A/N: and here we go again... :)

WARNING: This chapter contains self harm

Disclamer: I do not own glee

Wes stared blankly at the walls of his dorm room. He sat on the edge of his bed, without his Dalton blazer jacket and tie loosen. He glanced over the clock and groaned. '10.45...' he thought and ran his hand over his head. He was badly late for the classes, once again. Actually it was really rare that he was late for anything. Wes was always at time.

Wes stood up and rubbed his arm, hissing when he felt a wave of pain going through his hand all to his shoulder. The Asian boy looked at his hand, rolling his sleeves up exposing dozens of cuts on his arm. Others were old, but others was new and made for yesterday evening.

Sure, Wes knew that cutting was stupid and ridiculous and also, dangerous but when he tried it first time, Wes found the feeling of the cold metal on his skin pretty good after all. Like all the worries were flushed away from the world.

Wes sighed and rubbed his eyes. "David is going to kill me", he mumbled tiredly as he walked to the door, taking his blazer with him.

Nick walked, no he almost ran to the cafeteria and went straight away to the table, where they usually sat. The brunet's eyes were at only one person who sat there, talking with Thad. As Nick got there, Blaine's head shot up and he looked at Nick and paled, smile vanishing from his face.

"Can we talk?" Nick asked sweetly, almost too sweetly thought Blaine and pointed outside the cafeteria. Blaine swallowed hard and then nodded slowly. Nick then turned around and walked back to the hall, Blaine right after him. The hazel eyed teen looked over his shoulder and saw Thad giving him a strange look with David. At the entering of the dining room, Blaine passed Wes, when the Asian walked in. "Where the hell have you been? David is freaking out here", Blaine asked confused. "I slept in", Wes answered. Blaine frowned. "That's totally not usually from you…"

"Well… I was pretty tired and I studied pretty long time before sleeping", the Asian half lied. Sure, he studied almost whole night. But then just something snapped in him and he went to the bathroom.

Blaine looked at his friend worried. "You are pale as a ghost. Are you sure you're not sick?" he asked and tried to place his hand on Wes' forehead. Wes slap the curly haired boy's hand away. "I'm okay… Just tired", he said. "Now go, Nick is waiting…"

Blaine walked to the hall, in front of Nick, who was waiting him with crossed arms. Blaine put his hands in his pockets and avoided Nick's gaze. "So what's up?" the hazel eyed teen said. Though he had pretty clear idea, what was this all about. "You haven't told anyone?" Nick asked frowning. "Of course not!" Blaine yelled almost too quickly. Nick's frown deepened and he put his arms now on his hips. "Are you sure?" he started narrowing. "Because Jeff had almost a panic attack, when you rushed out of our room yesterday", he added, slightly terrified and looked at his feet. "I had to urge him to stay in our room rest, this morning…"

Blaine shifted uncomfortably. "Nick", he started and put his hands on the brunet's shoulder. Nick looked up and met Blaine's gaze. "I won't ever tell anyone about this", Blaine told. "It's not my job to do and I have not permission to do that", he added smiling. "You and Jeff, must tell this yourself when you're ready. Because I don't want to ruin anything between you two."

Nick's lips curved a small smile. "Yeah, you're right Blaine", he said. "We can trust you", he added; "I am so happy that you're supporting us and keep our secret. You're not just a hobbit after all."

Blaine smacked the brunet's arm playfully and smirked. "Why thank you, but I am not that small", he said. "You're not even so much taller than me", he pointed out. Nick shrugged. "Still, you're short."

Blaine rolled his eyes. "Let's go back to cafeteria", he said and started to walk back. "Actually", Nick said. "I'm going to check him", he told and started walk to the dorms instead. Blaine nodded and winked; "No funny business there!"

Nick held his middle finger up, continuing walking. Blaine snorted and went back to his friends. As soon as he sat up to the chair he looked at his friends, who were looking at him interrogatively. "What?" Blaine asked. "What was that?" Thad asked. "Oh, he just asked if… umm… Kurt and I want to go with him and Jeff to shopping someday", Blaine lied, not looking at his friends. Trent rose his eye brows, but didn't even bother to ask. Actually nobody didn't

Nick walked to his and Jeff's dorm room and shut the door quietly to not wake Jeff up, when he found out that the blond was quick asleep. The brunet smiled at the sight and walked to Jeff's bed, sitting down on it. Nick was slightly disappointed when Jeff opened his eyes slowly and gave him a sleepy smile.

