Hey guys, this was written in about 15 minutes, no time to grammar check it, and it's really short, it's obviously not that great, but I felt bad for leaving you in the dark :3 So I just went with flat out angst, and the song Penny's PoV is going to follow is 'The Day That Never Comes' It's beautiful, and Metallica have some incredible music, poets in their own right.

I promise to update more, I guess being 14 is just so difficult socially ;P Haha, I just want to say how much I enjoy writing this, I suppose it's a place where age is irrelevant, and sharing your writing is all that is important.

I hope you enjoy this, as I said, 15 minutes isn't really a great amount of time to write a decent piece of literature :L

DISCLAIMER: I own nothing, not 'The Big Bang Theory', nor 'Fade to Black'/Metallica or anything associated with either party.

Penny

As Penny heard the long monotonous buzz ring out from the monitor, all feeling left her body. She suddenly lost the feeling of the arms holding her back, and when she tried to move towards Leonard, spectral hands gripped her ankles, and she couldn't take a single step. She felt her lungs collapsing in on themselves, the breath was taken right from her, and the world around Penny started to dissipate, all she could see was Leonard lying lifeless on the bed in front of her, and the sound of the machine telling her he was gone; it was burned into her very soul, ingrained in her head. As far as she was concerned, it had taken Leonard from her. She turned her head, and saw her friends, deathly quiet, but frantically trying to get her away from him. She turned back to Leonard and saw that he was getting further away from her, further away from the land of the living.

Numb. Emptiness. Cold. Hollow.

Penny knew he'd never seen her say the words. He had already closed his eyes, gracefully accepting death. They always missed their shot, missed out by a hair's breadth. Every day that she had spent away from Leonard had rammed a wedge between them even more, they were becoming distanced. And yet, she had always expected him to be there, even after breaking his heart to no end, she would always rely on Leonard to make her feel better.

Guilt.

It flowed into Penny. Worked its way down her throat and seeped into her lungs, drowning her, ever so slowly, making sure she suffered for what she had done.

She remembered finding Leonard's IPod, he had been out, and Penny had gone over to collect her things after they'd broken up. It had been lying on his bed, softly surrounded and pressed into the warm duvet. Picking it up she had absentmindedly pressed play, only to be greeted by something which had shocked her.

As opposed to his usual taste trying to fit in with modern music, he had had a Metallica track playing. 'The Day That Never Comes.'

'Born to push you around
Better just stay down
You pull away
He hits the flesh
You hit the ground

Mouth so full of lies
Tend to black your eyes
Just keep them closed
Keep praying
Just keep waiting

Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up
And feel the warmth
But the sunshine never comes, no
No the sunshine never comes'

Although Penny had been surprised by his music, she'd thought nothing more of it than just Leonard being Leonard, wallowing in his own self-pity over her. She had almost taken pleasure in seeing how much Leonard had been in love with her, and how much control she had over him.

But now it just made her feel sick. So many signs, but she'd been ignorant to them all, the weight loss, the quietness, the music taste.

Penny had been so wrapped up in herself, she couldn't see what she was doing to the man she'd cared most about. It was all her fault; she had killed someone, the love of her life.

'No the sunshine never comes'

Haha, well that was depressing, see you all soon :P