Chapter 4

Tara sat by the window and realized just how quiet since Abel had been taken, since she lost of what was left of Jax and her but she wasn't even sure she wanted to save anything left. Tara knew what she was thinking wasn't right when she had been through so much with Jax, he had been her first love, this wasn't easy but where she can escape from her feelings for Tig? If she wanted too she could blame it on the sense of danger, the curiosity of a forbidden feelings but she could understand her tipping but where had Tig's intense advances and feelings come from?

Her phone began to ring causing her to jump and her gave herself a mental scolding over her jumpiness but answered the phone anyways as she saw that it was Gemma on the phone. She hadn't spoken too Gemma much since she had left to go in hiding so now hearing from her meant a lot.

"Hey Gemma how are ya doing?" she asked. Her mouth dropped open when she said that her father had shot Tig. Her heart started beating wildly at hearing that the man that she cared so deeply about and falling in love with.

Wait a minute? Did she just say falling in love? Could she truly be falling love or have already fallen in love with Tig? This couldn't be, could it?

"Is Tig alright?" she asked as calmly as she could. Gemma sighed then chuckled which calmed Tara down a little.

"You know Tig, he's always gets over stuff like this shit, he was fooling around with the caregiver, that's why I'm calling now" she explained. Gemma rambled on about what had happened, how the caregiver was going to turn her in and that Gemma's father needed her help but Tara tuned her out at the mention of Tig messing around with the caregiver, sharp pain shot through her chest and she began to breathe a bit heavily.

"Hey babe you ok? Can you come?" asked Gemma. Cutting through her moment of pity, making her shake her head she took a shuddering breath then she placed a smile on her face though she knew that Gemma couldn't see.

"Ya of course, just hang tight I will be there" she answered. Gemma told her to talk to Jax also which Tara wasn't wanting too but she knew that she couldn't just leave this way. Yeah Jax had a lot on his plate, with trying to get Abel back, their up and down relationship which Tara was hanging onto, barely, by two fingers or so but at the same time she was thinking about was what the hell she was going to say to Tig when she saw him especially after finding out he was fucking around with the caretaker on that count.

She said goodbye to Gemma and got off the phone so that she can go pack up a couple of supplies to take with her and while she was doing that Jax came home, seeing her pack up a few stuff. He looked at her questioningly.

"Where the hell are you going?" he asked. Tara looked at him as she put a box of gauzes in the medical bag, sighed then answered.

"Your mom called, said there is a problem with your grandfather, needed me to come out and help" she explained. Jax's expression darkened at the explanation which he began to shake his head at.

"No you go over there and get caught up in all my mother's bullshit? No Tara you don't need to be getting caught up in all this bullshit" he responded quickly.

Tara looked at him with an arched eyebrow at how he was acting but he just gave her a look but she looked at him again.

"This isn't about getting caught up in anything, this is about helping. I want to help your grandfather and I want to help your mom" she explained firmly.

She felt her heart pounding as she thought about her explanation but she also knew the other reason as why she wanted to go, a certain tall, dark and handsome.

"You're not going and that's it! Tara I'm serious, I got enough shit to worry about" he complained. He spun on his heel and stomped out of the kitchen leaving Tara staring after him in disbelief but she slung her bag over her shoulder and headed out the open door towards the man that she loved without a second thought.