Mizu: Yay! Another chapter done! I had such a huge freakin' writer's block for this story until now! Yay for random as crud debates in school! Disclaimer time. I don't own -Man. If I did, then Neah and Mana probably wouldn't have such girlish names.
Innocence's True Form
Chapter Four: Bloody Tears
"So I was right," C.C. said, sounding a little smug, "It's good to see you again, Mugen."
As the light faded, Mugen's human form was slowly revealed to the exorcists. Just like the Crown Clown, Mugen looked very similar to Kanda. The main difference between the two was that while Kanda looked quite feminine, there was absolutely no doubt that Mugen was a girl. Kanda's tough eyes on her were slightly softer and kinder. She still looked like Kanda but the differences were still very obvious.
"Strike!" Lavi shouted out before he could stop himself, "Shit…"
Mugen glanced over to where the now cowering Bookman was at and smiled, "That's quite alright, Lavi."
"Huh?" the room gaped.
"Just don't ever think about even living to say that again should you slip up again," Mugen said, smiling one of Allen's famous poker smiles.
"Ah, you haven't changed a bit, my dear Mugen," C.C. chuckled.
"Is that really you?" Mugen gasped happily.
"It is," C.C. smiled.
Mugen flung herself into C.C. and proceeded to suffocate the poor man, "It's so great to see you again!" "M-Mugen…can't…b-breathe," C.C. gasped for breath.
"Oh!" she gasped as she dropped C.C., "Oopsie!"
Allen and Kanda just stood next to each other with their eye's twitching.
"Oi, Moyashi," Kanda stated.
"What is it BaKanda?" Allen answered.
"Can you tell what the hell is going on between those two?"
"Yes," Allen sighed, "Can you?"
"Unfortunately yes," Kanda mumbled.
"This is so wrong…" Allen whimpered.
"You're telling me," Kanda agreed.
"Oh? You two finally getting along?" Mugen giggled, looking back at their wielders, "It's about time!"
"I don't think that's it, Mugen," C.C. chuckled.
"True," Mugen agreed, smiling happily, "So you know my current name, what about yours?"
"At times, I worry about that thick skull you've got their, sweetie," C.C. sighed.
"Sweetie?" the exorcists minus Kanda and Allen gaped.
"Oh yes, I haven't told you people yet, have I?" C.C. questioned.
"Tell us what?" Lenalee questioned.
"That Mugen and I at one time were an item," C.C. smirked, holding Mugen close to his person.
Allen's face flushed bright red as his head was suddenly filled with C.C.'s memories, "Stop thinking those things!"
"Oops, sorry baka!" C.C. smiled.
Allen looked up at Kanda's face and was relieved to see he wasn't the only one embarrassed by their innocence. He felt his face grow hotter at the wording of his last thought. That was the last thing the two in front of them were. Neither Mugen nor C.C. were innocent beings.
"Anyways, my sweet Mugen, my current name is Crown Clown," C.C. stated to the woman.
"Crown Clown?…Hm…well it's better than your last couple of names," Mugen smirked.
"What was his last name?" Allen asked before he could stop himself.
"Virgin White," Mugen said with a dark smirk on her face.
"Mugen!" C.C. whined, "Don't tell them anymore!"
"Alright sweetheart," Mugen laughed softly, "but you'll have to make it up to me later."
"Eh? I c-can't do that yet!" C.C. complained to his once lover.
"Why on this bloody Earth not?" Mugen fumed, stomping her feet.
"Allen's too young," C.C. pointed out.
"Huh? Wh-what's that got to do with anything?" Allen stuttered.
"If we really do what we want to do, we might put to much stress on the poor boy's body. He's only sixteen, my love," C.C. explained.
"But it's been so long!" Mugen whined.
"Think about your accommodator," C.C. pleaded, "Even though he's not a parasitic type it will still put a lot of stress on him. He's only what? Eighteen? Nineteen?"
"Nineteen," Mugen sighed, "But what if we-"
"Hell no!" Kanda and Allen shouted on the top of lungs.
"Fooey…It's so hard to hide these things from those two…" Mugen pouted.
"You probably just forget to shield your thoughts from him," C.C. comforted, "Remember, it has been a very long time since we've both had true accommodators."
"You're right," Mugen sighed happily, wrapping her arms around C.C., "I guess I can just be happy with being in your arms for now."
