BlackDiamonds.32.20.54, it prob would be awkward, esp if it was between any ponies besides Jeff & Adam. I don't think there's anything w/ those two I couldn't work with. LadyDragonsblood, aw, sometimes fluff is needed. Rhi's ponies are simply awesome. (smiles) I'm happy to be inspiration where Adam's concerned. Oh, yes, the hair stays long or kinda long in fics. Thank you :) redsandman99, thanks. Yeah, me too. Me too. Debwood-1999, it'd be neat to own one. Rhi, that talented thing, look what she started, lol.

Hardy's Edge: Jedam Shots;
Chapter ten/ 'I Said I Liked You'
Rated; M/ L (angst)
Set-up; Right back to angst! I was listening to Edge's interview w/ Bubba the Love Sponge on You Tube from 2009, mainly just to hear the parts about Jeff. There was a line where Adam said he really liked Jeff, but at first he sounds like he started to say 'loved', but stopped himself and changed it. It just was so sweet for me & this was born.

It had been months since the Edge interview with Bubba The Love Sponge. Jeff had heard it. He couldn't get a certain piece of it out of his mind. It kept replaying and replaying in his head like a track on repeat. "I hope he figures out what's going on & uh.. Cuz I've always lov.. I've always really liked Jeff." He almost said it on air. Almost said loved. It sounded so sad. So regretful and full of slowly healing heartbreak.

It had been months before this that Jeff and Adam ended. Months before that that Adam decided he'd had enough of Jeff's shit and of waiting on him to commit or be what he needed. So many months and cold nights and Jeff reliving words said and things done in his head. He missed Adam, always had. Missed holding him, kissing him, waking up to him in a hotel room after a night of making love, missed spending time with him and laughing and goofing off with him the most. They had been so right for each other at one point. But he never tried to stop him and he never fought hard enough for him. Not that Adam didn't deserve it, but Jeff just didn't feel like he deserved Adam.

Now he stood at Adam's hotel room door. He had traveled so far to be here and wasn't sure if he'd even catch him. With a deep breath, he knocked and waited. Adam answered after a little while, questioning look of surprise on his face of who he found standing there. Jeff just took him in. He'd saw Adam on TV and had him captured in so many pictures, but it was nothing compared to seeing Adam in person and it almost took Jeff's breath away and made him forget what he was going to say. If he even knew to begin with.

The blonde opened his mouth to ask, but Jeff spoke up. "You still love me." It was part question and confirming truth. Jeff had heard it right. "The Bubba Interview? You said you always loved me."

Adam stared at him a moment as he thought back. "I think I said I liked you."

Jeff shook his head. "You stopped. You were going to say love, I know it. I heard you. You caught yourself and said liked instead, as if anyone wouldn't notice, especially me."

Adam shrugged, neither confirming or denying. "What's it matter? All that was long ago. We were long ago."

"It matters, Adam. I can't stop thinking.." Jeff looked down and wet his lips.

Adam's lips twitched. He folded his arms. "You bailed on me anyway. I was hurt and you bailed. You already made your choice when you decided to leave. Now you're in TNA. Are you happy there? Were you happy without me?"

"No." He looked up, locking eyes with his former lover. "No, I'm not. Not without you. I've never been. I'm so sorry, Adam. I didn't deserve you. I'm a mess, and you.." Jeff shook his head. 'You're so perfect.'

"You hurt me." Adam ground out. His heart felt like it would explode. There was so much left unsaid.

"I know. I can't take it back. I didn't know. But you said.."

Adam almost growled. "Fuck what I said. What about what you didn't say? You couldn't ever tell me how you felt! You hid us. Hid us from your dad, hid us from Matt and Amy. We were a lie."

"No." Is all Jeff said.

Adam slouched and leaned against the door frame. Why bother trying? Jeff was never going to grow a set about this. "What do you want, Jeff?"

"I.." Jeff swallowed and silence settled over him. He wasn't sure. This was probably a mistake. Adam would never understand.

Adam shook his head. "I don't think you know. Or you're just too chickenshit to say it, as always."

Jeff flinched as the door was slammed in his face. Sighing, he placed his hand on the door. "I love you too, Adam."

The line in bold italic is not mine. It was something Adam did say in the interview. He says "Cuz I always l-" & it sounds like he wanted to say love or there was some static on the phone, but it's like he stops and changes it to "I've always really liked Jeff", it just made my slashy mind & my Jedam deprived mind go into overdrive & I wrote this. It was actually good hearing him talk about Jeff. He even basically said he'd lay down for Jeff.. or that he was okay jobbing for him. So, yeah, he'll lay down for Jeff & he always loved him :P But his voice dropped & sounded so sad & that's what inspired the angst. & god, I wanted to write Adam hearing him & opening the door and them making up, but it sounded too good like this.