AARON LIVESY

-The Chase-

"In Memory Of"

The next morning Aaron felt a little uncomfortable as he sat at the dining table and when Jason walked over with two plates in his hand he smiled up at him; Jason smiled back as he placed Aaron's full English down in front of him. "I'm sorry" Aaron declared out of nowhere.

"What for?" Jason asked with a frown as he moved to sit down opposite him.

Aaron sighed "You must get sick of hearing me talk about Jackson"

Jason's frown deepened. "Course I don't, he's a part of you and he's someone you'll never fully get over and me bringing us here hasn't helped matters"

"But I told you, you weren't to know and it's fine" Aaron reassured him. Jason simply smiled. "I thought things like this wouldn't happen anymore you know, struck down by memories"

"It's bound to happen here especially, it's the first time you've been since…" Aaron nodded with a small smile. "After Jackson did you find anyone else?"

Aaron swallowed hard. "Uh yeah..." he replied with a frown as the memories and hurt resurfaced briefly.

Jason picked up on it though. "Didn't work out?"

"Yeah" he chuckled. "You could say that...e-everything was going good, he got a job in France and I went with him, her erm, turned nasty…violent even"

Jason sighed and hung his head. "Oh Aaron..."

"It's alright, he beat me...a-and raped me...the first times I thought okay, you know?" Jason nodded. "But then it happened again and again, I came back earlier this year, no one was expecting me but I did, I wasn't even gone long a few months…anyway I had to tell my mum didn't I...so she knew and wanted to kill him, I told her it didn't matter"

"What happened with him then?"

"Oh he came back too, came to my room in the pub at night, tried killing me, he almost did aswell, he erm…" Aaron stopped and hung his head, recalling events hurt him.

"It's alright Aaron"

Aaron shook his head. "He slammed my head against a wall on the landing after I escaped his grip…I was out before I knew it and I woke up in hospital a few days later to be told he threw me down the stairs"

"Bloody hell!"

Aaron smiled a little "Anyway when I got out, I was in a chair and my mate Adam took me to bar west I saw Flynn...he was with him, Ed...I tried warning him, he didn't listen…anyway later that night I found Flynn in an alley, he'd raped him, but we got Ed arrested, I had left but Paddy stayed and saw to it with Flynn, gave statements…"

"Why didn't you stay?"

"Oh" he said as he swallowed hard. "I-I was knackered, in the chair and all that" he said with a nod.

Jason nodded with a smile

"But yeah he's in prison now, thinking back at everything, before I come out, after I did, Jackson and everything after the crash...after he died… what I did to myself, Ed, Flynn…m-my life was one big mess, one thing after another...until you - everything makes sense"

Jason smiled and reached for his hand and held it tightly. "You are so special to me; I know we've only been together a short time but whatever it is that I feel it's happening so fast and I don't mind I'm just not used to becoming so attached this quickly"

Aaron chuckled with a nod, he knew that feeling well. "I'm not used to it either but I'm comfortable with it…if you had met me two years ago I'd have ran"

Jason smiled. "People change" Aaron smiled back. "So are you ready for today?" he said with a grin.

Aaron felt his stomach flip, he smiled a little. "Yes, scared still but I have to do it, something I should have done last year with Jackson, I'm doing this for him, I owe it to him, his memory"

Jason nodded "Well eat up, there's still a couple of hours before we drive there, the food should settle way before you jump, what do you wanna do before then?"

"Amusements?" Aaron suggested with a cheeky glint in his eye.

Jason let out a laugh "Alright cool"

…

Hours later Aaron was suited up for his jump just waiting, and by waiting it wasn't by any means sitting calmly, no Aaron was pacing the ground, breathing out deep quick breaths in a blind panic. Jason fought the urge to laugh as he paced with him. It was hilarious watching him.

"Why are you walking with me?" Aaron snapped, he hadn't meant too Jason knew that.

"Because I'm with you every step of the way" he told him with a smile, he meant it and he'd hoped it would relax him but it didn't.

"What the hell am I thinking?" he raged at himself. "I can't believe what I'm going to do, something will happen, oh god! What if the parachute doesn't open?"

Jason laughed then, he hadn't meant too but he couldn't help it, he took a firm hold of Aaron's shoulders and stopped him. "Aaron, nothing will happen to you, it is perfectly safe the guys know what they're doing"

"But this is me we're talking about! Karma has a funny way of biting people back right in the arse!"

Jason frowned. "What's this about Aaron?"

"I-I caused Jackson's accident what if…what if…" he stopped himself and let out a heavy deep breath.

Jason frowned and just looked at him. "Aaron you did not cause the crash, whatever you think and karma certainly won't come bite you in the arse and hurt you while you're up there…look at me"

Aaron slowly looked up at Jason, into his amazing blue eyes, he stared at him looking at every bit of his perfect face it calmed him. "That was a bit stupid of me wasn't it?"

Jason chuckled as he nodded his head. "You need to relax babe"

Aaron frowned but with a smile. "You just called me babe"

Jason nodded. "What of it?"

"I like it"

"Good I'll call you it more" he told him with a grin as he moved closer and kissed him softly, a long lingering kiss that lasted a while.

When they parted Aaron decided to sit on the bench and wait, while he waited he clung to Jason's hand, he might have calmed down but he was bricking it!

"Hey…" Jason said softly as he looked at him, their eyes met and he could see how scared he was just from his eyes alone. "Just remember who you're doing this for, nothing else matters"

Aaron smiled and nodded quickly. "Thank you for being so understanding"

In that split second Jason wanted to say something else but he stopped himself then smiled and pulled Aaron closer and kissed him on the head. "You'll be fine"

Aaron nodded as his head rested against Jason's shoulder. "I know"

"Looks like you're up babe, they're coming"

"Oh god!" Aaron groaned and he got up off the bench. "Wish me luck…"

Jason smiled. "You don't need it, you will be fine and I'll be watching from down here, with a smile on my face waiting for you to come back to me"

Aaron nodded. "Oh where's my phone?"

"No time for that Aaron"

"No I know j-just gimme it"

Jason nodded and reached into his pocket and took Aaron's phone out and handed it to him. Aaron pressed a few buttons until he got to the photo library; he brought up a picture of Jackson and smiled. Jason knew instantly and his heart warmed as he watched Aaron trace his fingers over the image. Jason knew Jackson was one lucky guy for having Aaron in his life and for loving him enough to let him go. Aaron sniffled and quickly handed the phone back to his boyfriend. Jason took it and Aaron nodded with a teary smile. "I'll see you soon"

"Yes you will" Jason told him then watched Aaron turn and head over to the guys.

Aaron felt sick, the doors were opened and he was strapped to one of the guys. He could see they were high, very high, he didn't want to know how high really, what they were saying wasn't really registering. Aaron blew out a deep breath. "Are you ready?" the instructor asked.

Aaron's eyes widened and he found himself nodding then he stood up and walked toward the edge. "Oh my god, oh my god" he said as he gripped hold of a metal beam, he lowered himself down and let his legs dangle over the edge, he was sat in between the instructors legs. "Listen son, I can feel you shaking and it's perfectly normal…but really you have nothing to worry about…word of advice don't close your eyes…you'll miss it"

Aaron nodded and the guy began. "On three we'll push off…one….two…"

Aaron breathed in and looked up into the blue sky. "This is for you Jackson. I love you."

He jumped.

TBC…