I sit back and let out the breath I've been holding. I sit there, hoping I've made the right choice. I sit and wait for her response...

I try to busy myself with everything but Facebook, it didn't work. I'd be lying to myself if I said I wasn't anxious for her response. I call Jasper and invite him round for a guys night. Maybe that's what I need, a step away from all these feelings. I'm starting to sound like a fucking girl, I need to man up. And not give a shit about if someone who is nothing to do with me. I didn't even know her name, until yesterday! Jasper said he will be here in thirty minutes. So I decide to go look for food, I'm starving and tired. Never a good combination, so at least I'll only be tired.

I poke my head in the fridge and find left over Chinese food, perfect. Grabbing a fork I stroll back to my bedroom and turn on my Xbox, getting out the games I know Jasper will want to play. And just because I can't help myself, I take a quick glance at my computer. I have two new messages, I open up my inbox.

I roll my eyes when I see who the first message if from. Tanya, some annoying chick who constantly messages me. She wants me and she is about as subtle as a gun. Constantly messaging me, asking to come over and 'hang out.' Sure, she was good at giving head, but I wasn't the relationship kind. But hey I'm a guy, and I have needs. So if it means I have to put up with Tanya, it was a price I had to pay.

I ignore her message and keep scrolling. My heart stops when I see I have a response from Bella. I open the message and start reading.

Hey, don't worry I would never tell you do fuck off. And you don't seem strange or a weirdo. It's actually rather sweet, of you to message me. I sit alone by choice though, I don't like getting close to people. You shouldn't feel bad at all, it's my fault I am the way I am. But I do really appreciate your concern. Most people are too absorbed in their own life, to see people like me.

Thank you though, Edward.

Bella x

I breathe a sigh of relief, but why I have no idea. before I can think more about her response. I hear a knock at my front door, I jump up to go let jasper in. Once in my room, he flops down onto my bed and stretches out.

"I do love your bed man, makes spooning you even better" He laughs while propping himself up onto his elbow.

"Yea, and that's why I don't let you stay anymore..." I say, while placing Call of Duty in the disk tray.

"So what's new with you? Seemed really distracted, when I spoke to you. Tanya given you herpes or some shit?" He is joking, but there is a serious undertone to his voice.

"No, I'm fine just boring shit, college is dragging like hell this year. I just want to hurry up and move out and start my life away from this place" I sigh, I've told him this countless times.

"Ok man, well once we get our place we can do our own thing. Nothing but music, take out, training and Xbox. Sound good?"

"Can't wait to live with you baby" I say while winking at him and shoving his feet out the way. I hand him his controller and start the game.

It all goes silent after that, apart from the odd "fuck" and "shit" thrown in. The only breaks we take are to order food and then to eat it. The easy thing about Jasper is our silence isn't awkward. We can sit and not talk, but enjoy each other's company. We would joke and say if we are still single at 40 we will marry one another. Though being single at 40 is a high possibility for me. I know Jasper is the kind to settle down, have kids and get married. I don't do relationships. I could never get close enough to someone to have one. I have one night stands at parties on occasions. I used to trust people and care too much for people who didn't care enough. But now I was too tired to try and make the effort. When I know it would never be returned. Jasper was the closest person to me, yet he didn't know hardly anything about me. And again, the thing that pissed me off the most. Was the fact I wanted to message Bella back, even though I had no reason to. I knew she chose to sit alone, she was ok that way. So why did I still care? Her boyfriend would take care of her...

