Okay guys. I forgot to mention this story is set just after breaking dawn happens. Jacob is confused whether he should embrace the imprinting affects or if he should stay 'loyal' to Bella. This subject goes a bit more into um a touchy subject of self-harm and stuff so it's just a warning encase it might trigger. Thanks for reading! :) x

Jacobs POV

It's been at least a week since I had imprinted on Ari. Quill and Embry and the rest of the pack have been hanging out with her and getting to know her the whole week. Apparently she is amazing but very mysterious. I am meeting her again today. I am almost glad; the aching I have had to see her is insane. I just want to be next to her. But what will Bella think? Will she be mad?
"Hey dad, I'm going out, I will bring back dinner," I called out to my dad.
"Wait son, I know you're going to see Ari. For your own sake, please be nice to her, and don't talk about Bella," He was generally concerned for me. I placed my hand on his shoulder and nodded.

I made it to la Push, surprised that I wasn't the last one there, only Seth and Embry were there, and Ari. She is so beautiful, and hot! I hadn't realized until know. She was wearing a Rolling Stones t-shirt, a black skirt that sat around her waist, stockings with fancy patterns on them and studded biker boots. "Hey Ari, I'm Jacob."
"It's nice to meet you when we are beating each other up," She shook my hand and laughed a little. My whole hand tingled.
"Do you want to go for a walk until the boys get here?" Ari suggested out load. Seth and Embry passed, letting me spend time with her alone. Good wing-men.
"Do you like cars Ari?" I asked stupidly. My voice came out so goofy.
"I prefer old cars, like mustangs, but my favourite is my baby, a 68 Chevy Impala," My jaw dropped. Could she be any hotter.
"My baby is a rabit," Ari grinned when I told her.
"Marry me?" We both laughed, and that when it hit me, I haven't even thought about Bella. Maybe I should embrace the imprinting thing.
"I assume you already know I imprinted on you," I blurted out awkwardly.
"Yep."
"Wait, what?"
"As soon as I felt it, I knew it had happened, Jacob,"
"Do you want to be happy Ari, happy with me?" I lowered my head, a little embarrassed. My heart was racing, just thinking about being with her made me feel powerful love for her. I haven't felt this way about Bella, I loved her, but not like this.
"Jacob, you don't know anything about me really. I am a monster, you deserve better."
"I am a monster too,"
"Jacob, I was called Queen of The Hunters because I killed supernatural people, with absolutely no remorse. I felt nothing when I killed monsters. I did it for so long I turned into one," Her face never changed from blank. No emotion came or left.
"All the guys say you are amazing, and I do to. You were a monster, but right now, you aren't," I smiled at her. Her dark purple eyes started going glassy and I rapped my arm around her should and kept walking. After a while of walking down the beach, I smelt a vampire, and I knew Ari picked up on it too. It smelt like Bella.

"Jacob! Hey!" Out of nowhere Bella comes running at me and jump-hugs me. Ari was shifting awkwardly. I looked at Bella, and felt nothing. Only love as a friend.
"Hey Bella, this is Ari. My imprint," I introduced Ari, with proud smile on my face. I didn't mean to smile, it just happened. Bella looked a little hurt, I couldn't understand why.
"Hi, I'm that chick who appeared in your house with my injured brother and a friend," Ari shook Bella's hand.
"Are you and Jacob together," I knew Bella would ask that question so I quickly pulled Ari closer next to me and wrapped my arm around her waist, without even properly thinking about it.

