are you doing this to me?˝
˝To prove I have the guts.¨ Maura said firmly. ˝Do you Jane?˝, she asked, intensely looking at Jane.
Jane started panicking in her head. What are we doing, we are best friends, there's no turning back, this can't be a good idea! Nervously waiting for a reply Maura licked her lips slowly without even being aware of it, her tongue lingering between her lips. Jane was instantly lost, she stopped thinking and just reached behind Maura's back and pulled her in. ˝Plenty!˝, she replied before placing her lips on Maura's.
Jane let her hands trail down Maura's body, when she reached Maura's buttocks she squeezed them and smiled to herself then moved her hand back up and started unzipping her dress, never breaking the kiss. Maura moved away a little bit, then slowly lowered her dress and let it drop to her feet. Then she slowly stepped out of it. Jane just kept on gazing at Maura's breasts. ˝I spilled coffee because of these earlier today˝.
Maura smiled, ˝I know˝ she said as she reached back, unhooked her bra, removed the left then the right strap and tossed it away. Jane's pupils dilated, she placed her hands on Maura's breasts. ˝I think I've been wanting to do this for a few days now.˝ She started massaging them and then lowered her head and took one breast into her mouth. ˝And this˝ she mumbled.
˝You think?˝, Maura questioned with a smile on her face.
˝Uh-huh˝ Jane simply said as she teased Maura's nipple with her tongue and started sucking on it making Maura moan out of pleasure and tilt her head backwards. Jane then moved to her right breast giving it the same attention and then moved back up, trailing kisses on her collarbone, her neck and then took Maura's lips in a long, passionate kiss. Maura pulled Jane's body closer to her and started tucking her top with both of her hands, and then pulled it over Jane's head. Jane caught Maura's lips again, not wanting to be away from them even for a second. She heard some noise in the background but couldn't quite determine what it was. ˝Jane...˝ Maura tried to say something but Jane kept on kissing her lips, ˝Jane... your phone... it's ringing...˝
Jane broke the kiss, took a deep breath and exhaled, ˝Worst timing ever!˝, she moved away from Maura and grabbed her phone. ˝Rizzoli!˝
It was Korsak, ˝Jane, there has been another murder at the Golf club.˝
˝You are kidding me, we have a Tiger Woods going around killing people!?... Yeah... OK... I'll tell her, she's here next to me.˝
˝Oh, so you guys kissed and made up?˝ Korsak asked happily.
˝Yeah, you could say that, we kissed and made up˝, Jane repeated looking at Maura and smiling. Maura chuckled. ˝We'll be there shortly.˝
˝There's a tiger in the woods?˝ Maura asked after Jane hung up the phone.
Jane laughed out loud, ˝How can you be so hot even when you ask silly questions?˝, she moved back closer to Maura and kissed her again. ˝No, Maura, Tiger Woods is the name of the best golf player.˝
˝Tiger? What kind of a name is that?˝ Maura asked.
˝I know˝, Jane laughed.
˝That can't be his real name, right?˝, Maura continued.
˝I have no idea Maura˝ Jane said smiling, she is hot even when her brain is shifting to its work mode. She started leaning forward again but Maura stopped her, ˝No Jane, we have to get dressed or we'll never get to that crime scene˝. Jane sighed, ˝Yeah, you're right˝. Maura moved away and started putting her clothes back on. Jane sighed again and did the same.
˝Come on˝ Maura said tossing her keys to Jane, ˝You can drive˝ she added.
Damn, even that was hot, Jane thought as she closed her front door behind them, her eyes following Maura's body, ˝Damn˝, she repeated out loud and headed towards the car.