I glared at Alice

"Where is Edward!?" I demanded.

"He left." she breathes, her eyes glazing over as she checks her visions once more.

"Yeah, I think I realized that." I snap. "Why isn't he here?"

"Jacob, I don't think you understood me. He left. As in, he is not in the same state we are."

"What!?" I shout. My hands start to shake and I fight to control them. "Than where the hell is he?" I ask, my voice tight with control.

What about Renesmee and the Volturi? Was he just going to abandon us when we needed him most?

"Jacob, can you open your eyes and stop thinking about yourself for once!?" Alice yelled. My eyes widened in surprise.

"I'm not thinking about my-"

"Bella died, Jacob! Do you have any idea what he is going through right now? How would you feel if Renesmee was in her place?"

I flinched.

"I know what he is going through, Alice. " I say softly. "But he can't just leave. Not now."

She nodded.

"I know, but he needs to try to pull himself together. I am sure he doesn't mean to freak us out, but he needs to take care of himself first."

Jasper came from the living room and wrapped an arm around Alice.

Suddenly I felt a wave of calm. It was pure bliss.

I realized than how much I've missed such pleasures.

"Sure, fine, whatever." I mumble. "But he better be here when the time comes."

I walk out into the forest.

Without Jasper's emotion control, I felt anger burning inside me once more.

I shed my clothes and let the shudders take over.

Oh, hey Jake! We've missed you! Seth's boyish voice rang in my head as I ran, my paws thumping heavily on the ground.

I don't think that's likely I thought back.

You've been hanging out with the Cullen's I assume? Leah said acidly.

Yeah, I have. You got a problem with that? But as I said it, my mind briefly flashed to Renesmee.

Leah was silent.

So how's Bella?

I stumbled when Seth asked. I had forgotten that they didn't know yet.

Seth howled.

The howl was so full of pain, not very different from my own. I felt Leah miss a step.

Quil and Embry popped in a minute later.

They saw what everyone was thinking and started to howl too.

So much for peace.

I quickly morphed back into my human form and got dressed.

Now I couldn't get Bella off my mind.

I think I understood what Edward was going through now. I would have done the same thing if not for Renesmee.

I ran back to the house to find her being fed by Rosalie.

I sat in the chair across from them and thought.

Was anyone doing anything to find these people who are supposed to join us? And who was supposed to be joining us in the first place?

What was Carlisle doing in that office of his?

Even though I knew I shouldn't bother him, I was curious and wanted to see if he was doing anything to help.

I got up but a voice froze me.

"Uncle Jake, where is Daddy?"

I stared at the small girl in Rosalie's arms.

"W-what did you say?" I stutter.

She sighed.

"Where is Daddy? I haven't seen him in a while." Her voice pierced the air. It was sweet, and strong. Almost like a bell.

Rosalie and I glanced at each other.

"He is...going to be...gone...for awhile." I say hesitantly.

"Where did he go?" she asks in that bell voice of hers again.

"We don't really know, sweetie." Rosalie answers.

Renesmee sighs again.

I give Rosalie a weary glance and go looking for Carlisle.

I softly knock on his office door, half hoping he didn't answer.

Why was I so nervous about bothering him? I never have a problem bothering anyone.

"Come in."

And I do.

"Uh huh...No, no it's fine, I understand why she wouldn't want to come...Wait, what?"

Carlisle looked at me and sighed into the phone.

"Please, can you just try to make it? We really need you...We will explain when you get here...Thank you, very much. I wish your family well...Goodbye."

He snaps the phone closed.

"What was that about?" I ask.

"I was asking Tanya if her family would mind coming down her, to help us out."

"Oh." So the doctor was doing something.

"What would you like, Jacob?"

"I just wanted to see if..any of you needed to go hunting any time soon." I lie. I hold back a shudder at the word hunting.

He sighs with relief.

"Yes, we do."

I start walking back but, a hand touches my shoulder.

I tense and he lets it drop.

"Thank you." he whispers.

I nod and walk away.

I felt bad about the small confrontation.

But hey, what can you do?