AUTHORS NOTE: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS OF SUPERNATURAL. So I hope everyone liked my third chapter! Here's the fourth chapter! Please review! ENJOY!
CHAPTER 4
"Blade, whatever it is you can tell me."
"Sam I'm a..." I started to say. I stopped and took a deep breathe before trying again. "Sam, I'm a half-breed."
"What? What do you mean a half-breed?"
"I'm half human, half..."
"Half? Half human, half what Blade?"
I swallowed the lump in my throat. I've gone this far, so there's no going back. "Half vampire." I shurgged inwards waiting for the yelling.
"Vampire? Half Vampire? How is that even possible? Is that why you were being sqweemish around Dean when he was covered in blood?" Sam's voice full of confusion.
I could believe I had just told Sam, but I knew I had to do it. I need his help, Bobby and I need his help. I was starting to breathe heavy and my vision started to blur. That's when I pulled the car off to the side of the road and quickly shut off the engine. I couldn't hold it any longer and the tears fell freely. I covered my face with my hands and let everything go. I then suddenly felt arms around me. Sam pulled me to his chest, holding me. Once I finally settled down I pulled away from Sam and knew I had some explaining to do. "Sam I'm going to try and explain everything as best I can."
"Ok just take your time." He said to me.
"My mother was a waitress, and use to work the night shift. When she was pregnant with me, she was walking to her car to go home when she was attacked. The vampire that attacked her. Bobby was the one to walk up upon the attack. He pulled the vampire away from my mother and called for help. The vampire who attacked her got away. As my mother was being rushed to the emergency room she went into labor with me. I lived she didn't. I was then put up for adoption. I was adopted 5 days later. When I was thirteen I started to have these weird cravings whenever I saw blood. One night my 'mother' was in the kitchen making dinner when she cut the palm of her hand. There was so much and I couldn't hold myself back and I attacked her. When she tried to push me away I somehow grabbed the knife off the counter and started to stab her. Blood was everywhere and I started to drink. When my father walked in on what was going on I stabbed him and then drank his blood. I felt so weird as I drank their blood. was I was finished and had realised what I done I freaked out and ran. I didn't know that Bobby had been keeping an eye on me over the years. He found three days later in an old abandon shed in the next town over. He knew what I had done and figured out what had happened that night my mom was attacked. Apperntly the vampire that attacked her, so of his blood got into her system, and when I was inside it started to get in to mine, but when I was c-sectioned out the blood wasn't fully in my system. I did get some traits though. The thrust for blood, obviously, and their stength, and some minor power of mind control and I heal faster tha normal but ot as fast as a vampire. But I don't sun burn when I go out, and I don't have the fangs, but my eyes sometimes do change color. And that's it, Sam you now know who and...what I am." I looked away as I finished my story. It was the first time I've told anyone my secret since Myles.
Sam just sat there for a bit not saying anything. The akward silence was beginning to become to much. "Sam please...say something."
"I don't really know what to say. It's a lot to take in." Sam said looking over at me.
"I know, but the reason I told you is that I need your help."
"My help? What's going on?"
"For the past few months my cravings, as Bobby and I call them, have been getting bigger. I use to be able to get by with a jar a day at most two a day, but now it's 3 to 4 a day sometimes 5 to 6. Bobby and I have been trying to figure out what's been going on but it's kind of hard seeing as I'm pretty much the only one of my kind."
"Why don't you want Dean to know?"
"Sam he hasn't got much time left, and I don't want him to have to worry about me...and I don't think he'll understand."
"Yeah I can see your point, and understand where you're coming from." he said looking out at the road.
"What do you mean Sam?" I asked confused.
"The night our mom died in the fire, the demon that we killed a while back told me that e bled into my mouth. I have demon blood coarsing through my veins."
"Oh well, I guess we're more alike then we thought we were." I said giving a little chuckle.
"Yeah I guess so." Sam said looking back at me with a smile. "Blade I'll help you in anyway I can, but I don't like keeping secrets from Dean."
"Sam, Dean has got about six months left, he doesn't need to worry about me. I can keep myself under control."
"I know, I remember." He said refering to when Dean had gotten hurt on the case we worked on.
"Thanks Sam."
"For what?"
"For understanding." I said as I leaned over and hugged him as he hugged me back. I then pulled back and turned the car back on. "Better get the food before we yelled at."
"Yeah."