"That's my girl," C.C. sighed happily, holding his love tight.
"So if you two were…are lovers," Krory thought out loud.
"Then wouldn't Kanda and Allen be-" Komui added.
"No way in hell would that ever happen!" the two boys shouted on top of their lungs once more.
"Why would I put up with someone as cold-hearted as Kanda for a lover?" Allen snapped, trying to ignore his dark blush.
"Besides," Kanda sighed, "there's no way that Moyashi here would be top like his innocence."
"What's that supposed to me?" Allen demanded, turning his anger away from the rest of the group and back towards the samurai.
"What do you think, Moyashi?" Kanda smirked, "There's no way in hell that I'd be the uke."
"Uke?" Allen repeated out loud.
"He means bottom, baka," C.C. smirked.
"So that means…oh gawd!" Allen screamed, jumping away from Kanda, "What makes you think that I'd be the "uke" anyways?"
"You're younger than me, shorter, girlier," Kanda stated, enjoying Allen's pissed off expressions, "Plus there's no way that you'd overpower me and take me. That's the only you'd ever top and we all know that that would never happen."
Allen, upon locking eyes with Kanda, dived under Komui's desk and hid under the outrageous amount of paper there. Mugen broke out in laughter as C.C. sighed at his accommodator's strange behavior.
"Looks like your wielder suits your old name so much better than you ever did!" Mugen laughed loudly.
"That he does," C.C. agreed.
"So sweetheart," Mugen smirked, "Why have you finally awaken to your true form?"
"Huh?" everyone, excluding Allen, gaped.
"Wh-What do you mean-" C.C. started to fake.
"Don't play the fake card with me. Ever since Kanda here made me injure you that day, I've known that you and that brat there have been fully linked. You could have saved that boy so much trouble by revealing this to him sooner," Mugen said, glaring at her lover.
"I-I…I was afraid…" C.C. admitted.
"Afraid of what?" Lavi questioned.
"Allen becoming extremely cocky in his abilities. He had never really seen battle before we got to the order," C.C. explained, "Yeah Cross threw us out into the battle as soon as it started but that still wasn't anything like what he would experience later on."
"So you were trying to protect the boy from the inevitable," Mugen stated, "Seems kinda pointless, doesn't it?"
"Not really," C.C. smiled, "Allen's had to go through so much more than anyone in this order would have ever imagined."
"What?" Miranda questioned.
"With his curse, I was afraid that if I should show myself before he got the feel for the real battles, he'd have been worse off," C.C. stated, walking over to Komui's desk, "You all know how he thinks he can save everyone in the world. Believe it or not, after he destroyed Narien,that belief was a million times stronger. It took so long for Cross to knock some sense into him that there was no way that he'd be able to do that."
"Crown Clown?" Allen questioned from under the desk.
C.C. smiled and held out a hand for Allen. The teen slowly took it and let his innocence help him up. He could feel his eyes start to get heavy. Everything that had happen today had really taken their toll on him. Maybe it was time for a nap.
"Why don't you lay down on the couch, baka?" C.C. asked, leading the small teen over to said couch, "This has to be a lot to take in at once."
"Y-yeah," Allen yawned as he laid down.
C.C. knelt next to his accommodator, slowly petting his snow-white hair until the teen finally fell into his oblivion of darkness. Smiling at the teen, C.C. slowly stood back up with his back to Mugen.
"You aren't telling us everything," Mugen stated, "I know you. That wouldn't have stopped you from showing yourself sooner. You were afraid of something else. Why else would you fight against your greatest desire to be in this form."
"You're right," C.C. said, tears of red rolling down his cheek, "I was afraid of something else."
"C.C.!" Lavi gasped when he saw the red tears.
"Don't worry, Lavi," Mugen stated, "Whenever we cry, we cry a bit of blood."
"B-blood?" Lenalee repeated.
"Yep," Mugen sighed, staring at Lenalee's Dark Boots, "It's sorta like when we reach Crystal type."
"Cry-crystal type?" the group gasped.
"S-So every type can reach it?" Komui exclaimed.
"Of course. Why would we choose one type over another?" Mugen scoffed, "We are all connected with our accommodators. Each of us share the blood of our wielders. The closer we are the more we share."