Jasper left around midnight so I decided to get an early night. Since I hadn't slept the night before, I thought it was a good idea. I strip down and climb into my bed, jasper's right my bed rocks. I have no college tomorrow, so I make a promise to spend my day on music. Even though I'm exhausted, I can't seem to fall asleep. My thoughts are filled with brown hair and beautiful eyes. Then of course my body totally betrays me, and I get a hard on. Now I either have to get up and take a shower or sleep in pain. I decide to give up on sleep and take a shower. Once in the bathroom I turn the water on, and the room fills with steam. I take off my boxers and climb in to the heat, and turn my face against the hot spray. I let the hot water glide down my chest and over my back. Feeling the muscles in my body unclench feels amazing. I grab my dick in my hand and start to think of the same stuff that always gets me off. But this time, it doesn't seem to have its usual effect. A thought crosses my mind that shouldn't have been there in the first place. I start to picture Bella in my mind. Before I even know what's happening I cum violently and have to hold myself up to prevent falling over. Dizzy from my intense orgasm I clean myself off and get out of the shower. Drying off, I put my boxers back on and head to bed.

The next day I wake to the smell of pancakes and bacon. I look over and my alarm clock says it's 11am. Not as long as I'd hope to sleep, but it will do for now. I put on some sweat pants, and head downstairs. I kiss my mum on the head as I walk into the kitchen. Then grabbing a plate, I pile enough food on to feed a small village. Heading back up to my bedroom, I turn on my computer and shove a fork full of food into my mouth. Firing up ITunes I put my slow playlist on and relax into my chair. Going onto Facebook I have my usual message from Tanya. I don't even think she would have the ability to get me off anymore. I stare at the message from Bella and read it over and over. Why am I unable to stop thinking about this girl? She was just another girl, rite? I finish my breakfast and start my morning workout. See if I can try and release this feeling that's building up inside me. I spend the rest of my day writing songs and playing my guitar. The only breaks I take are to eat and piss, or play Xbox. Before I know it, it's 1am so I climb into bed. Tomorrow is another boring day at college. But for some reason I'm all keyed up and can't sleep. What is going on with me? Maybe I should go to the doctors, perhaps I'm going insane. Finally I fall asleep, only to dream about a girl with eyes I could get lost in.

I wake with a jolt, not because I was having a nightmare. But because my dreams freaked me out. Since when can I get lost in a girls eyes? And one I've spoken to once, and don't really know. Pull yourself together, you sound like a fucking girl. My alarm clock says it's 5:50am so I decide to give up my ten more minutes of sleep and get up. I really need to sort myself out, and stop thinking stuff like that. Maybe it's because I need to get laid, lack of sex. Leading me to fantasise about a girl I don't even know! Maybe I should message Tanya, so I can go back to normal.

I do my usual routine, eat, workout, shower and then get my bag ready to leave. And all too soon I'm at college. It's not that I am against learning, I'm just too smart for the shit they teach. So most of the time I am just bored out of my brain. But as I walked down the corridor I felt my stomach clench in anticipation but I have no idea why. As I sit in my usual space on the floor, I take a look around. I can't see Bella and I feel a pang of disappointment. Would of been cool to see if she looked any different today. Why because you messaged her? Take your ego down a notch, you douche. We head into class, and I sit down rite at the back.

About twenty minutes into the lecture, the door opens and Bella comes rushing in. She scans the room for a seat, and I realise the only empty seat in next to me. She walks along the classroom and sits down beside me, causing me to tense completely. She pulls out her note book, but instead of taking notes. She sits a doodles patterns and pictures. I take a glance at what she is drawing, Pokémon? As she draws the outline of a Pikachu, I can't help but smile. I used to be such a big Pokémon fan when I was a kid. I still am if I am totally honest, but not in a nerdy way. She rests her head on her hand and glances at the board occasionally. Should I say hi? She still looks really sad.

See, I told you your message wouldn't do anything! She is probably just missing her boyfriend. And like you, she doesn't want to be stuck in this hell hole. Maybe I should just strike up a conversation? She doesn't seem like other girls, so I say the first thing that pops into my head.

"What is your favourite Pokémon?" I whisper under my breath, while pointing to her sketches.

She seems surprised I would talk to her, but recovers quickly.

"I would probably have to say Pikachu, but I also like Charmander and Cubone" She smiles as she looks at her artwork.

"Mine are Charizard and Mew." I snicker, because Mew isn't exactly a manly Pokémon to like.

"It's really geeky I know, but reminds me of being a kid. When times were a lot less complex, and you could be yourself." She sighed, sounding like she missed those times.

