The rest of the day was pretty similar to the morning. People only continued to piss me off no end and Quinn had spread the word that it was my serious pms. Apparently I was fine in the morning then Lord voldemort in made an appearance after English, but really I was more than fine in the morning well apart from the super rush to school but other than that I was feeling nervously excited at the thought of any possible second meeting with Brittany, turns out the odd's where in my favour. She was in my year and in 2 off my classes. But obviously everything doesn't always work out the way we imagine them too and I was certainly not expecting to be feeling angry and disappointed.
"San"
"Mhm" I hummed in response to Quinn as I tried formulating all the possible reasons why I met Brittany's expectations and why the fuck meeting someone's expectations can be a bad thing. Is she too good to talk to me or something? I scoffed, such a stuck up bit...
"What's up, you've been acting weird all day? Have I done something?" Any other day this sentence would have filled me with optimism, her concern with me not speaking to her for around 7 hours or so might have sparked up some hope that I meant more to her than friendship. The crush I had was slowly deteriorating, the realisation that I wasn't completely analysing her words and formulating them up into some sort of hopeful hidden meaning was a clear indication. I'd even forget to speak to Quinn since i'd been solely fixated on Brittany, the person I was beginning to love to hate. Desperate to impress but equally as desperate to destroy.
"Course you haven't Q" I said sincerely, I wasn't about to take my personal grudge and annoying fascination that I had with some hot new girl I knew nothing about, out on my best friend. "I'm just having a bad day that's all"
"You might want to slip out of that bad mood before cheer practise, sue will have you run laps till you puke up rainbows and happiness. 'Cheer' you know it's in the name" she smiled poking me in the ribs almost getting a smile out of me.
"I'm fine seriously Q" I retorted not really comprehending what she was saying, my thoughts were far from 'with it' at the moment.
"If you say so, how's that new girl" Quinn winked ticking my sensitivity metre off the chart making me snap my head round in her direction wide eyed please, please don't say I thinking out loud I panicked. "You know, Spanish buddies and all that?"
"Oh right, Spanish, right. Um right her names Brittany?" I nodded quickly resuming the tapping of my pen between my fingers. "Haven't really talked" I lied shrugging my shoulders, how exactly am I meant to say oh she completely blew me off after trying to speak to her and I'm pretty sure there was some underlying insult in her dismissal. So haven't talked it is.
"You know I'm not on about that San." She laughed. "You're a lesbian right?"
"New to me, you help me learn new things about myself everyday" I smirked with a roll of my eyes.
"Whatever, I mean. I haven't got a good look yet but she's certainly not bad looking. You have to be getting bored of the cheerio's by now." She shrugged looking away from me and back to the front of the room.
"What, so you suggest I use her for a new fuck." I laughed. "And she's probably not gay." I slipped out quickly at the end. "Plus not every girl I meet I want for sex you know."
"Who are you and what the fuck have you done with Santana?" she mused raising an eyebrow. "Today has been so weird. I expect my girl to be returned my tomorrow or I'm sending a search party out.
There we go again she just called me her girl. HER girl! Nothing, any other day and I might have passed out by such a simple comment and that's no lie. Yeah I've slept with more girls than my parent's would be proud off but Quinn was the only person I'd felt feelings for. The kind that makes you want to be there the next morning feelings. And believe me I've spent countless hours trying to distinguish the line between best friend feelings and something more, and now it just feels like I've been hurled around in another emotional whirlwind after a year of suppressive emotion.
"Next thing you know you'll be sleeping with Puck!" She whispered.
"I'd rather watch Twilight for 5 days straight."
The end of school bell stopped Quinn from answering as the whole class turned into frenzy, shoving things in their bags and tearing it out of the door. Well apart from the odd couple who always stayed behind to like suck up to the teacher or some shit. We followed suit as I walked Quinn out to the main entrance like our typical routine. Quinn quit the cheerio's after Sophomore year, really it was me who convinced her to join in the first place, she agreed but quickly realised it wasn't her cup of tea which I admire, she's knows who she is, knows what she wants and isn't going to follow the crowd or try to fit in with the crowd. Its funny how she didn't want that, she wanted to focus on her grades get a good education without the pressure of belonging to a specific clique and in the process did, it's probably her likeable personality and fucking goddess looks.
"Have fun at cheer practise, I'll text you later" Quinn smiled kissing me on the cheek and basically prancing down the steps to her car I turned to head back inside to the gym seeing as though it's the winter we train inside which is one relief the only downside is you do something to piss Sue off its laps. Outside, and I've only experienced that once in the winter and it's basically like freezing your tits to ice cubes in these skimpy uniforms certainly not the weather I'm used to anyway. Not feeling like laps I spun around to head back inside almost knocking some guy who was hurrying out the building over.
"Watch where you're going" I muttered not in the mood to have a fully pledged go at this du, girl...
"Yeah, I sure will Mrs." The sarcastic tone retorted with a shake of her head.
"Brittany. Sorry, I wasn't paying attention."
"Right." she chuckled and carried on past me down the steps just like the other blonde did only seconds ago.
