"This Can't Be Fucking Life."

Dean was pissed. He couldn't even be mad at Leana, he had to be mad at himself. The past few days, he'd been beating himself up for being so damn stupid. As much as he wanted to fuck Leana, the only woman who could take his mind off Seth, he should have been more careful in doing so. He was practically the cover for any condom box, yet that night he threw caution to the wind and now this. He looked around the doctors' office, spotting two very pregnant women and a few kids running around. Groaning, he rubbed his hands against his face. "Fuck."

Leana looked over at Dean and sighed. Setting the magazine down, she reached over and rubbed his neck. "It's going to be fine, Dean."

"No, it's not." He turned his head, leaning his cheek against his palm. "Leana, what the hell are we going to do if you're pregnant?"

"Raise a baby, what else? I'm not having an abortion."

He groaned again. "As if I would let you have an abortion, Leana." He stood up, running a hand threw his hair. He felt his phone buzzing in his phone and quickly fished it out, reading the texts.

Seth: Hey, is everything okay?

Seth: I wish you would talk to me about it.

Seth: Just know that I'm here...

He closed his eyes, shaking his head and putting his phone back in his pocket. He hadn't been completely avoiding Seth, but he'd been avoiding this subject.

"What is it?"

"Nothing." He lied.

"Dean, tell me. You're not going to give me that nothing bullshit and keep everything huddled up inside until you explode. Trust me, I've had to watch you go through that again and, given the current situation, I don't want to see it right now."

Dean exhaled a gust of air, sitting back down. "Seth and I have... been... seeing each other for quite some time now."

Leana shifted in her chair. "Seeing each other, as in dating?"

He closed his eyes. "You could say that."

"Dean, if you like, don't be ashamed of it."

"How could I not be?" He snarled, drowing his fingers in his hair and tugging it. He needed to feel something other than confusion and anger. He needed to feel pain. "I never thought I'd be feeling... this."

Leana pulled Dean's fingers from his hair. "Stop doing that before you go bald. Dean, if you like him, you like him. Yeah, it's a little weird for you to be liking guys, but I could get used to it. Plus, Seth is cute..."

Dean glared at her before she could finish her statement. "Don't think like a hoe when it comes to Seth."

Leana flipped him off. "I'm not a hoe, thank you. Let's not forget that you're the only guy I've slept with in 2 years. How many people have you slept with?"

He shook his head. "The list is never again." He sat back in his chair, leaning his head against the wall. "I'm fucking screwed up."

"Do you want to be with Seth?"

"Yes."

"So be with him." Leana shook her head. "You overthink everything and stress yourself out. If you let go once in a while maybe you'd stop worrying long enough to be happy."

Dean looked at Leana, but couldn't say anything. Right now, he was so torn. 3 years ago, before Leana disappeared into thin air, he wanted to be with her. He was ready to ask her to move in and be with him when she vanished. Feeling heartbroken, he completely forgot about her and started his phase again, sleeping with any woman he coud pick up, heavily smoking and drinking. He calm down after a while, but he was pretty depressed and unhappy with himself and his life. Then Seth came along and declared his feelings for him. He shook his head. He couldn't tell Leana that the circle of his unhappiness pointed back to her.

"Miss. Ramirez?" The nurse called, opening the door to the back of the office wider.

"Are you coming with me?" Leana asked, standing and looking down at Dean.

"Yeah, sure." He stood up and automatically grabbed Leana's hand. He didn't know why he felt the need to do it, he just needed the comfort and knew she did, too. They walked to the back and followed the nurse into a room, sat and waited some more.

Seth sat in his car and stared at his phone for a few minutes, waiting for Dean to text back. When he didn't, he sighed, got out the car, and headed into the cafe. He was heading home from work and needed some caffine to hold him until he reached his house.

He stopped in his tracks when he saw Roman and his wife sitting on a booth near the back of the cafe. He still hadn't talked to his best friend and felt the need to explain everything now that him and Dean were caught.

He walked up to the booth, hoping he wasn't interuppting an important conversation. "Hey, guys."

"Seth, hi!" Rhonda said, getting up to hug Seth. "How are you? I feel like we haven't talked in forever."

He smiled. "I'm doing fine. How are you?"

"Oh, just great. Roman and I are just getting something to eat. Do you want to join us?"

"No, he wouldn't." Roman said, staring up at Seth. "He's got other things to do, don't you, Seth?"

"Roman, come on, man. We're best friend friends."

"Best friends don't lie to each others faces."

"Okay, slow down, boys. You two obviously have some guy drama going on so I'm just going to go ahead and let you two talk."

