Song Fics Chapter 2: Back To December, a twilight fanfic

AN:/ I do not own twilight or any of the songs used. The lyrics will be at the beginning of each chapter. Each chapter will be a short one shot, with different pairings. Reviews will be loved, constructive critism nice, as well as any praise :) Any PMs or reviews about music selected would be appreciated.

Back To December - Taylor Swift

Pairing: Bella/Edward

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

It had been 1 week since we'd last spoken. 2 weeks since that was face to face. And 1 month since we were happy together. Now whenever I talk to you, you would become emotionless. Your eyes would lose their sparkle and become stone cold. The random conversations that we could keep going for hours dawdled into small talk about the weather and long, awkward pauses. Every tme you leave, I think about what went wrong. What I did wrong. How I chose my career over you. How I chose my present over our future. It was the biggest mistake of my life, but I couldn't admit that to you. I couldn't admit that I want to scream and beg you to come back.

During work I find myself thinking of the past. The first time I met your family. The first time I told you I loved you. The first time you told me back. The happiest moments of my life. I find myself thinking about how you were too good for me, how I never should have let you go. I would do anything to relive those moments of my life, to go back and change my mind.