Ch. 5
My Heart Skips a Beat
Last night wasn't so bad after talking to Edward. I was glad I got to know somebody in this household. And he was gonna give me my space about my past. Most foster families kept trying to get me to crack. Well the lock on this safe isn't as willing.
Saturday morning I woke up to sound of machine guns and two teenage boys yelling. What a great way to wake up in the morning? At least water wasn't being poured over my head like my last home. That was when I was testing a new sleeping medication and apparently it was working a bit too well. At least I now have medication that's getting me to sleep. That one apparently kept me asleep.
As soon as I opened my eyes I saw a huge blinding light, then I realized it was just the sun. I must've forgotten to close the curtains last night after coming in. I got out of bed and stood in front of the window enjoying the strong rays. I took one last look and grabbed my bag to go take a shower. I after washing my hair I blow dried it and decided to just leave it down since putting it up wouldn't do any good.
I grabbed a pair of my black skinny jeans with my long sleeved, gray sweater and my high tops. I honestly didn't know what to expect of this day, but seeing two of my new brothers tackling each other over a PS3 controller was not what I expected. An Edward was leaning on the other side of the couch, just looking bored. He looked and smiled at me before getting back to waiting for his brothers to give it a rest. So I just wandered down the hall to the kitchen to find Esme cooking eggs and bacon.
"Good morning, Bella." She greeted me as she was frying the bacon.
"Morning," I replied as I sat down at the great big isle. When I sat she passed me a plate of bacon and eggs. I was starving so I chowed down, I usually am this hungry in the morning if I wake up in the middle of the night. The bacon was crispy just how I liked it. I was starting to get the hang of how things go in this house.
"We were thinking of going to the mall today, maybe we can find you some new clothes for school."
"Oh, well that's really kind of you Esme, but"
"It's no problem, and we would really like to get know you better Bella."
"Okay, who else is going?"
"Well Carlisle had an emergency at the hospital today, Rosalie and Alice wouldn't miss a chance to go shopping, and the boys can come if they want to."
And right when she said that the boys came running in yelling 'Bacon!' So I guess that was the end of that conversation.
"Hey were coming with yall to the mall today," Emmett said as he scarfed down some scrambled eggs.
"Yes," Jasper replied slowly, "because SOMEBODY broke the PS3 control."
"No he's the one that wouldn't let go."
Then they just went on that way for most of the morning. Edward said he would tag along because he didn't really have much going on for him today. Well that was the most interesting breakfast I had ever had. We had gone in to the mall that day and went to about 20 different stores. I now have more clothes than I've ever had in my entire life. I don't see why it's so important for me to have this many clothes, but they insist.
It was around 8 o'clock by the time we got home. I was tired from walking all day in the mall. The boys just went to go play their Call of Duty game or whatever. The girls just went up to Esmes' room to talk about dresses or whatever. Man, I say 'whatever' a lot. Oh well.
I went upstairs to my room and put in a CD in my CD player. I turned it to a song that was really familiar to me. So I grabbed my pointe shoes and went to the dance room nobody knows about. I put my CD player on speaker not to loud but up enough for me to hear. I didn't know what I was doing and I didn't think about it I just danced.
Heart Skips a Beat – Lenka
Verse 1
Heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat
My is playing tricks on me
And it's building bricks on me
I can't break through
And I can't face you
My world is turning slowly now
But it's burning up somehow
I need some time
To know what's right
'Cause it's only in the quiet that I feel some relief
Refrain
I'm trying hard not to resist the joy
Don't listen to me I'm being paranoid
I might try but it's too hard to avoid
Verse 2
My heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat
My heart is always first to know
And as the feeling grows
I can't deny push those thoughts aside
My world is full of loveliness
But I focus on the stress
My heart says "Go" but my brain says "No"
And it's only in the quiet that I hear myself breathe
(Refrain)
My heart skips a beat (4x)
Verse 3
Oh I know this time 'cause it's physical
My blood has stopped and I am breathes as well
But I need a minute to convince myself
'Cause it's only in the quiet that I know what to feel
Refrain
My heart skips a beat (4x)
Man I love that song. It was nice to blow off some steam and just be myself. After the song I checked my watch and thought I should take a shower and head to bed. I turned around and then- holy crap. How long had Edward been standing there?
He was just leaning against the door frame. I'm pretty sure I was blushing like crazy, 'cause he just smiled.
"Hey," he said.
"Hey,"
"You looked like you were having fun just…dancing. You know?"
"Yeah, it was fun. I never really just danced without routine or thinking of steps, or counting."
"Yeah you just looked so free and like you didn't have a worry in the world."
"Thanks, I think."
"So do you ever think about taking up dance again?"
"Sometimes, I guess."
"Well are school has a dance team, and there hosting auditions on Monday. How about you audition?"
"Well, I don't know…"
"I'm just saying you know it might be fun, and we would all support you."
"That sounds nice, I just don't know…"
"Well just wanted to let you know. Good night." He turned to leave and before he walked out I called back to him.
"I'll think about it, okay?"
"That sounds good." He turned around and smiled and left. Then I walked out to and went upstairs to change and get to sleep. After taking my sleep medication I slowly dozed with the sound of music in my head and Edwards voice for some reason.