I stayed with Santana for a few more days before my own life called me back. She promised she would be home soon, and I was greatly looking forward too it. I was lying by the pool when I was suddenly pushed into the water, and I wasn't too happy about it either. Ready to blow up at the person who pushed me in, I expected it to be Puck or Quinn, I was shocked to find a brunette smiling down at me. The smile on my face couldn't have been bigger as I looked up at those big brown eyes starring down at me. She laughed even though I didn't find it all that funny, so to get my revenge I grabbed a hold of her leg and pulled Santana down into the water with me. It was my turn to laugh and I did but as soon as she came back above water I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me.
Smiling she backed me into a corner and rested her hands on my hips and leaned her forehead against mine. "I've missed you." Came her soft reply, the smile still plastered on her face.
"I missed you too." I whispered and wrapped my arms around her neck. Softly she brushed her lips over mine, and I can't explain how much I missed the tingling feeling that was left whenever she kissed me. Briefly I kissed her back before resting my forehead against hers once again. "Welcome home honey." I smiled.
"Good to be home." She pecked my lips again, and I certainly wasn't complaining about it.
"How about we get you upstairs and dry you off?" She nodded and I pushed her back with a smile on my face and climbed out of the pool. I smiled to myself knowing that she was watching me. "Stop drooling." I didn't turn around as I said this but I could picture the look on her face and it made me giggle slightly. I heard her climb out and before I knew it her arms were around my waist as she kissed the back of my neck.
"You are so beautiful." She whispered in my ear, and instantly the butterflies consumed my stomach.
An hour later we were cuddled on the couch watching something on t.v. I wasn't paying attention to it though, my eyes were glued to Santana. She looked better than the last time I had seen her but it was still evident that she was incredibly tired. It was cute when she focused on what she was watching, occassionally she would look down and smile at me. Her fingers ran through my hair, my head rested on her lap, her other arm rested over my waist. Turning my head I placed a soft kiss on her stomach and watched as a smile formed across her face. It was moments like this that I knew I didn't want to be with anyone else and that no one could treat me better than Santana.
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Two weeks later summer had come to an end, Santana and I had started working again, more than we had been. It made coming home that much better though, knowing that after a hard day of work I could come home to the woman I loved. Whether she knew it or not, and whether I was ready to fully admit it didn't matter. The feeling couldn't be denied and everyday the feeling grew, and slowly but surely it was getting harder to deny how I felt. Especially to Rachel, at least three times a day she asked me if Santana and I were a couple yet and if I'd told her that I love her. Everyday my answer was the same, 'no', but that didn't stop her from asking. She even got Quinn on my case, and if I knew them they were both on Santana's case as well.
I hadn't spent much time at home, between work and school, I'm going for masters and it was taking up a lot of time. I can't tell you how many nights I had spent at the library almost falling asleep. One night I felt a slight rub on my back and a cup of hot chocolate being set down beside me, instantly I thought it was Santana who had come to visit. However when I looked up I was very wrong, and I wasn't pleasantly surprised either. "Hi Tina." I faked a smile. "Thanks for the hot chocolate."
"No problem hun. Seen you working over here and I thought you might need a pick me up."
"Yeah I was about ready to fall asleep." I took a sip of the hot chocolate, I wasn't about to let it go to waste.
We sat and talked for a while and she asked me a few questions about Santana and I. To which I answered the truth, sadly there was no me and Santana at least not as a couple.
When I got home two days later I arrived just in time to watch Tina leave my apartment, she hadn't seen me which was a good thing. I could only take that girl in small doses. Opening the door to my apartment I called out for Santana, she was supposed to have the day off.
"Honey, I'm home." It was an inside joke between us. "I brought you a blueberry muffin."
"Living room." She didn't sound as happy as she normally did.
Sitting down next to her I saw her eyes fill up with tears. "Hey what's wrong?"
"Nothing, I'm fine. Blueberry muffin?" Handing her the muffin I kissed her cheek but I knew something was seriously bothering her.
"Santana?"
"Did you kiss Tina?"
My eyes widened in shock. "No, of course not."
"Really? Because that's not what she said. I mean its fine if you did, you don't have to lie to me about it."
I stood up, half in anger and half in disbelief. "I would never kiss her, you are the only person that I want to kiss. I can't believe you would think I would kiss her."
"She said you did, and she explained it in full detail."
Heading for the door I grabbed the coat I had just taken off. It was getting late and slightly cold, opening the door I made a smart-ass comment. "Watch me slam the door and leave in full detail!"
I didn't want her to follow me, I didn't want to be near her. How could she ask me that, how could she not know that I was in love with her. It hurt so bad, but as I sat down on the beach and watched the waves crash against the shore I realized that as hurt as I was, Santana must be feeling it ten times worse. I was about to get up when I felt some one sit down next to me, she didn't say anything but I knew it was her. I always knew when she was around, she didn't say anything though. We just sat in silence both collecting our thoughts and emotions.
"I don't like when you leave." She admitted softly, her voice barely above a whisper.
"I don't like leaving like that and I'm sorry I did. I let it get the better of me I can't imagine how your feeling right now. Baby I would never kiss anyone but you, and I know we aren't together but I still respect you too much for that. I told you that when she made that stuff up about me and Ryder." I looked over at you for the first.