Sam and I drove the rest of the way back into town and picked up food for all of us. We headed back to Bobby's. Once we all had our lunch I talked to Bobby in private letting him know that I had told Sam my secret, but not Dean. He wasn't to happy at first but then he finally came to realize that we kinda needed more help.
LATER THAT NIGHT
I laid on the hood of my car looking up an the night sky. My eadphones in my ears as 'Beauty from Pain' by Superchick. I sang along with the words as they meant a lot to me.
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive but I feel like I've died
And all that's left is to accept that it's over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made
I try to keep warm but I just grow colder
I feel like I'm slipping away
After all this has passed,
I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best I can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though I can't understand why this happened
I know that I will when I look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here I am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what I can't see I forgot how to hope
This night's been so long I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed, I still will remain
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
Though it won't be today,
Someday I'll hope again
And there'll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Little did I know that someone was watching me till I heard them clear their throat when I was done. I bolted up and turned around to see Dean standing there with his trade-mark smirk on his face, and that only enraged me more.
"How long have been standing there?" I said as I pulled out my headphones.
"Long enough." he said looking straight back at me.
"How long?" I almost growled.
"Long enough to know that you've got a good voice."
"Don't ever do that again."
"I seem to get to know you more that way than talking to you." He said as he began walking over and standing in front of me.
"Do you always have to act like a bitch?"
"Do you always have to act like a jerk?"
"Why do you do that?"
"DO what?"
"You practically repeat the sentence that I just said but put an insult in for me instead."
"You ask me why I'm a bitch, well I'm asking you why you act like a jerk and a pervert."
"It's my nature princess."
"Well there you go, you just answered both of our questions." I replied sarcastically.
"Whatever, anyways, what are you doing out here?"
"Trying to clear my head." I said rolling my eyes.
"How's that working out for you?"
"I was fine until you came."
"Oh I'm so sorry." He said dramatically.
"And you wonder why people think you're a dick."
"You know you're a real smart-ass."
"Takes one to know one."
"Yeah well at least I don't dream about my dead ex's and call out his names." and that was the nail on the head for me. Dean took it one step to far. I lunged off my car and onto tackling him. As soon as his back hit the ground I sat on top of him and began to punch him with every ounce of anger I had in me. I layed in punch after punch, screaming at him.
"YOU STUPID SON-OF-A-BITCH! YOU'RE NOTHING! YOU'RE A STUPID DICK WHO WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING!" I screamed. I heard the door to the house and footsteps running our way but I didn't stop until I was yanked off of im by my wasit, and I struggled to get out of the persons grip to go back to beating Dean.
"BLADE! Blade stop!" Sam yelled at me. He was the one to pull me off. Bobby went to Dean's side. I stopped struggling as the sent of Dean's blood hit my nose. Sam realized wat was going just as Bobby looked over at me.
"Sam! Bunker! NOW!" Bobby ordered to Sam. Sam held tight onto my waist and dragged me into the house. He took me down to the iron bunker that Bobby had built. He then locked us inside and let me go. I walked away from Sam and across the bunker.
"Sam...please." I said breathing heavy.
"What is it Blade?" Sam asked walking over to me.
"Sam I...need...blood." I said becoming even more weak.
Sam looked around the bunker trying to find what I needed. When he spotted a lager refrigerater looking cabenit e rushed over and yanked the door open. He grabbed the first jar he saw and the gave it to me when he came back over. I unscrewd the lid to the jar and as soon as it was off the jar was to my lips. I drank the whole large jar down. Once I was done I wiped away the excess and sat down on the bed in the bunker. I put the jar down on the floor then laid down and curled up into a ball. I felt the bed sik down behind me, knowing it was Sam that had taken a seat next to me. I then felt his hand on my back rubbing up and down trying to help calm me down.
A little while later Bobby came down alone. "Kid what were you thinking you could have killed him." Bobby said as he walked into the bunker.
"He had no right to say what he said to me." I said not getting up or looking over at him.
"Well what did he say to make you almost kill him?"
"He said something about Myles." I looked over at him as I spoke.
"Oh Blade." Bobby said sounding frustrated.
"Wait who's Myles?" Sam said interupting.I looked over at Bobby as he was looking at me, I gave him a small nod giving him the ok to tell Sam.
"Sam, Myles was Blade's first love, and her fiance'. He was killed a while back." Bobby said.
"Oh Blade, I'm sorry." Sam said looking over at me.
