Ok, This took some time (: I was on tumblr the other day and came across some quotes that were really ten/rose so I used them, they are in the end (: Enjoy!
This shouldn't have happened, the Doctor thought, what he just did. Sleeping with Rose Tyler before she even met him, properly met him. What was he thinking? Now he couldn't go back, he just couldn't. A part of him was happy, just happy he did it and his mind was peaceful, no more regrets in there. But deep in his soul he knew that what he'd done was wrong, so very wrong. His future self, well, his past self, his ninth reincarnation won't know about this and when he regenerates into himself, this him or what lasted of him because he was dying, when that happens Rose might go out of the Tardis and back to her normal life again. How stupid was he? What was he going to do?!
And there was the light, that golden spark in his hand. Not now, not just now! Why?!
"I don't want to go"
"Oh, Hello" said he, and it was when he noticed something weird in his mouth. Something new. "MMM...new teeth, that's weird" His hand went up to his head, now full of hair, brown hair. "Hair! I've got hair I'm not bowl anymore"
Rose was astonished. This, No. This was just, no, impossible. But there he was, right in front of her eyes! It was him, the same man, but how? How on earth?!
"I slept with you" She was angry.
"What?" He was confused.
"You used me! I slept with you last year!" How did he dare? And now pretend he doesn't remember? It was great and he doesn't remember..yeah sure. She wasn't buying this.
"Rose, are you feeling alright? Do you want me to give you something? I mean, I know I changed but sleeping with you? Look I don't understand, this doesn't make sense"
"John, or whoever you are, what did you do to the Doctor? Where the hell is he? This isn't funny you know! What did you do to him?! WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME!" Who was this man? Where was the Doctor, her precious Doctor. She wished he was alright.
He came closer to her and tried to touched her arm to calm her down.
"Don't touch me! Don't you dare! What did you do to him and who are you?"
Could this be real? The Doctor thought. Rose, in front of him, she was crying, she was scared, she was...shouting at him without a logical explanation. The only thing that came into his mind that made sense was..but he would never do it. Could it be? That himself, this him, this reincarnation travelled to the past and she saw him before she met his past him?
"Rose, I beg you, calm down. Please, look this is complicated enough with you not crying and now I don't know what to do, or what you are saying, I don't understand. Please talk to me"
She stopped abruptly. Was it possible? That he was actually saying the truth? "Ok" She answered. Now, this is a start he thought.
"Now, Rose, what is this all about?"
"New years eve, 2004 I was with my mother in the State, that night, the night I met a man called John Smith, he looked exactly like you, and I'm not saying that you two were just very similar, you too were the same man! Exactly the same, and we..slept together"
"Rose, you are saying nonsense, I just changed you saw me!"
"You are trying to tell me you are the Doctor? The same man who wanted to take me to so many places? Barcelona?"
"Yes, Rose the same man"
Rose stopped to think. This was all to abnormal for her. This was to much.
"How many times did you ask me to came with you?"
Ohh so this was it. The "I ask you you answer" time.
"I asked you twice, you were with Mickey boy, your boyfriend"
"He is not my boyfriend anymore" She sighed "Our first adventure?"
"Living Plastic" How long was this going to take?
After several minutes trying to get him to answer one of her questions wrong she gave up, was it possible for him to be the same Doctor she met?
"Rose, all those...things you said before you started asking questions, how?...Where did you get them?"
"I told you, New Years Eve I slept you this you, don't ask me how! You are the superior Time Lord here"
"But, you do realise that the only way you and I... well, you know, would be If I travelled to the past and do that right?"
"That makes sense, I guess"
"Tell me everything, I want to know every detail so I can figure something out"
They walked to the library, they sat down in two different chairs and Rose told him everything. She rusted him, she could se the Doctor in him. Or maybe she was so tired that she just wanted him to be who she wanted him to be.
"Wait, stop right there" said The Doctor "What was I wearing?"
"A brown pinstripe suit and white converse", why is his relevant?" She asked.
"Come with me" He stood up from his chair and walked to where she was sitting. He extended his hand for her to catch. It was a test, in some way, he was testing her trust.
She hesitated a bit at first but in the end she could see in his eyes that he was dying for her to believe him. She took his hand.
