Sherlock's eyes widened and a hint of anger flashed through them.
"What did you just say?"
John looked away, desperately trying to think of a lie to tell Sherlock even though he would see straight through it.
"N-Nothing…I didn't say anything."
Sherlock inhaled sharply and he gripped onto John's shoulder.
"Tell. Me. Now."
"Sherlock, it was nothing…really."
Sherlock's gripped tightened on John's shoulder who winced slightly.
"You just said that you tried to kill yourself! How is that nothing?"
Sherlock began to get angrier at his friend, the upset and anger coursing through his veins. God he needed his drug supply right now.
"Look, Sherlock. I tried it once and I couldn't bring myself to jump."
Sherlock let go of John's shoulder and pushed himself up from the floor, staggering backwards away from John.
"Why would you do that, John?" He sounded upset and unsure.
John pulled himself to standing and slowly walked towards Sherlock.
"I-I couldn't…I couldn't live without my best friend."
John didn't know what to say or do. He needed his friend back but going by the way Sherlock was reacting he doubted that would ever happen.
"You said you believed in me, John. Why would you want to end your life?"
"Because I wanted to be with you, I thought you were dead."
"I gave you so many hints to show that I was still alive! I couldn't come back until now. I have travelled around the country, killing off Moriarty's men…one by one. Until you were safe."
Sherlock explained quickly to the smaller man, turning to glare out of the window like he used to. The rain trickled down the windows, leaving trails of water. He really doesn't want to go back outside into that rain.
"I am strong, I can look after myself."
"You clearly can't, John." Sherlock snapped, instantly regretting it.
John frowned and nodded, looking hurt as Sherlock sighed and turned to look at him again.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, okay?"
John just nodded, going to sit in his old armchair.
Sherlock sighed and rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly as he glanced around the living room of 221B. It hasn't changed a bit.
"I think I should leave…"
Slightly longer chapter than the others! Sorry for the wait everyone. I hope you liked it though! D-D x