Jill's point of view: Chapter 7
Summer has finally passed and now classes at the academy started. I didn't have a roommate; they just put me in this suite of a dorm, which made up for the no roommate thing. Everything has been going great lately. No one at the academy knew about me and Eddie though, we both wanted our relationship private. We haven't done anything bad but Eddie didn't want people gossiping about us.
I had great security and it wasn't heavy. It was Eddie who always stood close by and Max stood farther away. The school had more guardians all around the school. Rose and Dimitri were doing well and were still guarding Lissa and Christian. Lissa and the baby were doing extremely well and Christian was still supporting her and the baby.
I was sitting in a booth at lunch with Adrian and Eddie. They didn't want to split Adrian and me up and it's a good thing he finished top of the art classes he was taking when I was under protection in Palm Springs.
"Hey." Said a high pitch voice that made me jump. I turned my head to see who was speaking and saw Kendra. She was this really rude popular slut that hated me and hated me even more now that I was the queen's sister.
"How may we help you?" Adrian smirked.
"Well I heard you love to party. And I thought we could have fun together." She flirted giving me a cold look. I felt so sick right now. Adrian looked at me realizing something was wrong.
"I do love to party, what's your name?" He asked more seriously shaking out his brown hair.
"Kendra. So interested in having fun?" She giggled making me give her a mocking face. Adrian finally realized who she was; I have told him about her in the past. He gave me a reassuring nod.
"Not interested." He said sharply. She did a double take. She expected him to say yes and I would have thought so too especially since about all the guys in the academy have said yes.
"Excuse me?" She snapped.
"You heard me Barbie. I don't want your sloppy services especially the same ones a bunch of inexperienced high school boys have used. So get your dirty little disrespected pussy out of here and run to Ken." He smirked but glared at her.
It was a very mean insult and very embarrassing and I didn't like his choice of the p word. I still thought it was a good insult that was completely honest.
"Oh so your screwing him. I wondered why he would save your life or hang out with you. You're fucking him. You're probably fucking him to. You're a filthy little whore. I swear you're pathetic and disgusting." She snapped. Okay now she accused me of sleeping with both Adrian who was like my brother and Eddie. I mean yeah I was dating Eddie but we weren't doing anything. I was beyond pissed and mortified.
"Shut the fuck up. Don't ever talk to her or about her again. I don't want you near her. You're the pathetic whore and I wish you could be helped. But no one can help you because you're that desperate and disgusting. So the next time you get fucked by someone remember that's all you are, your just a fuck to people. And you're not even a good fuck." Eddie snapped standing right in front of her. That wasn't all he said he called her a bunch of sickening names that were extremely offensive.
"You can't speak to me like that! You can't threaten me!" She hissed but had tears in her eyes.
"Actually I can. She's my charge and I'm her guardian. I protect her from being hurt so therefore I can threaten you. I see you as a nasty pathetic threat to her so I will do whatever it takes to keep you away from her. So get the fuck out of here." He growled.
"Yeah you're doing a great job at protecting her. She got killed because of you just like your friend died in Spokane. Your just lucky Ivashkov wasn't high that day and could save her. And I'm not that low that a strigoi fed from me while my friends got killed. Blood whore!" She said spitting out every ounce of anger. Eddie went pale. She looked at me horribly as she left. Eddie whose shift was over looked at Max who moved closer to me.
"I'm going to go to the gym and cool down." Eddie said without looking at me leaving me with Max and Adrian.
"Damn she's fucked up. I don't get high so she should get her fucking facts strait. I hope Castile doesn't take that too hard. That was the bitchiest thing anyone has ever said to him. I can handle people being rude to me but Castile doesn't deserve it." Adrian sighed. I went to the gym hours later with Max.
Eddie was in sweatpants only. His bare chest and abs were coated in sweat. He was pounding on a punching dummy and they weighed a lot. The lights were dim and no one else was there because it was curfew. He spun around and saw us.
"Max you can go and get some sleep. I'll make sure she gets back okay." Eddie said breathing hard. Max nodded then left.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"Yep." He said as he hit the dummy in the lower stomach with a heavy blow. The dummy shook and fell backwards.
"Eddie your hands are bleeding." I whispered worried as I grabbed his hands softly. He winced.
"My hands are fine. It's just a little blood." He shrugged.
"Eddie I'm so sorry about today. I should have stopped her or something. You and Adrian didn't have to defend me. Maybe she was right, maybe I am pathetic." I rambled.
"What the fuck are you talking about? She wasn't right; don't let her make you think that. We love you and we will defend you even from the school slut. Don't be sorry." He said strongly cupping my face with his hands.
"You're in here training so hard it's hurting your body because of what she said. None of the things she said are true. Don't let her upset you. Please." I cried. He kissed me softly.
"But what she said today about me was all true. Mason died because I couldn't help him or Rose, you got killed because I couldn't protect you, and a strigoi did feed from me. I was a pathetic bag of blood." He whispered sadly with his voice cracking.
"It's okay. None of those things were your fault. There's nothing you could have done, I know that's hard to accept but it's the only way you'll move on. I got a second chance and so did you. So live it with me." I whispered.
He kissed me hard and passionately. It was the best kiss we have ever shared. He held me close. The kiss was amazing but it gave me a heart wrenching feeling. It was almost a depressing kiss. He finally pulled away and gave me a sad expression.
"Why did that feel like a good bye kiss?" I asked shaking badly. His eyes were clouded with salty water. He looked down then back at me sadly. His face went serious.
"I just don't think I can do this anymore. You deserve to date people your own age and date without complications. You shouldn't want to hide your relationship. I have always failed protecting you. Your right about you having a second chance to live, and I am not going to endanger your life again. You have a chance to live again and you shouldn't waste it with someone like me." He whispered, his jaw clenching.
"Are you breaking me?" I choked out. I felt tears fall from my eyes. He reached for me to wipe them off but I backed away from him shaking. He gave me a pained look and shook his gorgeous blonde hair out of his eyes.
"I'm so sorry. I just don't see how we're going to work. You deserve more and better protection. So I request my removal of being you guardian." He choked out.
"What will you do then? I am the same Jill you first met, who gives a fuck who my dad was. He never gave me a birthday card or was mentioned. This will hurt your career as a guardian. Please don't do this. I need you in my life." I cried.
"Your more important than my career. And I can find someone to guard or I can teach. I'm not going to put you at risk of getting hurt." He whispered.
"You already have. Your hurting me right now not physically. But it hurts." I sobbed. His body reached out to mine but he pulled it back.
"I'm sorry." He said painfully.
"No I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I fell in love with you." I said strongly wiping away my tears for the final time. My tears wouldn't change his mind and neither would my begging.
Eddie looked taken back. He then opened his mouth to say something but I walked away to my room before he could. I didn't care what he had to say. He made it very clear.
Three months ago he first kissed me. In those three months I had fallen in love with him. Today I was embarrassed, today my heart was shattered. Today he broke up with me and we would never get back together.