"Rhonda,"

"No, you two talk. Roman, play nice." She leaned over and kissed her husbands' lips. "I'll come back in a bit." She quickly walked away, happy to be away from that tension.

Seth sighed, sitting across from Roman. "Look, bro, I was going to tell you."

"Tell me what? That you and Dean have some secret love affair going on? What the hell happened while I was gone?"

Seth pushed his hair back, setting his elbows on the table. "I've always had a thing for Dean. The night of your party..." He shrugged. "I did something about it."

Roman shook his head. "So, you two are like a thing now? I don't even care about that, bro, I'm mad that you lied to my face. Since when do we lie to each other?"

"I know, Rome, and I'm sorry. It's just that I was in a low place then. I couldn't even begin to explain what was happened and I surely didn't want to do it at the club while Dean was acting an ass." When Roman didn't speak, Seth began to explain the whole situation. He told him about the first kiss and all the confusion and drama that went after. He knew Roman felt uncomfortable, but he wanted the truth so Seth was going to give it to him.

Roman wasn't the type of guy to discriminate, but it was going to be awkward around his two gay best friends who were now together. "Dean's seriously screwed up for messing with your heart like that, but you had to know it was coming. You've known Dean longer than I have, you know how he works."

"I foolishly thought he'd be different. I don't know, Roman."

"Look, as pissed as I am that I had to find out like that, you two are my best friends and I want to see both of you happy. If this is what you want, fight for it, but it's not right getting hurt every time Dean does some stupid shit. And let's face it, he's always doing stupid shit. So unless you're completely sure that he's ready to commit to something like this, don't put your heart on the line. I've seen you broken and it's not a sight I care to see again."

Seth was glad that Roman was giving him advice and not yelling at him. "Thanks, bro, I'll keep that in mind. So, we're cool, right?"

"Yeah, we're cool. Just don't lie again. You know I hate that."

"I know. I won't."

They talked for a few more minutes until Rhonda came back. Seth said his goodbyes, bought his coffee, and headed home.

Dean walked into Seth's house a couple hours later, carrying a bag of chinese food. He owed Seth a night in since being so distracted with Leana.

"Hey, handsome." Seth said, looking up at as Dean walked through the door. He tried to hide his excitement of seeing Dean. "You need some help?"

"I've got it." Dean said, setting the bag on the kitchen counter before leaning against it. Shaking his head, he took out the cartons of food and brought them over to Seth. He leaned down and kissed his lips. "I missed you."

"I missed you, too." Seth whispered, rubbing his cheeks and staring into Dean's eyes. "You look stressed."

"I am." Dean admitted, moving away to sit next to Seth. He sighed. "These last few days have taken a toll on me."

"What's the matter? I wish you would talk to me about it."

"I'm just not sure how you'll take it."

"Dean, we've been through hell and back these past two months. I'm sure I can handle whatever you throw at me."

Dean shook his head, opening his carton of food and began to eat. "How was your day?"

"Dean, don't do that. Tell me what the hell is going on!"

"Leana's pregnant, okay? She's fucking 2 weeks pregnant and it's mine. So there."

Seth closed his eyes, shaking his head. "No. I don't believe you." He stood up and walked into the kitchen, leaning against the counter. "Don't fucking believe you, Dean!"

"She hasn't been with anyone in 2 years, Seth." Dean rubbed his hands over his face before getting up and walking up behind Seth. "Baby, I'm sorry. But this is happening and she's having the baby. Can you look at me?" Dean put his hand on Seth's back, but he pushed it away.

"You're fucking stupid, Dean! After all the shit we've been going through and now this. We were finally at a good place!"

"Don't you think I know that? I'm kicking myself for getting Leana pregnant, but it's not something I can take back."

Seth walked away from him again, tears burning his eyes. "I could fucking punch you right now."

"Just calm down."

"Calm down? You want me to... Get out, Dean."

"Seth, you're being fucking ridiculous right now."

"Don't you think I have a right to be upset? I have spent hours crying, weeks fighting, months waiting for you and I finally got you to myself and this bitch comes out of no fucking where and sweeps you away."

"She's not a bitch and I'm not with her." Dean growled.

"You might as well be. She's carrying your kid."

"I made a mistake, damnit! Don't hold it against me."

"It's not the only mistake you've made, Dean. If you didn't break my heart 4 times, if you didn't push me away for almost 2 months we wouldn't be having this conversation because you wouldn't have felt the need to fuck her."

Dean snatched his keys off the counter and walked towards the front door. "You come talk to me when you calm the fuck down." He slammed the door on his way out of Seth's house, wishing that just once his world wasn't so screwed up.