"Hi…" he mumbled. Nick smiled to him and answered to Jeff's greeting. "Hi, you. Slept well?" he asked stroking Jeff's hair lightly. Jeff nodded and arched his back while stretching. "I talked with Blaine", Nick told and the blond turned slowly to look back at the brunet, worry in his eyes. "W-what he said? Did he tell anyone?" he asked carefully.

"He is supporting us", Nick told smiling. "And no he haven't told anyone, 'cause it's not his job to do and he don't' want to ruin anything between us", Nick said. Jeff sighed in relief. "Thank god… He is good guy", he muttered, but then remembered something. "But I bet he is going to tell Kurt after all", he said. Nick shrugged. "Well, it's not that bad", he said and added in his mind; 'Because Kurt was the one who helped me the most to get you.'

"Yeah, you're right", the blond said. Then he got up from the bed and yawned again. He didn't even notice Nick's stare. In fact, Nick was staring Jeff's slim waist and his hips, and now he was drooling. He didn't even regret of drooling. Jeff was his boyfriend after all and he was happy that only he could get to see him like this. And of course do things to him…

Nick quickly shook his head, blushing to the thought. "Let's go out today", Nick said. Jeff turned around, rising his eye brow. "Like on date?" he asked, the brunet really heard hints of hope in his voice. Nick smiled and nodded. "Yeah. On date", he said and earned a bright smile from the blond. "This time, we won't go to the park and sing Melody Fall in front of everyone", he told and Jeff snorted from the memory. "Let's catch some coffee, the shopping and the next thing is surprise", Nick grinned.

Jeff beamed a shy smile to Nick and nodded a little. "Yeah", he said blushing. "Let's go on date. I'm going to shower first, okay?" he said and disappeared in the bathroom. Nick smiled widely and threw his fist in the air. Official date with Jeff! Hell yeah! Nick quickly ran out of the room. He really needed Blaine right now.

"Blaine!" Nick yelled excited and rushed to Blaine's dorm room. Blaine shot his head up from his laptop. "Hey. What's up?" he asked smiling. Nick sat next to Blaine on his bed. He watched on the corner of his eye, that Blaine was talking with Kurt in Skype. "Oh… Hi, Kurt", Nick said. Kurt narrowed on the camera. "What's with that voice?" he asked. "Nothing!" Nick said. He really didn't want to deal with Kurt's bitch glare right now, so he turned to Blaine.

"I need your help, Blaine", the brunet whispered. Blaine rose his eye brows. "Really? With what exactly?" he asked. Nick swallowed his excitement and leaned to whisper in Blaine's ear. "I have date with Jeff", he told. Blaine's face lit up and he really looked like a puppy. "Oh my god! That's so awesome!" he yelled. "What's awesome?" Kurt asked from the laptop.

"So what you need?" Blaine asked. "What I can do for you?" he added ignoring Kurt's 'Hey!'. "I need some help, with clothes, you know", Nick said biting his lip. Blaine's face change right away. "Oh… Umm… I think I am not really right person to that", he told sighing. "In what?" Kurt asked frustrated.

"I think Kurt can help you with that", Blaine said smiling. "Help with what?" Kurt asked, but once again he was ignored. "But I must told him that, if I ask his help", Nick said frowning. Blaine shrugged. "I know, but Kurt can keep your secret", the hazel eyed teen said. "Besides, he was the one who helped you with that Jeff situation."

Nick thought for a moment. Blaine was true. "Okay", Nick said and then turned to look at Kurt, who was pouting, adorably, like Blaine thought. "Hi, Kurt", Nick started. "Can you help me with something?" he asked. "I don't know if I want to", Kurt said rising his eye brows. "You don't even know what that something is", Nick pointed out. Kurt shrugged. "Yeah I know… Okay can't be mad", Kurt sighed. "What is it?"

