-Chapter Two-

Suicide

'Bella, where are you Bella? Come on out and play.' His voice was a song, an evil, harsh sound, bouncing off of the walls in my bedroom. I wanted my daddy. I wanted him to come and save me from the horrible games Jake made me play. I didn't like Jake anymore, not since he started to hurt me.

I could hear his footsteps closer now as he approached my hiding place on the floor of my closet. 'If you don't come out Bella, I'll have to spank you for being naughty.' He sounded happy. I hated Jake.

The closet door opened and I looked up into his face. Shaking my head as he pulled me from the safety of my little hiding place. 'You know what game we play today, don't you Bella?' I cried out for my daddy, hoping he'd come and save me from Jacob. 'PLEASE DADDY! PLEASE DON'T LET HIM HURT ME! HELP!'

I shot bolt upright in bed, sweating heavily and shaking so badly my teeth clattered together loudly. The same nightmares had plagued me for years, I was terrified of the monster in my dreams.

Looking through the curtained window I could see the early grey dawn and decided to get up and leave before Dad, he was better off blissfully unaware of what I was going to do today.

I packed a bag, taking a bottle of vodka and a bottle of whiskey from my Dad's stash and taking the pain medication Dr. Cullen had prescribed for a long forgotten injury. I was ready to go a few minutes later and set off, leaving my cell phone on the side table. I wouldn't need it anyway.

~FM~

The trip to the meadow took longer on foot, I'd only ever walked the trail from my truck but trudging on I finally made it to the grassy paradise. The sun peeking through clouds as I traipsed the soggy ground, I found a large willow tree and sat beneath it, hoping I'd be hidden from view should anyone come wandering.

I sat for what felt like hours, just staring out at the grass and wildflowers, thinking about everything, about how Charlie would take the news, how my Mother would feel about it. I sat and thought about how my classmates, my teachers and my once best friend, Rosalie Hale would react. I decided I didn't care how anyone would feel, it was me who suffered everyday with the sound of Jacob's voice pounding my skull incessantly, haunting my dreams.

I took out the vodka and a bottle of pain pills, starting to take one at a time methodically, it helped to keep me calm. I didn't feel guilty or scared, I felt relief as the alcohol blurred my vision and the medication dulled my senses. Finally it would end.

~FM~

(EDPOV)

'Swan?' No answer, it wasn't like Bella to miss our biology class. I didn't think she'd ever missed a day of school in her life, it was strange.

Mr. Banner carried on roll call as I contemplated where Bella could be, I had a bad feeling about her not turning up for class. I wondered if I should stop by on my way home to give her the new assignment, we were gonna be lab partners after all.

'Edward? Are you alright man? You seem a little distant today.' Emmett looked concerned as he spoke, I shrugged not sure if I was okay, that bad feeling hadn't left me all day. It felt like a pit of doom had opened up in my stomach.

'Just worried about Bella, she never turned up for bio lab today. She's always there, even when she's sick.' My voice grew worried as my mind wandered to the beautiful, brown-eyed girl I saw everyday.

'I'm worried something isn't right, she seemed more closed off than usual and swearing at Mr. Banner like that was something she'd definatly never done before. I've never heard Bella speak louder than a breathy whisper.'

Emmett shook his head and grinned at me, 'dude, just ask her out! You've been pining for this chick forever. How could she say no to Mr. Perfect?' He laughed loudly as I shoved him and stalked off.

A/N: Next chapter will be the scene some readers my find distressing. I hope I don't offend anyone.