AUTHORS NOTE: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS OF SUPERNATURAL. So I hope everyone liked my second chapter! Here's the third chapter! Please review! ENJOY!

CHAPTER 3

It's been two months since I've seen or heard from the Winchester's. I've gotten a new phone since then but keep my old one just in case. I get messages from Sam time to time. But I never reply. I've been staying with Bobby since I left Sam and Dean. I've gone on a few hunts with Bobby but mostly we've been trying to figure out what's been going on with me. Sam and Dean came by looking for me, but luckily I slipped away before they could find me. they haven't been back since. I thought today was going to be like any other day until I went downstairs.

I walked down the stairs with my nose in a book not even looking up as I sat down at the table in the kitchen. I heard Bobby place a plate in front of me. "Thanks Bobby." I still didn't look up from my book. I had just grabbed a piece of bacon when I got a response, but the voice I heard wasn't Bobby's.

"You're welcome, and hello to you to princess." came an old familiar voice.

I stopped reading as my body froze causing me to drop the food in my hand. My eyes went wide as saucers at the sound of his voice. Two months of not thinking about HIM. I slowly lowered the book from in front of my eyes to see Dean standing against the kitchen counter with his arms crossed over his chest with a smug look on his face. My heart started to pound hard in my chest, and my breathing shallow and I couldn't think. There he was standing in all his cockiness, enjoying every second of it. That's when my anger started to boil. Two months without thoughts of Dean running through my head and there he was standing in Bobby's kitchen taunting me. My face contorted from surprise to scowl. I stood up alertly and walked out of the kitchen leaving my food on the table and headed towards Bobby's office. Which was in the living room. Just as I walked into the room there stood Sam and Bobby looking at a book discussing in hushed voices. My anger rose even more. How could Bobby not warn me that they were coming?

"Bobby! How could you not tell me that Dean and Sam were coming?" I said trying to hold back my anger.

"I didn't know they were coming until they showed up on my doorstep. And they had already seen your car so I couldn't very well say you weren't here." he said looking over at me.

"Why are they here in the first place?" I was trying to control my breathing.

"Sam here is trying to figure a way out of Deans crossroads deal. " he said pointing to Sam.

"Thanks Bobby. If you need me, don't bother." I said walking out of the living room storming up the stair to my room locking the door as soon as I closed the door behind me.

BACK DOWNSTAIRS DEANS POV

I watched Blade storm up the to her room. I had never heard anyone talk to Bobby like that. I was leaning against the door frame in between the kitchen and living room. I looked over at Bobby and Sam. Sam's expression was that of somewhere between shock and confusion and Bobby's was unfazed. I was a little shocked myself at how calm his reaction was. "What's up her butt?" I said not really expecting an answer.

"Boy, you better watch what you say about her in front of me unless you want to me to put you in Hell myself." Bobby said threateningly. "You don't know what you're talking about. So keep your mouth shut and leave her alone, igit."

"Well Bobby why don't you enlighten Sam and myself on what's going on with Blade, because she hasn't exactly been giving us any clues or talking to us for that matter." I retorted.

"That's for Blade to tell ya, if she even thinks you could handle it, but from the way your acting I highly doubt she'll ever tell you or anyone for that matter. Now I suggest you show me some respect boy."

I was about to say something else when Sam cut in before I could. "Guys! Please can we get on with the task at hand? Which is trying to find a way to break this deal." he said looking between me and Bobby.

"Sam give it a rest! There's no way of saving me from the pit and you know it. Just this run it's course. Just let me live my life Sam. Damn!" I said before walking off the go outside.

I couldn't stand the fact that Sam was wasting his time looking for a way to save me. I wish he could. I didn't want to leave Sam, but I didn't want to go to Hell either. Yet I had no choice, I was the one how made the deal not Sam, and I couldn't just have let him die back then.

As I stood by the Impala I looked around and spotted Blades car, and it made me wonder what was going on with her. 'Why was she so angry with Sam and me being here? What was she hiding? What was Bobby not telling us?' So many questions ran through my head. 'For a hot girl, she was one of the most confusing girls I've met.'

BLADES POV

I've been in my room for almost an hour and a half. I've been trying to read my book that I was reading earlier, but I've read the same sentence five times. I couldn't concentrate so I decided to get a shower, to help calm me down and clear my head hopefully. I gathered my stuff and headed for the bathroom. Just as I was about to open the door, the door opened to reveal Dean wet and in a towel. I couldn't tear my eyes from him. There he stood, water dripping from his hair down his body. It was like brain had just stopped working. I couldn't stop staring until he spoke up.

"What? Like what you see Blade?" His smirk appeared and his cockiness reared it's ugly head.