"I have date with Jeff", Nick told smiling. Kurt's eyes widened. "Like, real date?" he asked and Nick rolled his eyes. "Yeah. Real date, Kurt", the brunet told grinning. Kurt smiled widely. "Oh y god! That's so great!" he beamed. Then his face fell. "Wait… Blaine you knew about this", he said lowly. Blaine smiled sheepishly and nodded. "I can't believe you didn't tell me… Okay we two talk about this later", he said pointing his boyfriend and then turned to look at Nick.

"Okay, wear something… not so classy, something casual", Kurt told and then he thought for a moment. "You still have those white jeans, right?" he asked. Nick nodded. "Yeah I have", he told. "Good! Wear those and then light color T-shirt", Kurt said smiling. Nick nodded. "Thank you so much, Kurt. Remind me that I bought you coffee, for pay back", he said and stood up from Blaine's bed.

Jeff styled his hair in the bathroom, smiling. He was seriously going to date with Nick. He took the hairspray and sprayed it into his hair, before he heard a knock from the door. Jeff frowned a little and went to look at who there was and opened the door. For his surprise he found Nick, standing there with light blue V-neck T-shirt, white jeans and a huge grin on his face. Jeff rose his eyebrows and smiled. Actually, it was the most handsome surprise ever.

Nick then took his hands behind his back and put a bright red rose in front of Jeff's face. "Rose for my beautiful boyfriend", he winked. Jeff opened his mouth to say something, but he just blushed. God, how much he loved when Nick called him boyfriend. It sounded so good and so right. The blond then took the rose from Nick and gave small kiss to the brunet's cheek. "Thank you."

Nick smiled at him and then put the arm out. "Shall we go", he asked with British accent, which made Jeff giggle. Jeff looked at the hand and then grab it. "Yes we shall", he said and they walked outside, closing their dorm room door.

Wes put the papers down to the table, in choir room and sighed rubbing his eyes. He glanced over the clock and saw that it was only an afternoon, even there was pretty dark outside. The Asian walked to the window and first thing what he saw were black clouds, it was soon raining. Great.

"Here you are, Wes", the Asian heard a voice from the door and turned around. David stood on the door way, with his usual smile on his face which always made Wes melt and weak from his knees. But not right now. "I've been looking for you like a hour now", the darker boy told. "Trent told me that you were in principal's office. Why?"

It was true, Wes was called to principal's office to discuss his sleeping in classes and about the mornings classes that he miss. Wes told them that he was tired and really frustrated to studying, because he had done that at nights too. He told, that he hasn't sleep well, for a months. Actually, this all was half true. Wes couldn't just tell them that he is cutting. Oh my god, that would be pretty bad mistake and they all will send him some kind of mental hospital to heal. So after all, Wes keep that to himself.

Wes walked back to the council table, not meeting David's gaze. "Because I've been little tired on my classes, nothing too serious", Wes told. David nodded slowly. "So, what are you doing here? We don't have practice today", David said. Wes just shrugged. "Just cleaning the papers", he told, not looking up from the table.

"Okay, finish soon. I want to do something with you today", David said smiling crossing his arms and leaned to the wall. "Such as?" Wes asked quietly. "I don't know", David said. "Maybe cuddle on the bed, or watch some movies with you", he added. Wes sighed and placed his hands on the table leaning in them. David frowned, when Wes didn't say anything. "You don't want to?" he asked, little bit hurt. Why Wes didn't want to do anything with him? Something was definitely wrong. "Is something wrong?"

Wes turned around and David's eyes widened. His boyfriend looked really tired. Wes had black bags under his eyes, he was pale and he was really looking like he was passing out soon. "You okay? Are you sick… You're really pale, Wes", David pointed out and took a step forward. He was really worried. Wes bit his lower lip and shook his head. "I can't do this anymore…" he said brokenly and it almost broke David's heart. "What you mean?"

