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Chapter 6

James did as M asked of him and gave her some space over the next few days. Deep down inside it was killing him. He wanted so badly to hold her in his arms. To kiss her like she'd never been kissed before. To tell her just how much she meant to him. She could feel his eyes on her as they sat quietly at the dinner table. Everytime she glanced at him, he quickly turned away. She still couldn't understand what it was he saw in her. What did he see that she couldn't.

"M."

"Sorry Kincade."

"I asked if you'd care for more wine."

"Oh, yes please. Sorry, I was miles away."

"Quite alright my dear. So did you enjoy your walk earlier."

"Yes I did. It was nice to get out of the cottage for a little while. Though I may have overdone it a little."

"Are you okay." James asked, suddenly concerned.

M stared over at James and saw the sudden concern in his eyes which made her heart melt. She began to feel a small glimmer of gulit at the way she had been avoiding him over the last few days.

"I'm okay James, really."

"If you're sure." He said, smiling.

Kincade sat eating his meal whilst looking between James and M and wondering to himself just how childish to people could be.

Later on that evening after the table had been cleared and the dishes washed. Kincade was getting ready to go out for a night stroll. He decided it might be best to give them a few hours alone and hopefully they could sort out whatever was going on between them.

"You off out Kincade." James asked, sipping a glass of whiskey.

"Well it's a nice night and to be honest I thought you two could do with some alone time."

"You don't need to do that."

"Yes I do lad. Look, you've barely said two words to each other since she was released from hospital. You held that woman in you arms. You cried with her when you both thought she wasn't going to make it. You spent hours on end at the hospital waiting to see if she'd be alright but most importantly you risked your life to save her and did I might add. I know she hasn't handled your admission of love the way you'd have hoped."

"That's putting it mildly."

"Don't give up on this one. She may not be the kind of woman you normally go for but something clearly attracted you to her. She means something to you. Put your foot down. Forget for a moment that she's your Boss and just think of her as any other woman. Now, I'm going for my walk. Get to work lad. That's an order." Kincade winked, as he walked out.

James smiled as he watched Kincade leave. He walked through to the kitchen to see M standing by the back door looking out into the night. She was standing holding a glass of red wine in her hand. As he looked on he honestly couldn't remember her looking as beautiful as she did at that moment. He walked over to her carefully removed the glass from her hand, startling her.

"What on earth are you doing." She asked, startled.

"I've decided enough is enough."

"I've only had a couple of glasses."

"I'm not talking about the wine M. I'm talking about this awkwardness between us. You said you needed time to think, well I think I've been somewhat patient over the last few days. I've given you the space you asked for. I didn't pry, I didn't ask any questions. Well I'm asking now."

M stared at him and saw fear in his eyes. The fear of her rejection. He was right. He had given her the space she'd asked for. Had she thought about him, ofcourse she had. If she was honest with herself she had done nothing but think about him.

"It's this whole age thing that's bothering me."

"M…"

"I know you don't see it as a big deal but it is. You've spent your entire life with these young, beautiful women. Granted in your eyes you see them as part of your work but still, you sleep with them. What am I in your eyes, really."

"You want to know what you are to me. You're a chance at something more. A chance at love, at happiness. To be with someone who already knows everything there is to know about me. Who knows that when I come home quiet and bruised from the field, you know I won't want to discuss it. You're someone who's seen me at my worst and you still put your trust in me."

"You can't have it all with me James. You won't have the big house with the white picket fence, the 2 cars in the driveway, the children running around the house. I can't give you that. I will never be able to give you the chance at fatherhood."

"Children aren't everything and anyway, who said I wanted Children."

"You've never once thought about it."

"Perhaps once a very long time ago but that was in the past. Now we're here in the present and all I know here and now is that I love you. Don't use Children as an excuse not to be with me or age because it's all bullshit and you know it."

"Oh do I."

"The real reason, which you admitted yourself is purely that you're scared. Okay yes in the past it's been all about sex with beautiful women."

James suddenly went very quiet and M began to see that sadness in his face that had never really gone away since he killed Silva.

"Go on." She instructed.

"Everything changed when you were shot. When you fell into my arms and you told me it was the end for you. I felt as though my entire life was coming to an end. I was holding you and crying because I realised just how much I loved you and I was damned if I was going to lose you because of that bastard."

"Oh James."

M took one look into his eyes, deep into his soul and everything she was worrying about just melted away. She realised how much she truly did love him too. She closed the back door and began to move into James and slowly her arms went around his neck pulling him towards her. He followed suit and kissed her firmly on the lips, never wanting to let her go. She let out a small gasp as she was suddenly picked up and was carried through to the bedroom.

"I want to be absolutely certain that you're sure about this M because there's no going back."

"I'm sure. I love you James. Now hurry up before Kincade gets back." She smirked.

To Be Continued….