"Nope." I said returning the smirk.

"Sure, you know you want me." He said taking a step towards me.

"You can keep telling yourself that, but why waste the few brain cells you have left on that?"

"Do you have to be such a bitch?"

"Do you have to be such a pervert?"

"Can't help that sweetheart, that's my nature."

"Look I just want to get a shower. I really don't feel like killing you right now. I'll do that later." I said looking annoyed.

"Get in line." he said before walking off. I watched him walk passed me and in to his room. I shook my head and walked into the bathroom closing the door and getting into the shower.

Once I was finished I dried off and got dressed. I threw my wet hair into a messy bun and walked out. I went back to my room and closed the door. I grabbed the book hoping I could finish what I was reading about, but as I sat down I didn't open it. My mind wandered to what Dean had said earlier. 'Get in line', I knew he made some crossroads deal but I didn't know the full extent of it. I put the book back down but I grabbed my ipod instead. I flipped through until I found 'It's been a While' by Staind

It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high and it's been a while
Since I first saw you
It's been a while since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been a while since i could call you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
It's been a while since i could say that i wasn't addicted
and It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while But all that shit seems to
disappear when i'm with you
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must i feel this way?
just make this go away just one more peaceful day
Its been awhile Since I could lok at myself straight
and it's been awhile since i said i'm sorry
It's been awhile Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
But everything I can't remember as fucked up as it may seem
I know it's me i cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me
It's been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been a while since i said i'm sorry

After listening to the song I made up my mind and walked out my room and walked to his door. Istood there for a second before lightly knocking. I didn't have to wait long before he opened his door.

"I knew it was only a matter of time, I knew you couldn't resist." he said with smirk on his face.

I just rolled my eyes. "Can we talk?"

He stepped aside and let me in, then closed the door. "So what do you want to talk about?"

"Dean, why'd you make the deal?" I asked bluntly turning to face him.

"Bobby didn't tell you?"

"No, and I've never asked. Until now, but I figured if I had to ask anyone it should be you as you're the one who made the deal."

"Why do you want to know?"

"Because I want to know why you would sacrafice your own life to save your brother, even after you know that your dad did the same thing for you."

Dean didn't anything for a while just walked over to his window and looked out at Bobby's junk yard full of cars. I was about to apoligize when he began to speak. "Have you ever cared about someone so much that you would do anything to keep them safe?" He said still looking out the window.

"Yes."

"Well Sam's my little brother. I've had to look after him my whole life. I had to take care of him, making sure nothing happened. I made that promise to our father. If anyone has to die it's going to be me, not Sam. He's got a way out after this is all done, I don't."

"Dean..." I walked over to him and placed my hand on his shoulder. He turned towards me as I did that. "Don't give up Dean."

"I've got about six months left Blade. Not much time left. If I try to find some way out of the deal Sam dies."

"And that's why you don't want him looking for a way out for you." He shook his head no. "Are you scared?"

"Of going to Hell? No, I've come to terms with it."

"Dean you don't have to lie to me. I not going to tell anyone. You have my word."

He looked at me and nodded before answering. "Ok, yeah I'm scared, but I can't let Sam know. I have to be his big brother and not show my fear. We're each others weaknesses. I can't have Sam dead along with me."

I felt bad that Dean has to go through this tourment. I pulled him into a hug, it was the only thing I could think of to do. I felt his body tense at first but then relax as I felt his arms wrap around my waist. We stood there holding each other not sayign anything, as there was nothing more to say. I pulled my head up from his shoulder and our eyes met. I felt his eyes could see right through me, and I couldn't hide anything. I strated to get this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I did something I never thought I would do, I leaned in and kissed Dean softly. I had just pulled away when Dean pulled me back in. It felt so wrong, but yet felt so right as I ran my fingers through his hair. He deepened the kiss by forcing his tounge into my mouth. I didn't complain as I only wanted more. Dean gently pushed me up against the wall, pressing his whole body into mine. His lips left mine to leave a trail of kissing down my neck gently biting along the way. A soft moan left my throat causing Dean to bite down harder. His lips came back to mine, I could feel the hunger in the way he kissed. His hands began to slowly lift my shirt up and I automatically raised my arms, he only broke the kiss to get my shirt off. He threw behind him smiling as he did so. I grabbed his shirt and he had it off before I knew it. I pulled him back to me kissing him hard. I felt his hands over my bra, massaging my breasts, his hand were gentle yet rough at the same time. Just as Dean was reaching for the back of my bra there came a knock on the door. Dean and I froze just looking at each other. Another knock came.

"Who is it?" Dean called.