"We… We can't do this anymore", Wes told quietly, but David still heard him. David opened his mouth but didn't get anything out. He really didn't understand Wes' words. "What you mean, that we can't do this anymore?" he finally asked. Wes moved uncomfortable and rubbed his other hand. "This. Us, it's not working", he told. David's eyes widened. Was Wes' breaking up with him?

"I-Is it me… Have I done something, 'cause I can-", David said but Wes stopped him by yelling. "It's not you David!" the Asian yelled hopeless. He looked around anxiously and bit his lip, fighting against the tears. "It's just… It's this", Wes said pointing himself and David. "I'm senior, David, you're not. I'm going to move away from Ohio to New York", he told. "I- I am never going back to here…" he added sadly. David took another steps forward. "Wes, it's going to work, I promise", David said and tried to calm Wes down, which caused Wes' to lose it again. "It's not going to work David!" he cried, not anymore fighting back his tears, letting them roll on his cheeks. "You- you won't get it… and you never will", he said quietly.

David just stared Wes, like progressing his words. Wes sighed frustrated and walked to David, passing him and slammed the door open, didn't notice Blaine and Trent who were standing there wide-eyed. Wes just ran pass them towards his dorm room.

Thad walked down the stairs and saw Wes, who rand towards him. "Hi, Wes", he said smiling, but Wes didn't respond to the greeting. Thad frowned and looked after Wes, who ran pass him quickly to the upstairs. The younger latter swear that he saw Wes crying or at least holding against a huge break down.

It was odd to see Wes crying. Wes never cries! He didn't cry if he had bad grade from test, he didn't cry if someone said something mean to him. No, it was just not his thing. Wes was always calm and happy, cheerful as Jeff, but these months he has been really odd. All the Warblers was worried.

Thad's frown deepened and he walked towards the choir room, where he found Blaine and Trent looking inside the choir room, really expressionless face. "Hey", Thad started confused. "What's going on in here?" he added for a while, when he didn't get respond to his greeting. Trent turned around to look at him and then pointed inside the choir room. Thad looked at the pointed way and saw David's pale, yes pale and blank face. Thad then walked inside the choir room and beside the darker boy and waved his hand in front of his eyes.

David turned his gaze at Thad, still saying nothing. "What happened?" the smaller boy asked. He was really frustrated that anyone hasn't saying anything, they were just quiet. David looked now like he was progressing the things, before he answered to Thad. "I-I think Wes just broke up with me", he mumbled. Thad's eyes widened. "What?" he started in confusion. "You must be joking… You think?"

David shook his head. "I-I don't even know", he said quietly. "Go after him for a fuck sake!" Blaine snapped at him from outside, when he came back from his confusion. David watched at him and took a deep breaths few times and then decide to so what Blaine said. He went quickly after his boyfriend.

Nick couldn't help but think how adorable Jeff was, with his light yellow T-Shirt, black skinny jeans and grey beanie. Sure he was really, like really sexy and all, Nick thought. But right now he was just so cute that the brunet would eat him, by his cuteness. Huh, creepy.

Jeff turned around and smiled at Nick. "What are you looking at?" he asked. Nick just answered with smile and shook his head. 'He really has any idea', he thought sighing "You", he said simply and looked lovingly at his boyfriend. Jeff smiled shyly and looked at the ground.

"You look absolutely adorable", Nick said dreamily, 'causing Jeff blush and mumble something. "Hm?" the brunet frowned. "What was that? I didn't quite get it", he added. Jeff rose his head and said same thing a little louder now. "I think you look too!" he almost yelled. Nick laughed at him. "Adorable?" he asked.

"Wh-? N-no, I mean you look handsome", Jeff stuttered and noticed how Nick's smile grew wider. "You think I look handsome", he smirked teasingly causing Jeff's face redden even more. If that was even possible. "Oh my god, I'm so-" he started but was cut off by Nick's lips on his. "Stop stuttering, Jeff", Nick said. "Though it's really adorable too when you stutter. But seriously, you have all rights to say that, 'cause you're my boyfriend", he winked. "But it's so embarrassing", Jeff pouted looking away. Nick rose his eyebrows. "To say that I am handome?"

