It was a time when i needed to talk to Elena. It was a hard time for both of us, because no matter what we were sisters who used to support each other and love each other. I knew that she was worrying as much as i was. Nothing could destroy our sisters' connection, but it was really difficult to fix the problems. Fisrst of all i had to persuade her that i was worth to talk to. The problem was that i had to talk to her alone, without her friends who used to be my friends too, Caroline and Bonnie. They were almost always together like they were scared that outside power could break them. It was painful sometimes because frankly i wanted it too, but enough of it. After couple of days i noticed that Bonnie and Care said that they were going to see Mr. Holtz (our principal) and i got Elena alone.

-Elena. Hey, wait a bit - i started. She turned around with an annoyed look on her face like i was a bug or something, which I was not.

-What? If you're trying to say that you're sorry you should wait for the girls because you owe that to them too. And i can't promise we will be able to talk to you like we used to. - She said dialing someone's number on her cellphone. I touched her hand and almost begged:

-Look i know that it was partly my fault...

-Partly? Really?

-Maybe not. It's not my point. My point is that i know that we have not been good friends recently but you're the only person i can ask such a thing to do. It's me, i mean my past. Sister, I am very lost. I don't have a normal life and I never had because every person in this city has memories about his life before, your jokes with girls, your experiences with our parents - I didn't have it and I am almost dying. I am confused. I think that I could be another person if i knew more. You remember me when we fisrt met. I wasn't like this. Somethins is changing inside me. I am struggling but it's not enough. Maybe you heard something about my life at Grams from our parents. If only you could help me...Please. Please. - I was almost crying. Frankly I pretended to be, i knew it would help reaching my goal faster.

-Look, I am not sure i could help you getting know you. It's just you but i think we could try something at home - her voice seemed to be softer

-Thank you. It means a lot - i hugged her and went away.

Yeap. I knew how to get what i wanted. As always. Oh, don't judge me for being kinda selfish. I am not. I am just ambitious. And brave if you could say that.

At home i was waiting Elena in her room with a cup of hot chocolate and some biscuits and with a bunch of old DVD's. I really hoped it could melt her.

-Hey - she was obviously surprised when she got back home. - I see you skipped your classes to prepare it. Impressive, but not very much. What do you want? - Again cold Elena.

-You know what i want. I want to hear from you about me when we first met. When i became a real part of the family.

-Quite simple. You were quiet at first. Then after making sure that we're not some sharks and we don't bite - you started to behave normal.

-Normal how? I mean normal me is what?

-Normal Kate is caring, adorable sweet child with a tough character inside. - she smiled remembering it

-Sounds not like me - I grinned sadly.

-Well, but it was you. I loved you from the first minute. Then you probably remember hanging with the girls, flirting with my Matt.

-Yeah. I was testing him. Although, i still don't know about my Grams. I mean she died - and I moved here. But how come i never heard of you before? I mean Mom told me something, but i was confused - i didn't understand it. I was just happy to have a family.

-I can't tell you the truth because frankly i don't know it as well. - She shrugged.

-But maybe something, maybe you heard some conversation that you should have not known.

-Nope. Can't remeber a thing. Sorry for not helping at all. - She was really sorry.

-It' okay. Probably it's not a big deal. It's the past anyway, right? - I was so upset and angry inside.

-Right. Right. - She agreed.

And then i felt like crying because i could do nothing to know real me and i left the room, the house and decided to go in the woods hoping no one will be here.

I was walking and walking and walking. I was pretty sure I was lost but i didn't care. I knew that I had Damon who was mocking about my past and who knew who i was but didn't tell me the truth. I had my family...Oh wait. I didn't have it. And no one was there. And It was me who ruined my life. Sucks, sucks being me. - i started to yell: Sucks, sucks, sucks. And still there was that damn Klaus, who told me that we were pretty serious back then. Why, why, why don't i remember a tiny thing? Was there even a life before Mystic Falls and long before i met Damon?
Suddenly i heard someones steps. Another creepy man, i thought.
-Hey. -I turned around and it was Klaus, What was he doing here? But frankly i was really glad that he was here. I needed to know the truth.
-Look, Klaus. I maybe owe you something, but i don't remember what it is. Could you give me some clue? Could you be the person who has the guts to tell me everything? - I was shaking because of his presense, something about him was making me frozen and still i was dying to talk to him. By the way, I met him again in the forest. What was he like? A wood goblin?
-They still don't give you an information? - He was kinda surprised. He came closer and weirdly but i calmed down. I had a strong feeling that I really could know him, like i felt it.
-Not even a word. It's so confusing. Just tell me something, you're the last person who can help me. Please. Just tell me whether i was good or bad? - I begged.
-What do you think? - He smirked
-I don't think because i don't know what to think, but seeing your reaction, i mos def wasn't an angel, right? - I smiled
-Correct. - He laughed. - What do you want to know, Katherine?
-Why do you keep calling me Katherine? You like my full name? Because nobody calls me that. - I asked
-Because YOU like to be called Katherine, don't you?
And then I strongly realized it was true. I always liked my full name, but why did I ask people to call me Kate? Why?
-I do, you're right. - Good. Finally something. I could almost jump up higher that a tree around me. - What's next? Do you know about my Grams? Why was i living with her?
-Oh no. Love, there is and there was no Grams. - He sighed
-What? I mean, where was I?
-You? Travelling the world with me for the last century, for sure. - It seemed pretty obvious for him as he said that.
-Excuse me? - WTF!
-Oh, right. You don't remember it. Well, Katherine, you're THE Katherine, who turned both Salvatores, who then left Mystic Falls, who was running from me, knowing that we had a deal - if i find you, we will be together forever. At first you hated me when i found you, but you didn't even try to escape. Then year after year we were pretty good with each other. Right in 2010 i proposed you, after making sure that you love me very much. Then you were in the car accident, nothing happened with your body but your mind was cracked. I was in Europe then. Fuck Europe. - He was almost crying - I am so sorry, for leaving you then. Then my sister Rebecca, that jealous bitch, decided that you should be with Elena, your doppelganger, you could be her twin. She even made the story with this fake Grams, that your parents split you when you were born. I know it only now. I was looking for you everywhere. God, I knew i should be looking up there at fisrst.

OH MY GOD. What is he talking about? I mean why is he making up that thing? Why?

-Well, but I am not a vampire, that's for sure. - I didn't believe a word.
-Oh right. I forgot about that. There is a cure. It can make you be a human again. I don't know how but Rebecca got it and gave it to you to make the history more real.

It was too creepy. I mean, just look at that. This absolutely unknown person tries to persuade me, ME, that i was in love with him, even that i was a vampire, that I'm THE Katherine for all sakes. Was he even sane?

-Well...I see. I am Katherine. I am a vampire. I am madly in love with you. Fine. - I stepped away closely. -What about we carry on talking later? Hm? - And i tried to run. He grabbed my wrist and whispered in my ear:
-You may not believe me now, but trust me, no one gets you better than I do. I know you, not like Damon with all his thoughts about his love Katherine. How deeply must he loved you that he can't recognize his Great Love of his life! You're not who you are now. You were always a free bird and who was tamed by me. Real Katherine, when you were a vampire i mean, knew for sure why she felt in love with me, because I was destined to be near you, to protect you. I am from Originals. No one can beat me. NO-ONE!