sorry for the crappy chapter, my computer deleted it twice so this is my 3rd(and incredibly frustrated) try at writing a also setting a poll up on my page so go check it out.

haruhi

Love scares me. Its justification for people to hurt me. Mom, i loved her and she left me. I love Dad but where is he? Ive been in this hospital for a month recuperating. Someone must have called him. And let's not forget about Kazumi. Beaten and scarred mentally, emotionally,and physically by the people she loved most.

Even so my baby will love me more than anything. Will I hurt it?The miracle that gave me something to live for even though I was so ready die. The survivor that had such a will to live even before its birth? Or is there a type of love that doesnt feel pain but instead fills you with joy? The kind I wanted. With Mori-senpai.

While being held up in captivity like some king of animal I had a lot of time to think. About things, people, even life in general. I eventually came to realize that Mori-senpai was so much more to me than the other hosts. He visited my thoughts nightly as i fantasized over the day he would break down the mildew covered walls of my prison, and carry me to safely.

In the limo I had to stop myself from gazing at they say, absence makes the heat grow fonder. I refused to let my eyes betray me and lead me to heartbreak. There was obviously no way he wanted me the way I craved him. Im just damaged goods. For someone like him who lives by a strict honor code, its impossible to love someone like me. Its dishonorable.

"There is no such thing as a painless love." I spat the words out. Nobody was there but me, and Kazumi who was on so many anesthetics we would be lucky if she wakes up before my baby's 12th birthday. "I refuse to believe in crappy lies and fairy tales like love anymore." Tears threatened to fall from my eyes but I didnt care. Its not like anyone would know.

"why?'

A voice out of nowhere shook me from my moment of self pity. I turned to see Mori standing in the slightly opened doorway.

"Why dont you believe in love?"

mori pov

"Because love is pain." hearing her answer saddened me. I shut the door behind me and made my way over to one of the chairs by her bedside. Although most people couldn't tell I'm a firm believer in love. That you're fated to be with someone. Hearing how she felt made me worry that she would close herself off to the idea of love.

"Love is only pain when it's wrong. Find someone you can trust with your heart." She stared at me intently for a few seconds before she started giggling.

"What?" I asked. Embarrassed and a bit offended.

"Nothing." she answered wiping her tears.

"Mood swings?" i guessed, genuinely curious. she only laughed again.

"Maybe. I just thought it was funny how you're the most trustworthy person I know."

general

Both teens had vibrant red blushes staining her cheeks. Crap! Haruhi thought to herself. why did I tell him that! He'll figure me out soon!

While Haruhi was busy berating herself, Mori was thoroughly confused. why would she say something like that? he stared out the window, taking note of the sunrise.

It wont be long before the others show up. I really wish I could get some more alone time with her. Why?

He wasnt sure but he was obsessing over her.

I dont spend time alone with the twins or Tamaki...(too annoying) I dont want to be stuck with Kyouya...(too conniving) And I already spend time with Mitsukuni,after all hes like my brother.

But where does Haruhi fit in? i know i cared about her even more than I do about Mitsukuni. But how? I've never placed anybody before him. Maybe shes..

...A sister?

He thought this was a plausible answer. He'd heard stories of people who place their little sisters at highest priority.

It's the only explanation right?

Haruhi saw him deep in thought. His eyebrow was raised and he had one hand cupping his chin, the other scratching his head. She laughed again, she was beginning to like this newly expressive Mori-senpai.

Mori knew he wanted to be closer to her. He figured he should take baby steps, and move slowly. "Haruhi".

She turned her head to stare in his charcoal eyes. Hearing him say her name for the first time in god knows how long,gave her a bittersweet feeling in her core. Much more sweet that bitter.

"Yes Mori-senpai?" she replied trying to keep the nervousness out of her voice.

"Call me Takashi."

"..."

"..."

"Okay Takashi." she spoke quietly as an embarrassed smile appeared on her lips. He wasnt quite sure why but hearing her say his name made him jittery.

Just then a creaking noise shook them from their conversation. They looked towards the door where a tired looking man with freshly cut shoulder length red hair stood with tears brimming his eyes.

"Oh my god...I cant believe they found you" his voice was barely above a whisper but everyone heard him loud and clear.

next chapter is about nao and ranka visiting.

sorry about ooc mori. i just thought it would be funny if he were a simewhat ckuless hopless romantic. oh well...