Jeff nodded. "And that's because?" the brunet asked slowly. "You're my best friend, Nicky", Jeff sighed. "Two months ago, I had no idea that I would be in this situation… Dating you, Nick", he said sadly. "Hey hey hey… Why are you looking so sad?" Nick asked confused. Jeff shook his head. ""Because you're handsome and you pick up me, even you can date anyone you want", the blond explained.

Nick watched as his boyfriend sat on a bench which was nearby and looked at his feet. The brunet then shrugged. "Maybe you're right", he said. Jeff snorted. "See! I knew that you are with me just because-"

"Shut up, Jeff and listen to me", Nick said loudly an kneeled in front of the blond, smiling warmly to him. "You're right that maybe, just maybe, I do get anyone who I want", he started and then took Jeff's hand. "But they won't be as smart, funny, kind, adorable or beautiful as you are", he added lovingly and rubbed back of Jeff's hand with his thumb. "And actually I would continue that list yet long time, but I think we would never got back to Dalton to cuddle if I do that."

Jeff blushed. "I am not those things what you said", he mumbled causing Nick to gasp. "Jeffrey Sterling! Do I have to get mirror to you, because you are gorgeous. Your eyes are so beautiful, your hair is so bright that I really do think that if it's your right color, which it is. And your lips Jeff… Gosh your lips", Nick moaned and rand his thumb over Jeff's cherry lips. "They are so delicious and sweet… Divine if I can say."

Jeff giggled a little and blushed. "You're a dork", he said smiling a little. "Only yours", Nick said and kissed Jeff's forehead.

"Okay!" the brunet jumped up. "None of this anymore. Let's have some fun!" he added and smiled brightly. Jeff rose his eyebrows. "Oh, you have something else in you mind still", he said and Nick scoffed. "Well, duh. Come on", the brunet said and lift Jeff up from the bench and lead him forward.

They walked for a while and the Nick stopped causing Jeff bump into him. Jeff looked really confused and looked around. "Nicky", he said. "Why did you stop?" he asked frowning. They were middle of street, really nearby Lima Bean, but still there was nothing good date place around. Nick turned to look at the blond smiling. "You need to wear this", Nick said and gave Jeff a scarf from his pocket. Jeff took the scarf in his hands and looked pretty lost, which Nick thought that was cute, once again.

Jeff shrugged and then started to wrap it around his neck, until Nick stopped him laughing. "In front of your eyes, silly", he said. Jeff frowned. "But I can't see", he pouted. "Nick rolled his eyes. "That's the point, honey", the brunet told and took the scarf. "Turn around."

Jeff groaned but did what Nick told him to do and let him put the scarf in front of his eyes. "Do you trust me?" Nick asked quietly, taking Jeff's hand. Jeff nodded. "Yeah, I guess", he mumbled. Nick grinned widely and then started to walk carefully forward and led Jeff to his surprise.

Few minutes later, Jeff started to hear faint music and frowned. Where the hell Nick was taking him? Soon they stopped and nick turned to look at his boyfriend. "Close your eyes", he told. "I have a blindfold, Nick", Jeff said amused. "Yeah, I know… But still", Nick said and the blond could hear a pout in his voice. "Fine", the blond said. Nick smiled and untied the scarf carefully. "Eyes closed?" he asked. "Yes", Jeff answered. "You sure?"

"Nick!" Jeff laughed. "Okay!" Nick yelled and took the scarf off. "Ok, you can open your eyes now", the brunet said. The blond took a deep breath and opened his eyes. Jeff's jaw dropped. "Oh my god", he breathed smiling. "Funfair?" he said and Nick nodded. "You like it?"

"Are you kidding? I love this", Jeff grinned widely and jumped on Nick's neck, giving him a huge hug. "You are so sweet, Nick. Thank you!"

"Naww, like I said 'Anything to my love'", he winked. Jeff smiled and turned to walk the same way where the funfair was. "Best boyfriend. Ever", he breathed out smiling. Jeff then turned around, hands behind his back and looked at Nick. "You coming?"