They walked untill they reached their destination. The place in the Tardis where all of the Doctor clothes were. He walked all around the place looking for something, clothes she guessed. Once he found them he took off the black leather jacket that he was carrying and was going to take his shirt off when he saw she was still there in the room.
"You are not going to look are you?" He asked nervous.
"You brought me here" was all she managed to say.
He blushed. Maybe he could have a bit of fun here "What?" He asked while he got closer to her trying to walk in a sexy way and wiggling his eyebrows "Do you find me...attractive? Sexy maybe?" He looked down to his body.
She laughed out loud. It was nice to hear her laugh. Maybe she was even happy and not scared of him anymore.
"Yeah, very nice Doctor, very nice" She walked out of the room "Tell me when yo are ready"
God, what the hell was that? She had never seen that part of him. Was he flirting with her? Did she...like that? She knew she loved the Doctor, and love meant that she loved him even though he changed his outside. She wasn't used to him yet, but she knew she'll get there soon. She wanted too, this version of him didn't bother her, not ain the least.
"I am ready" He called.
When she walked inside the room for the second time, she could see the man who was with her in NYE last year. It was him. Oh God, it was him. She had slept with the Doctor! She had! And he let that happened. But why?
"You are soooo him!" She smiled "You are! But I don't understand... Doctor, why?"
"I don't know Rose and I'm terribly sorry, I really am"
There it was. The apology, he didn't want that to happened even though it did. What now? She shouldn't have said anything. Now everything was so awkward between them.
The Doctor could feel her tensed. He could feel she wasn't happy anymore, she was thinking way to much about this and maybe she was going to ask him to leave her home. Maybe that was it! Maybe she asked him to send her back home and he did, then he felt so lonely and felt like he messed his only opportunity of being happy and that was why he travelled back in time and slept with her. He didn't know.
"Do you want to go home?" He asked.
"This is home" She emphasised the word this.
"Then you are going to stay?"
"Why? Don't you want me to?"
"I would love yo to stay here, in the Tardis, your home" He tried to give her a sweet and reassuring smile "Are you mad at me? I don't know why my future self did whay he did but I won't do it Rose, I won't hurt you"
She knew he didn't hurt him but all of this was so confusing. "I'm not mad at you Doctor" She returned the smile "I'm going to bed, I'm tired" She didn't know what to do and this was a bit uncomfortable. Why did he think that she was hurt? It didn't matter, he wouldn't do it again with her.
It was 3 in the morning. Rose couldn't sleep, she had tried really hard but she couldn't. She stood up from her bed and went to walk around the Tardis, that might help. She walked around the console, then went to the library, she began to feel hungry so she went to the kitchen.
She made herself a cup of tea and sat down in the table to drink it. A few minutes ago the Doctor entered and saw her there.
"Hi" He spoke softly.
"Hello"
"What are you doing awake? It's three in the morning. You should be in bed by now" He stood in the door.
"I can't sleep" Rose said looking at him deep in his eyes. Something had changed. He was going to do something new she noticed.
"That's because you need to be in my bed" He answered. He was going to give this a try. He'd been thinking. The only reason why he would go to the past and sleep with Rose would be if he lost her and was desperate to let go of his regrets. He didn't want to have regrets.
"Wh-WHAT?" She blushed furiously. He saw her red and grinned. "Doctor I don't understand, please be clear, sometimes I feel like you love me and sometimes I think you are just playing with me. What is this?" Maybe it was because she was half asleep by now but she was saying everything she thought without thinking about consequences.
"Rose, I'm never close to people but if I did what I did in NYE it was because I couldn't handle not being close to you" He stopped and got closer "I'm just waiting to see who's going to walk out of my life next, I didn't know you were hurt, you didn't seem to be" He tried to explain.
"Doctor, scars aren't always visible"
"I know, but you are gonna make it after all, you'll find a nice bloke who can give you the life every human girl deserves and you are gonna leave"
"I want you though" She replied as casually as she could. This was so romantic, just being with him in the middle of the night talking about their feelings. He was opening to her.
"And I don't want anyone else to have you" He laughed bitterly.
"Then what are we waiting for?"
The Doctor took Rose to his bedroom laid in bed cuddle to each other.