"Sam it's ok. I've comes to terms with it. It's been 4 years since he passed, and I can't bring him back no matter what I do. I miss him but I Know he wouldn't want to see me like this so I'm trying to move on. I know I would have wanted the same thing if the roles were reversed." I said finally sitting up pulling my legs up and wrapped my arms around them. Sam moved so he was next to me and put is arm around me.
"I know how you feel. When I lost Jessica I felt lost, I just wanted to get revenge, but when I got it, it still didn't fill that void in my heart. You've got the right idea." Sam said looking at me with sincere look.
"Thanks Sam." I said hugging him. He gently squeezed me back then we let go. I looked over at Bobby. "So what's the verdict? Is he going to live?"
"He'll live, but he's going to be a bit sore for a bit, with a few brusies for a while. You really did a number on him." Bobby said shaking his head.
"Well he'll know not to mess with me anymore." I said giving a little laugh. I heard Sam laugh with me but Bobby crossed his arms over his chest and gave me a stern look. I just gave him an innocent look and he rolled is eyes at me before walking off. I just started laughing harder as soon he left, Sam laughing with me. I got up and walked over to the cooler and grabbed another jar. Sam looked at me as I took a sip. "What?"
"It's just going to take me a bit...getting use to you drinking blood."
"Oh sorry." I said as I started to put te jar away.
"It's ok Blade. It's not your fault. It's just going to take me a bit before I can get my head wrapped around it all."
"Oh, ok." I took anoter sip then put the jar back into the cooler. "Well I'm going to head off to bed Sam. I'll see you in the morning."
"Yeah I need to get o bed to, but I've got to check on Dean first. I'll walk up with you." Sam said as he got up. We both headed up the stairs to the main floor then to the second I headed to my room as Sam headed to check on his brother. I didn't realize how tired I was until I got into bed and soon fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning early. When I rolled over and grabbed my cell phone to look at my clock it read 6:30am. I groaned inwardly and put my head back down into my pillow. As I lied there I couldn't help but think about the previous nights events. I felt bad for what I had done. I finally made up my mind and grabbed my jacket as it was a little chilly, but that did nothing for my legs as I was wearing shorts. I softly crept to Deans room, trying not to wake anyone. I gently turned the knob on his door and walked in. I softly closed the door and tiptoed over to Dean's sleeping form. As I came up to him I got a good look at his face. He had 2 black eyes, a swollen lips and various cuts and bruises all over his face. My heart sank at seeing his face. I don't know what had come over me these days. I was feeling bad for I guy I hated, but now I felt less hatered for him. I was becoming confused around him and getting these weird feeling whenever he was near. I had no clue what was going on, and it was starting to scare me. I looked at Dean again before kneeling on the floor and leaning over to his ear. "I'm sorry Dean." I whispered, then got up and walked back to my room. I left my jacket on and climbed back in to bed before falling back to sleep.
DEANS POV
I had woken up sore all over with a horrible pain all over my face. I had remembered what had happened the night before and was immeadieatly pissed off, but soon calmed down as I remembered what I had said. I had brought this pretty much upon myself, at what I had said to her, it had been uncalled for but she brought out something in me that I've never felt before. I get confused whenever I'm around her and getting these weird feelings. I have no clue why I'm getting these feelings and it's starting to really get to me. As I'm laying there I here the soft sound of my door knob turning and I close my eyes to pretend to be sleeping. I hear soft footsteps coming towards me then they stop next to my bed. I keep my eyes closed and make sure my breathing is normal. I then feel hot breath on my ear and Blade's voice whispering 'I'm sorry Dean'. I stayed relax until I heard the door close and then I sat up slowly in my bed.
I couldn't believe it, she'd probably never admit it again. But the fact that she apoligized was enough. She was different then any girl I ever met and the feelings that I was feeling, it was all new to me and it scared me. I hardly know her, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't even know if she even feels the same way, and she probably doesn't. 'What am I thiking? Of course she's not going to have the same feelings that I have for her. I going to be gone soon and she can go on. Oh god damn chick flick moments!' I shook my at what I thought and that was a mistake. My head started to throb and I got up and slowly shuffled over to my bag to grab some painkillers for my throbbing head. I grabbed the flask that I carried in my leather jacket, popped the pills into my mouth and the took a swig from the flask. I took another long swig before putting the flask back into my jacket and went to lay on my bed. I couldn't stop thinking about her. It was hard not to but I had to try. I couldn't get close to her, and I wouldn't let her get close to me. I felt the pills starting to work as sleep began to take over.