"Although," Mugen stared at Lenalee, "I don't know why you reached Crystal before Allen. He's much closer to Crown Clown than you are to the Dark Boots. Most can't reach Crystal till after our human form is reached."
"What are you trying to say? That Allen should have already been a Crystal type?" Krory asked.
"Well either Dark Boots knew that the only way to save Lenalee and everyone else was to join together with becoming a Crystal type or Crown Clown here is holding something back," Mugen sighed, walking up to Crown Clown and wiping his bloody tears away, "Hush now. Tell us what's going on."
"I was afraid, Mugen," C.C. stated solemnly, "afraid that Allen would abandon me if I showed him myself."
"Why would he do that?" Mugen asked gently.
"Cause I kill Mana…" C.C. whimpered, "I didn't even hide what I was doing. I didn't force Allen into unconsciousness or anything. When I saw the akuma that held his Mana's soul, I just attacked him…"
"You did what your instincts told you. It's your job to kill akuma," Mugen stated.
"But I didn't kill Mana in that first blow. I felt Allen's will tugging me back and I didn't kill him. So then I chased after the body, dragging Allen with me," C.C. said, tears falling anew, "He was crying out for me to stop. I ignored him…"
"You were-"
"He was only fuckin' nine years old Mugen!" C.C. snapped at the woman, "I could have prevented all that from happening if I had just knocked him out when I sensed the Earl coming close to him! I could have filled him with such fear of the man that he, even in a depressed stupor, could have ran away! He didn't have to be cursed by the one man he loved and then have to watch him die by his left hand!"
"But sweethear-" Mugen tried to comfort.
"Don't give me that shit! You know that you would have done the same damn thing!" C.C. shouted, "I didn't want him to be afraid of me! When he came to the order, he was still a child! All I wanted to do was to protect him from more fuckin' pain! That's all I wanted!"
C.C. fell to his knees next to a sleeping Allen, "and look what's happened cause I was afraid of hurting him. Nothing I can do will ever make this right…"
Mugen placed a hand on his right shoulder and smiled when he looked up at her, "This is good."
"H-huh?" he sniffled.
"You've never been attached to any of your past accommodators, even your past true ones," Mugen said with a smile, "You just made sure they didn't kill themselves. That's what made you different from the rest of us, sweetheart."
"Mugen…" C.C. whispered.
"What you're feeling is what we all feel," Mugen stated softly, pulling him into a tight embrace, "You're finally letting yourself be true."
"Crown…Clown," Allen whimpered in his sleep.
"And now look at your boy," Mugen giggled, "You don't have to worry about what to do. Just stay with him and help him with whatever he needs help with. That's all you have to do."
"Allen," C.C. muttered, gently stroking the boy's white hair.
"She's right," Lenalee said, kneeling on the other side of C.C., "You don't have to worry about any of that."
"Yeah," Lavi chuckled slightly, "You of all people should know that Allen could never hate you."
"He's probably extremely happy to have someone that he can turn to with his inner problems," Komui smiled.
"That's right," Miranda added, "Allen tends to keep everything bottled up until he snaps in the middle of a battle."
"Just stick by him and I'm sure everything will turn out alright," Krory finished.
C.C. smiled one of his accommodator's happiest smiles and wiped away his bloody tears, "Thanks. You guys are right. About Baka and everything"
Mizu: It's done~! It's done~! *runs around happily*
Allen: *still asleep and dreaming of random food*
Lavi: *pokes Allen* Hey, Mizu? Shouldn't we wake him up yet?
Mizu: Not yet. I'll get him up in the next chapter.
C.C.: What's with me crying all of the sudden?
Mizu: I used you a bit to help the story flow a bit that's all.
C.C.: Strange way to do that.
Lavi: but effective.
Mizu: What do you think Mugen?
Mugen: I really liked but I don't think Kanda's having such a great time with it.
Kanda: *tied in a chair and gagged* MMMMMMM!
Mizu: Calm down. I didn't want you to go on a killing rampage yet. Besides, why are you so worked up. You don't mind this type of thing in my other stories.
Kanda: MMM! MMMMMMM! MMMMMM!
Mugen: He said that that's different. He's supposed to be straight in this one.
Mizu: I never said I was making you straight in this one. *grins evilly*
Rest of the characters: *shudders* crap…
Mizu: Anyways, any and all reviews are very well welcomed and loved. Ciao for now!