Nick nodded and walked beside Jeff, taking his hand. "Where you want to go first?" he asked. Jeff blinked a few times and then looked around. "Umm.. I don't know", he said frowning. And then he noticed the carousel. "Oh my god! We go to that first", the blond said excited. Nick snorted. "You're such a child, Jeffy", he said lovingly and kissed Jeff's hand. Jeff pouted. "You were the one who brought me here."

"You're right, sorry", Nick said and rose his hands surrender. "Let's go then", he added and they walked to the carousel. "Which one of those carriage things you wanna go?" the brunet asked. "Bunny", Jeff said almost too quickly. Nick chuckled a little. "Fine, but you must sit on my lap that we can fit in that together", Nic said wiggling his eyebrows. Jeff blushed. Sitting on Nick's lap in front of the kids and everyone who were in this place. Embarrassing.

Nick climb top of the bunny carriage and patted his lap playfully. "Come on, Jeffy", he said smiling widely. Jeff couldn't help but blush and looked around, seeing really curious children watching at him. "Jeeeeeeffyyyyy", Nick called. "Damn you… Fine!" Jeff said and climbed to sit down on Nick's lap, pouting.

When the carousel started to move, Jeff noticed all small kids looking at them eyes as big as plates. Jeff's face flushed so red that if there would die for embarrassment, he would be already dead.

"Jeff", Nick said into his ear. "Your face is all red", he smirked. Jeff looked at him over his shoulder, burying his face on Nick's. "Everyone is staring", he mumbled. Nick then looked up and saw that it was true. "They are looking at you", he said smiling. "Well duh", Jeff snapped. "How beautiful you are", the brunet added. "Shut it…" Jeff said.

Once the ride was over, Nick and Jeff jumped off of the carousel and walked away. "Well, that was fun", the brunet said. Jeff nodded slightly, not saying anything and still feeling all the stared at his back. Nick looked around and saw a cotton candy kiosk and pointed at it. "You want?"

Jeff turned to look at the pointed way and his face lit up. "Sure", he said nodding and went after Nick, who bought two cotton candies to them and handed other to Jeff. The blond thanked to him and they sat down on a bench, chatting some random things.

As the day was going by, they were still sitting there, chatting some things like school and all what Nick was staring was Jeff's face and his lips. "I really want to kiss you right now", the brunet said smiling. Jeff turned to look at Nick and carefully glanced over his shoulder. "Don't worry", Nick said smiling as e noticed Jeff's worried glance. "Just a little and nobody isn't watching", he told.

Jeff bit his lower lip but then nodded. Immediately, Nick leaned forward pressing their lips together and cupping Jeff's cheek. The blond couldn't help but smile and slowly wrapped his hands around the brunet's neck.

Nick sighed in the kiss. Jeff tasted to sweet and it wasn't only because the cotton candy that he ate. The brunet could feel his boyfriend to melt into the kiss and Nick wrap his another hand around Jeff's waist, pulling him more closer.

Slowly Nick and Jeff broke the kiss and leaned their foreheads together. Jeff smiled happily and sighed. Nick rose Jeff's legs on his lap and rubbed them slightly. The brunet placed small kisses on Jeff's cheek and neck. The blond didn't even bother about that, they were on public place, just melting his boyfriend's kissed. This date has been wonderful. Everything went so great.

Jeff closed his eyes and that was when he felt his phone vibrate on his pocket. The blond huffed and took the phone out of his jeans pocket. "Who is it?" Nick asked. Jeff looked at the screen and rose his eyebrows surprised. "It's Thad", he said and pressed the answer button. "Hey, what's up?" the blond said to the phone.

Nick watched Jeff's face which suddenly turned pale and there was clear fear in his eyes. "W-what?" Jeff said quietly. "O-okay… Is he… okay… we're coming… yeah… b-bye", with that Jeff shut his phone and nick felt him shivering. "Hey… What's wrong?" Nick asked confused. Jeff slowly turned to look at his boyfriend, eyes wide. "W-we must g-go to hospital", he said shivering and felt how tears were pouring into his eyes. Nick frowned. "What? Why?"

"Wes tried to kill himself…"

A/N: Three words, Don't kill me.

Next chapter is that when you get to know WHY Wes went to hospital :(