Disclaimer: Touhou belongs to Zun, and the only things that belong to myself would be Usagi the mimic, and Moegi the japanese beetle. Everything else belongs to their rightful owner.

Y/N: My, is this the place you call home these days? It seems a tad... lacking.

K/N: Lacking what?

Y/N: What, indeed~

K/N: Must you be so mysterious about it...?

Y/N: Yes, I must.

A/N: It sure is nice having your master around, isn't it...?

K/N: ...Yes, it is.

A/N: I shall take that as sarcasm.

Y/N: Ohh, don't be such a downer! You know you love having me around~ ...Stop looking at each other like that.

A/N: Well, can you blame us?

Y/N: Yes, quite easily~

K/N: I think that was rhetorical, Master.

A/N: I think she already knows that, Kogasa.

Y/N: I already know that, Author~

A/N: Told you so.

A/N2: Also, this chapter has a sister by another author. Luminous Beginnings wrote a little story for me that inspired me to change Kogasa's fate. It's actually part of a running theme with her now. You will see what I mean. Look for it in his Suppository. ...Wait, that sounds off.

Y/N2: Repository.

A/N2: Ahh, right. Thank you Yukari. Chapter 12, it is in. If one is unable to find it, simply PM me and I shall do the work for you. It's quite the lovely story, really...

I sighed, and grabbed for my book. Sleep was simply not claiming me any longer, and I needed some way to pass the time. Sure, I could use one of those outsider games, but my book is right here. A game system would take effort to summon, and I sadly am trying to get rest.

Today I bid farewell to jack. He left on a British ship headed to America, after I told him of Sleepy Hollow. He seemed fascinated by the tale, and wanted to make it real. Of course, as he lacks a head, he was a stowaway. No real getting around that. When he told Ran and I about the plan, Ran was as unaffected as ever, but I could tell she too would miss him. Of course, since that one time her aburaage exploded, she hasn't liked him quite as much as before. But still, even if she won't let it show, we know well that she will miss him.

It's so quiet without him around. I don't know what to do without him, now that he's gone. Perhaps I should start getting involved with the politics of the world, for the sake of all. I mean, I'm wise enough to start meddling in such affairs by this point, and I just might be able to start building wealth if I work as a contracted meddler of some sort.

Wow, I never expected that. A young boy proclaimed that I would be his wife today. I couldn't have been more than 7 years old, really. It was a curious thing to have happen. Apparently, he was the son of the shogun. I was actually meeting with him today, to discuss current events. Best to avoid the collapse of the country my home is located within. Meeting with the shogun, that is. Not his child. That would be hardly useful.

At the mention of Tadanaka, I couldn't help but let out a melancholic sigh. I had almost forgotten about him, really. But only almost. This may hurt a tad to read...

It had been a couple years since last I came, but that child still remembered me. Although, this time I had run into him on my way out, so I was able to humor him a bit. Of course, it wasn't long until one of his retainers tried to get me to leave. I believe that she felt that it unwise to allow the shogun's son, second or otherwise, to fraternize with a youkai. Rather surprisingly, said son stood up for me as I went to leave, and told his retainer to mind her own business. Of course, he also called me his future wife, which did make me blush a bit that he was still on about that.

I sighed at the memory, and smiled brightly. How I miss him...

Tadanaka finally stopped referring to me as his wife, his future wife, his wife to be, and instead simply calls me by my name. Although, I can still see it in his eyes. He still is in love with me. But I simply can't return those feelings. Even after 20,000 years I feel it to be too soon. I simply cannot return his love.

As I flipped through pages, I noticed that I wouldn't stop talking about him. Eventually, I came to what I had in mind.

I'm Yukari

I'm

How am I Master? My eyes. When I mixed the color to a rich purple to match the gift, and looked at my reflection, I

My hair, my eyes, everything

Does that mean I can't save her? Will I fail, just as Master did? Did she truly? Even the secondary plan to make her become a shinigami?

Is that why she came so quickly? She knew it would happen?

Calm down, Hitomi. Calm down, and just gather your thoughts, old girl. Just

Okay. Alright. I just need to order my thoughts, and write them in the proper order this time. Writing is good for relaxation. Good to take one's mind off these things.

Today Tadanaka gave me a wonderful kimono. Purple, with, well, it's the sort of pattern one has to see to understand. As was the usual, he flirted a bit as he gave it, although I didn't truly mind it. In fact, it could be said that I appreciated it. Both the gift and flirting, that is.

When I went to try on the lovely little outfit made in a color I had never considered wearing before, I found that it looked far nicer than turquoise on me. I wanted to show him how much I appreciated the gift, so I decided to mix the colors of my eyes, and found that I

And then, when I returned to him, he noticed the change. I told him it was in his honor, and said a few things to bolster his ego a bit. One thing led to another, and I gave him a promise I plan to keep. I plan to see him after the moon hits the center of the sky, so as to be able to get a meal from his pleasant surprise. It is so rare that I receive such a lovely meal these days. Typically I stick to human food, but tonight will be special.

I began to giggle, and flush at the memory. Ohh, he was the only man who I have ever loved. Letting out a sigh, I frowned at what would come soon enough. But for the moment, I remembered our first time together as if it happened just yesterday.

That felt so nice. It has been so long since I last felt the touch of another in such a way. Last one was Sanae, and she wasn't able to do quite the things a man is capable of. In all honesty, I was surprised by the size of it. It was so

so

I'm not sure what to call it. Beefy? Hefty? Hard?

Ohh dear, I seem to have excited myself just trying to think of words to describe it. I missed this warmth. Never have I understood why I am capable of it, but I'm not about to look such a blessing in the mouth.

I chuckled a bit at having grown excited thinking about it as well. It has been some time since last I had a man...

As I began to read through the following pages, I couldn't help but smile more and more, untill I reached the end of that. Then I frowned, and a single tear trickled from my eye at the memory.

I can't believe it. Is it really over already? He's gone. Seppuku for what he didn't mean to do. Why? Why did he have to do it? I was so happy. We were so happy. Why did it have to end after only some 5 years? Why did

There was more about his death, but I couldn't bear to read more. By the time I made it to where I did, I had shed several more tears, and I threatened to burst into further tears. Not wanting to cry my heart out, I placed the bookmark in the pages of the book, and put the it back in its place. Sniffling for multiple reasons, I returned to trying to fall asleep.

Within minutes of trying to drift off to sleep, I did just that, falling into a dreamless sleep.