Throwing my head back and groaning I turned around and followed her. All I want is an answer is that so hard to get.
"Brittany, wait up!" I shouted, quickly walking after her just falling in the step with her strides.
"Please just leave me alone." She shook her head as she ran her hand though her long hair. Gulping away the horrible feeling that was settling in my chest I carried on.
"Look just, please answer me one thing I'll leave you alone after that I promise." I basically pleaded. Not wanting to know the answer but the curiosity was eating away at my thoughts.
"I'm listening."
"Why do I meet your expectations" I sighed. "That's it, that's all I want to know."
"Don't you have somewhere to be" She stopped and pointed at my uniform.
"Head cheerio" I shrugged. "Sue won't make me do anything." I lied. Sue will most likely kill me, unless you have some terminal illness and physically can't move you're expected to be there. Blood in blood out I inwardly cringed at the punishment I'm going to get tomorrow but hey no going back now, it'd be better not turning up at all than turning up late and besides we was already out of the school grounds.
"Right, cause you're different to everybody else. My bad"
"What's that supposed to mean?" I narrowed my eyes not liking where this was going, and I have a strange feeling the saying 'the truth hurts' is going to strongly apply here.
"Look Santana, I'll be really honest with you here. I don't have any time for people like you. You know Halloween when we knocked on your door." I nodded, wondering how the hell this has got to relate to her hatred for me. Did she like not like my candy or something?
"You said straight away that you where the 'head cheerio'" she laughed as my expressions hardened again. "But you where really sweet and to be honest, insanely beautiful which I think you know far too well. I shouldn't have done but I made an assumption from that comment." She paused. "That you where just another spoilt, stuck up bitch who thinks she's better than anyone else because you're 'popular' or get a lot of attention." She shook her head and carried on walking as I regained movement in my muscles and followed suit though the feeling in my throat was almost painful.
"Well that's what I expected you to be like, but for a second I thought you were different those 5 minutes you seemed to have proven me wrong you where so lovely with my sister. Then I saw what you where like at school, how you completely made a girl feel worthless. And that Santana is why I have no time for you. You completely met my expectations that I really. Really didn't want to be true. Now can you please leave me alone?" She finished her eyes hardening again as I glanced up at her before fixating my gaze back on our feet as they walked and clutched my folder to my chest tighter.
"That's." I sighed. "That's not fair"
"No Santana, What you do, what you did to Rachel isn't fair."
"Oh come on. I said one thing! She shouldn't take it so seriously!"
"You're un believable." She laughed.
"You're judgemental!" I protested back feeling increasingly angrier "You don't even know me." I huffed.
"Exactly, and I'd like to keep it that way." There's nothing more I can do. I sighed that steady feeling of disappointment settling in.
"Uh, okay. Sure" I muttered as she nodded and put her earphones in and steadily walked ahead of me as I slowed down. Yeah I'll be the first to admit I say some things without thought, and I definitely say what's on my mind. But I don't go out of my way to make people's lives miserable, am I really that fucking bad that someone who's barely spoke to me wants nothing to do with me. I'll make a note to ask Jake later. Until then I'm left with a walk back to school to pick up my car and get home as soon as possible. Curiosity really does kill the cat.
10 minutes later and I had finally made it back home but there had been no sign of Brittany on my drive back, probably her super long legs. I sighed, pushing open the front door to the smell off my mom cooking in the kitchen.
"Good day at school Santana?" She smiled from the open kitchen we have as Jake came running down the stairs.
"You could say that." I chuckled, picking Jake up and dropping my bag to the floor.
"Tana!" he squealed as I spun him round before letting him drop to the floor.
"Someone's happy today!" I laughed before heading over to mom with Jake at my heels. "What have you given him? Please don't tell me coke?!" I chuckled as my mom shook her head.
"He made a new friend or something. Won't tell me much apparently its top secret"
"Well what'd you say we head up to the park for a bit and you can tell me all about it?" I smiled as he nodded quickly.
"Can I mom?!"
"As long as you and Santana are back in an hour, your father will be home and dinner will be ready." Mom nodded in my direction as I smiled. The best part of coming home is the security, the place you can get away from everyone else and just be yourself 100% without people judging your every decision. Well I'm lucky enough to have that anyway.
"Go put your shoes on while I get changed quickly." I said as I quickly ran up the stairs to my room and pulled out a pair of skinny ripped jeans and a tank top but seeing as though it's not exactly warm so to speak outside I paired it up with a scarf and a leather jacket. Quickly hanging up my Cheerio's uniform I grabbed my phone from my bag and ran back downstairs where Jake already had the door open and was waiting.
"Right, we'll be back in an hour!" I shouted taking Jakes hand and shutting the door behind us as we stepped into the fresh air.
"Race you to the park!" He laughed unhooking our hands and racing it away from me. If there's one thing I am, it's definitely competitive and I don't care if it's my little brother or someone my own age, I want to win.