She nodded. "I know, I really do know that and I feel the same way about you. Can we just forget all of this please?"
Nodding I smiled at her. "I'm sorry I got upset I'm glad that you asked me, its just I don't want you to ever think I would kiss anyone but you. I've just felt so selfish lately, like me going to visit you when you were dealing with stuff back home. I haven't thought about what you wanted and I've only been thinking about myself and I'm sorry."
"B, stop!" Her tone was serious. "You're probably the most unselfish person I've met, you care more about others than you do yourself, you'd do anything to help someone, you're just amazing."
"I should know better, I feel like I'm going to hurt you, not that I ever would do it intentionally I just have a bad wrap for that and I don't want that to happen with you."
"Ok well in that case were both being selfish. Look, we're not gonna get hurt. Its not bad for us to want to talk to each other and be around one another and for us to want to spend time together."
"I won't argue since I know we're both stubborn."
She gasped and smiled. "Brittany Pierce, not arguing?"
"If you want me too I can." I smiled as she silenced my by softly brushing her lips over mine. Before gently straddling my lap and lying me down on the sand. I kissed her back and wrapped my arms lightly around her neck. Everything that had happened in the past half hour since I got home was the furthest thing my mind. I pulled her a little closer to me, deepening the kiss as she ran her hands up and down my sides.
Lightly she bit my lip and the butterflies consumed not only my stomach but my entire body. I wrapped my legs around her waist and ran my tongue over her bottom lip, butterscotch lip gloss, my favourite. Opening her mouth a little she ran her tongue over mine and cupped my cheek in her hand ever so softly. Santana massaged her tongue over mine and scratched her fingers softly up and down my side.
Running my fingers gently over the back of her neck I barely mumbled 'I love you', in that completely platonic way of course. Ha, yeah right who I am kidding at this point, well Santana obviously. Pulling back she smiled at me, those brown eyes shinning even in the darkness. "I love you too baby." She had no way of knowing how those words had such an effect on me, and I promised that maybe one day I'd tell her. Leaning back in she lightly kissed my lips. I barely kissed her back, I knew how it drove her crazy when I did that, so I couldn't resist.
She moved her kisses down my neck and I felt her teeth scrape over my pulse point. One thing Santana knew was exactly how to drive me crazy. Nibbling on it for a minute I ran my fingers up and down her back and she kissed across my jaw to the other side of my neck and down to my collarbone.
I tried to suppress the moan that was longing to come out but I did so to no avail. I moaned softly and I wasn't sure how she would take it, as much as we'd made out in the past few months it was never like this. Leaning back up she pecked my lips softly and I kissed her back and let my lips linger on hers. "I love the beach." I whispered as she continued to rub my side.
"We should definitely come to the beach more often."
We stayed tangled together on the beach for a little while before I gave Santana a piggyback ride back to our apartment. I carried her right upstairs to her room where she jumped off and climbed into her bed. Laying back she smiled at me with that devilish grin of hers. "Come join me baby." It wasn't a question but a statement and there was no way I couldn't comply.
The next morning we lied in bed barely awake, sometimes we liked to do this, just decompress and be together. We didn't need words but sometimes our best conversations were had in the early morning hours.
"I feel like I can make it through anything as long as you're here." Santana lightly ran her fingers up and down my back, my face buried in the crook of her neck.
"You can make it through anything but it's not because of me but on those off days when you can't I'll be here to pick up the slack." Leaning up I kissed her cheek and laid my head back down.
"No really trust me its you. You make everything so much easier. Just by talking to me you make me so happy and its impossible to be mad or upset when I'm talking to you. I just really love you." She kissed my forehead.
Cuddling into her more I thought for a minute, I wasn't really sure what to say. "I'm glad because I don't like when you're upset but that's what friends are for."
She laughed. "Sweetie I hate to tell you this but I think we crossed the friends line last night." Looking down at me she winked.
"Yeah maybe, but that lines been blurry for awhile." I kissed her
shoulder and then the side of her neck.
Squeezing me a little she spoke softly. "I say screw that line."
"I think I'm going to have to agree with you again."
She looked down at me with a puzzled look on her face. "I am so not used to you agreeing with me this much but I happen to like it." She smiled. "By the way, good morning baby."
Every time she called me baby it gave me the most intense butterflies and I loved it every time she did.
"Don't get used to it, I'm not fully awake yet."
"I'm savoring it while I can. Confession. I've wanted to kiss you like that for so long."
I looked up and pecked her on the lips. One day I just might get the courage to tell her how I really felt, but I didn't want to mess up what we had going because it was such a good thing.
A few days later I was lying in bed almost asleep. Santana had to work at the bar tonight and wasn't meant to be home for a while. I texted her as much as I could but it was getting increasingly harder to open my eyes. Music played softly in my ears from the headphones of my ipod, so I didn't hear the door open and then close downstairs. I did hear the slight knock at my bedroom door and then it open slowly. Turning around I saw her figure in the shadows, lean up against the doorframe.
"Hi baby." I couldn't see it but I know she smiled. I moved over in bed as she walked towards me and laid down. Wrapping my arms around her I held her close to me, I missed her when she wasn't home, especially at night.
"Goodnight, sweet dreams babe." I was practically asleep, and I knew now that she was here it wouldn't take much longer before I was.
"There's something I need to be honest about." She whispered and looked over at me.
TBC…