"It's Sam." Dean and I kept quiet and he let me go. I quickly and quietly grabbed my shrit off the floor and put it on. Dean pointed to the closet and then closed the door and went to go see what Sam wanted.

"Hey Sammy. What's up?" I heard Dean say. I felt like I was in high school again but instead of Dean being the one to hide from my 'parents' it was me hiding from sam, his little brother well and Booby, but thank god he wasn't at the door either.

"Dean why do you not have a shirt on?" Sam questioned.

"I uh, spilled something on my other shirt and I was just about to put another shirt on when you knocked on my door." He said making something up on the spot. I tried to keep from laughing.

"O K. Anyway have you seen Blade? I've looked in her room but she isn't there and Bobby is looking for her."

"Nope, haven't seen her, but if I do I'll let her know."

"Alright." Sam said and then walked off. I heard the room door close and then the closet door was yanked open. Dean had a wicked grin on his face. I looked at him wide-eyed before I was roughly pulled into his arms and he started to kiss my neck again.

As bad as I wanted to continue, I had to see what Bobby wanted. I put my hands on Deans chest and gently pushed him off. "Dean I have to see what Bobby wants. I'm sorry." I said looking at him trying not to laugh.

"Eerrrr, why can't you wait until later?" he said pulling me closer by my waist.

"Because Dean if I don't show up soon I'm in for it."

"Fine." He growled letting me go.

I giggled a little and walked over to the door, before looking back at Dean he now had his shirt back on and was watching me. I felt bad that I had to stop our little fun session, but Bobby would be looking for me soon. I walked back over to him, wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned up to his ear,
"I promise I'll make it up to you." I then bit his earlobe, causing him to groan. I kissed his cheek, and walked out of the room making sure the cost was clear before making my way downstairs to see what Bobby wanted.

"Bobby?" I called as I walked into the living room.

"Hey, there you are. I think I found out why your cravings are getting bigger but I'm not really comfortable with this area. Just read this book here." he said handing me the book he was holding. "I've marked the place where you need to read. That's what I think is going on with you. Hopefully it will help."

"Thanks Bobby." I said smiling at him with a raised eyebrow, wondering what he was so uncomfortable with. I walked back upstairs, and into my room. I sat on my bed turning to the section. I being to read, and after I finished the last page, I realized why. I began to laugh, and then I walked back downstairs looking at Bobby trying not to burst out laughing.

"Thanks Bobby, but I can asure you that I'm not. The book makes a good point but, I'm not." I said smiling.

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because Bobby, and I know that you're not really going to like to here this, but I'm still a virgin."

"So you're telling me that your 21 years old and you haven't...?"

"No Bobby, I haven't."

"Not even you and Myles?"

"No, we were waiting." I said looking away.

"I'm sorry sweetie. I know you miss him."

"Yeah, I do but that's in the past, and I can't change it no matter what I do." I said sounding disappointed. "But anyways, thanks for helping." I went over and hugged him. He hugged me tight before letting me go. I soon realized that Bobby and I weren't going to be able to do this on our own. I was going to have to tell someone I could trust. I had to talk to sam. I walked outside to find Sam sitting on the porch steps looking at his laptop. I swallowed hard as I apporched him.

"Hey Sam." I said sitting down next to him.

"Oh hey, Bobby's looking for you." He said pointing to the house.

"Yeah Dean already told me and I just got done talking to him, but thanks." I said giving him a small smile.

"Everything ok?"

"Sam I need to talk to you."

"Ok, Shoot."

"Not here. Alone, away from here."

"Well where do you want to go?"

"Will you go on a drive with me?"

"Blade is everything ok?"

"Sam I'll explain everything to you if you come with me, please."

"Yeah ok."

"Thanks I'll go grab my keys and I'll let Bobby know we're leaving for a bit."

"Ok."

I walked back in and told Bobby that Sam and I were going for a drive, he'd asked me if we could pick up some food while we were out from a local diner. I grabbed my keys from the kitchen and walked back out letting Sam know we had to get food while we were out. We got into my car and headedinto town. The drive was a good 20 mintues.

"So are you going to tell me what's wrong?"

"Sam before I say anything I need you to promise me that you won't ever repeat this to anybody, and this includes Dean, and I know that's a lot to ask, but he can't find out."

"Blade what's wrong?"

"Sam promise me first."

"Blade-"

"PROMISE ME!" I sort of yelled at him. He looked at me for a few minutes before giving me his answer.

"Ok Blade, I promise I will not tell anyone else, even Dean."

"Thank you." I said calming down. "Now Sam I want you to keep an open mind for what I'm about to tell you, because it's something way different from anything you've ever come across."

"Blade, whatever it is you can tell me."

"Sam I'm a..."