"There's no way you'll beat me!" I laughed chasing after him, the park's only a few minutes up the road so at least I won't be crippled over by the time we get there. I easily caught up and slowed down to an easy jog all the way there as I checked over my shoulder almost laughing at the look of determination on his face. I was about 2 meters away from busting thought the gate and winning this dam thing but instead I clasped my leg and stopped.
"NO! My leeeg!" I cried, smiling as he tore open the gate and stepped inside as I faked a hobble and followed him in.
"You let me win!" he pouted as I let out a small laugh. "Nu uh you just went too hard for me Jakey boy." Pleased with my response he nodded and ran for the swing as I followed him and took a seat on the swing next to his and started pulling my legs in and out after a push to get momentum.
"Soooooo" I drew out as I looked over at Jake who had his tongue sticking out to the side and kicking his legs wildly. "Who's your new friend?"
"Her names Lexie" He smiled "But don't tell mom!" I laughed at his antics and cute little blush he had forming on his face.
"Oooooh Jakey and Lexie sitting in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G" I sang as his face emulated pure horror.
"EW GIRLS NO!"
"You won't be saying that in 6 years time" I smiled knowingly.
"Whatever" He muttered. "Can we play tag?"
"If you answer me one question" I said thoughtfully on how I would word this. He's 6 years old not exactly the best person to ask but sometimes it's easier, sometimes kids can see things you can't.
"Sure"
"Do you think I'm a bad person J" I muttered as his expressions reaped confusion.
"You're the best big sister in the world and the nicest person ever Saan" the smile he gave me almost made me feel instantly better but if anything it definitely reassured me the thought he would ever mirror the impressions of me that other people have would be heartbreaking he's my rock just as much as I am his and that'll never change.
"Thanks J" I smiled jumping of the swing "Now how about we get this game of tag star..."
"LEXIE!" He shouted and tore off away from me and in the opposite direction as I eagerly turned around to see the girl my brother seemed to like so much.
"No fucking way." I muttered shaking my head and stuffing my hands into my pocket unsure of where to go. Brittany seemed equally as shocked as me as she entered the park with her sister.
"Lexie play tag with me and my sister!" I heard him basically scream at her as he pointed at me as the little blonde girl seemed to recognise me as I gave her a little wave. I'm definitely going to have to teach my little guy some moves because screaming in a girl's face is definite no go.
"Tana you're on! Come on Lex quick!" he laughed as she followed him as they raced away up the slide and Brittany took a seat on the jungle gym bars and pulled out her phone. Fun sponge. I thought running after the two and catching them quickly tapping Lexie's shoulder and running away as she tore after Jake who seemed to have slowed down on purpose. I smiled instantly for a second before getting distracted and basically screamed louder than when I first got my period as Jake tagged me.
"This so isn't fair you two!" I laughed running after them as they high fived each other. "You can't pair up in tag!" I laughed again just missing J who seemed delighted.
"Did you see it? Lex did you see that!?"
"Jake watch out!" she squealed almost blowing my chance as I tapped him on the shoulder and fist pumped the air as I ran up the slide and sat at the top. He's never been good at getting up the slide I smirked as his eyes narrowed cunningly. Before I knew it he had run over to the taller blonde and tagged her with a giggle.
"You're it!"
Britt looked shocked if anything as I smiled into the palm of my hand as she glared at me basically accusing me with her eyes as I shrugged in response.
"You're all crazy" She muttered before running off after lexie and tagging her. And by running I mean floated, basically pranced. Fucking glided everywhere she went too busy starring at Brittany to notice the in-coming predator Lexie tagged me on the shoulder as I slid down the slide screaming with a laughing Lexie following me down and crashing into my back.
"That was so stealthy!" I mustered poking her in the side causing a fit of giggles to fill the space around us as I glanced up at Brittany who was now at the top of the Jungle gym. For a second I swear I saw a smile but that was most probably my imagination because right now she seemed uninterested to say the least.
"No hit backs!" The smaller girl protested as I stood up and shook my head.
"Cheaters, cheaters everywhere!" the smaller blonde just smiled and ran off quickly to Jake who was hiding in the tunnel last time I tracked him. Seizing my opportunity I slowly made my way over to the Jungle gym and climbed up and almost out of breath I sat tentatively a good metre away from Brittany as I opened my mouth to say something but got cut off as she groaned in frustration. Suddenly feeling the happy and elated feeling I felt 10 minutes ago left just with the body language she radiated.
"Just because you run around in a park and play 'tag' doesn't mean I've changed what I think Santana."
"I didn't expect you too." I sighed. "But you know I stand by what I said as well. You're not being fair." I paused. "Don't get confused between my personality and my attitude. My personality is who I am my attitude depends on who people are." I shrugged and hoped the short distance down.
"Jay, come on mum wants us home before dad get's back." I smiled as he emerged from one side of the tunnel and helped Lexie out with him. "You can see Lex another time." I added noticing the pout on his face. "It's been a pleasure to meet you Lexie" I smiled and offered my hand too her as she shook it then run too Brittany.
"Bye Lexie!" Jake shouted as we headed out the park and back home with Brittany still in the same position my words had left her in.