"You're never too old to give in, to your inner child." I say while looking her directly in the eyes.

For some reason this subject feels extremely personal. So I do what I always do, I looked down to stop it from continuing. Though I still glance at her from the corner of my eye. She looks confused, though I have no idea why. The lesson ends before we can talk anymore. We file out the lecture hall and I go downstairs for a smoke. As I take a big pull and breath the smoke down to the bottom of my lungs. I try and figure out what it is, that has my head so muddled lately. Don't get me wrong, my head is a very fucked up place. And I have a lot of trouble sorting through what I think and feel. This causes me to over analyse situations, to the point I drive myself insane. But this time it's different, and I can't put my finger on why. Once I'm done, I throw my cigarette on the floor and head back up to the class room. I text Jasper on my way up, asking if he wants to go out this weekend. He is up for going out, needing to let off steam as well. I need to go out and get drunk, so I can't feel whatever this is. I feel like I need to do something, but I don't know what.

The rest of the day passes without incident and me and Bella don't talk again. Once I'm home I bust out my guitar and try and get my thoughts down on paper. When that doesn't really work, I look to the greats for inspiration. I listen to all my favourite artists; Ron Pope, Trading Yesterday, Safetysuit, Evanescence, Linkin Park, Parachute, Anberlin, Ed Sheeran, Jason Walker, Secondhand Serenade, Lifehouse and Snow Patrol. Music has always been a great release for me. Allowing me to feel less alone and like others know how I feel. Still feeling slightly frustrated I decide to work out and aim to make my six pack into an eight pack by the summer. I finish my coursework for the night then am left with a couple hours to kill. I head onto Facebook and look through my feed to see what's going on. My chat is open and I see Bella is online, should I message her? You may as well you looser, you can't stop thinking about her. I open up a chat window and start typing...

Edward: Hey

Bella: Hi

Edward: How are you?

Bella: I'm fine, just doing the paper for behaviour.

Edward: Behind on your work aye? Tsk Tsk...

Bella: Are you judging me? Mr I like cute pink Pokémon.

I can't help but smile at her playful response. This girl is funny, and geeky which is extremely cute to me.

Edward: I'll have you know, Mew is very powerful...And me judging? Never.

Bella: Yea, you keep telling yourself that. What are you up to anyways?

Edward: Listening to music and talking to you. Look I'm sorry if it seemed like I was butting in your business with that message. That wasn't my intention, I just wanted you to know... That if you ever want someone to vent to, I'm...yano...here.

Bella: You know you don't fool me right? Your 'I don't give a shit' act. Others may buy it, but I know you are a different person on the inside.

Edward: What makes you say that? I don't care, caring gets you hurt.

Woah, why did you tell her that? Now she is going know something is up. But I can't bring myself to care. Part of me is telling me to run, before I slip up and tell her something I shouldn't. Though another part of me, is saying I can trust her.

Bella: No one at that college even notices I'm there. Yet you care enough to message me to try make things better for me? When I have done nothing to earn your sweet actions. Your act doesn't fool me Edward.

Edward: What if I'm not the hero? What if I'm the bad guy?

Bella: You're not, I can see what you're trying to put off. But I know it's just to keep people away from you, it's a mask. I won't push you to tell me why you do it. Why would you trust me? You don't know me. But I am extending the same invitation you gave me. If you need to vent at any point, I'm here.

Edward: Thank you, I appreciate your offer. Look I need to go to sleep, but maybe we could talk over the weekend? You know, if you want to.

Bella: I'd like that, goodnight Edward sweet dreams.

Edward: Night Bella.

I close Facebook and lean back in my chair. What just happened? Are we friends? Still confused and quit honestly a little scared I head off to bed. Tomorrow is another day, another challenge.

Hello my lovely readers! what do you think of the second chapter? I know it's rather boring at this point. But I have some great idea's for this story, and I am hoping you're as excited to read and I am to write. Please leave me reviews, they are better than cute pink Pokémon! Show me the love. x