Ari's POV

Jacob was beaming when he said we were together. I went along with it. It would be nice to 'be' with someone. I never have, I have only been taken advantage of by the filthy Triad Guards. Bella smiled half-heartedly and said good bye to us. What's her problem?
"You didn't disagree," Jacob looked down at me. I remained silent and smiled sheepishly and felt his arm tighten around my waist as we started heading back to the other guys to play soccer. But the pack was nowhere to be seen and all I could smell was the compost smell of Spriggons. "I can hear them in the forest," Jacob whispered to me.
"Fighting a Spriggon."
"What the fuck is a Spriggon Ari?"
"A matron of the forest, they only attack people when there is someone near their forest that knows they exist, so they are attack because of my presence or anyone else who knows about them." Without a warning, I took off in the direction of the Spriggons scent. I could sense Jacob running behind me, but I am too fast for him to catch up. I came to a clearing where there were three wolves down on the ground, Jacob phased, probably to talk to them. The Spriggon was in the middle of the clearing, fighting a huge black wolf, assumedly Sam. This Spriggon was one ugly bitch. They are very elf like with the pointed ears and their narrow facial structure, but this one's face was scared and its hair was patchy and short and it was thinner than me! And I weigh 96 pounds. I lunged forward at it, while it was distracted and tackled it to the ground and pounded its face with hard elbow strikes and punches. The Spriggon used its stretchy limbs to stretch is neck up and head but me off it. The creature turned back to the black wolf, who was now accompanied by a light grey wolf and a rusty brown wolf. I looked around for any weapon, knowing I have the strength to turn anything into a weapon; I picked up a solid thin-ish branch about 3 feet long and charged at the Spriggon. Once behind the beast I swung the branch so hard into the back of its head it fell to the ground, not dead yet. Standing above it, with the presence of a few wolves I plunged the branch straight into the creatures' chest, obviously hitting the heart because it shrivelled up and the skin slowly flaked off until it was just a skeleton. I turned and looked at the wolves staring at me, then I turned to the rusty coloured one which I knew was Jacob and whispered to him, "See Jacob, I told you I was Queen of the Hunters," With that I picked up the bones and ran off, heading home. I am ashamed.

"Mace, we got some bones to burn," I got inside and dumped the bones in a garbage bag.
"All good I'll set up a fire pit out back," I nodded at Mace and he went outside to set up. There was a load of knocks on the door. I tried to ignore them until Jacob started calling me name, then I had to open it. All the guys pushed through the door, carrying Seth, convulsing and froth coming out of his mouth.
"Put him on the couch! GABE! Get Mace and bring go get some ingredients for the antidote, which includes a tooth from the Spriggon!" I yelled out as fast as I could. I heard Gabe scuffling around and Mace rushing everywhere. I put my hand on Seth's cheek as he started to wake up.
"He-y Ar-i, am I g-o-in to die," His words were broken and raspy. Truth is I didn't know, so I held his hand and squeezed it tight.
"Is he going to be okay?" Leah asked quietly.
"We can only try our best, I can't guarantee anything Leah," I lowered my head, but I didn't have time to feel pathetic because the next thing I realize is that I'm pinned against the wall, by Leah. I didn't fight, because I knew what she was feeling.
"Is he going to be okay? I barely trust you as it is!" Leah spat in my face. Mace came back with the tooth and now we were waiting on Gabe. Leah's hands were holding my wrists against the wall, I could feel some scabs break open.

*Flash Back*

Blood everywhere. The witches heart in my hands. I sat in the corner of my cell and sobbed desperately. Mom would hate me. I am so awful, but if I hadn't, the witch would've killed Gabe. Was I just meant to sit there and let him die? I had hidden the blade of a scalpel in my hair from the witches cave. Gabe had yelled at me for killing that witch in gold blood. He hates me. I am only 14 for god sake! I needed my brother not one that hates me!
"You are not my sister anymore. You are soulless. You are a monster," Gabe's words circled in my head all day, until it was time for lights out. I couldn't stop sobbing, I am a horrible monster. I need to be punished. I pulled out the little blade from my hair and just stared at it. I need to feel human again. I was angry, angry at myself. I swiped the blade across my wrist, again and again and again until my whole arm was covered in blood. But it was my own, so I fell asleep on the floor in the corner of my cell wishing I wouldn't wake up.

*End of Flash Back*

I got lost in my thoughts for a while obviously, because I snapped back to reality just as Gabe got home. He waved the bag of different herbs and plants and stuff around so Masons would come over to him and get it. The anti-dote should be ready soon. I ran upstairs and laid down on my bed, made sure nobody was around, and I started crying. I hardly ever cry because I need Gabe to keep thinking I am a monster because as much as he hates it, he knows I am the strongest, and I need to be able to protect them and Gabe wouldn't believe me even if I showed him my scars.
"Ari?" Jacob's voice came from behind my door.
"I just need sometime-"Before I could finish my sentence, Jacob barged into my room and laid down beside me pulled my close to him and wrapped his arms around me.
"I could tell you were crying. You can talk to me. I will always be here for you okay?" Jacob whispered into my ear. Normally I would have gotten up and walked out of the room, but I think all the pressure of running away and everything in my past built up too much. Instead I started crying again, but Jacob didn't mind, he just played with my hair and laid with me until I fell asleep.

Jacobs POV

I stayed with Ari until she fell asleep. When I was gently getting away from her, I saw blood on the inside of her sweater sleeve. I carefully pushed it up a little and I saw a LOT of scars and cuts, all horizontal. What the fuck? I rolled up her sleeve entirely and all these cuts went up to her shoulders. I rolled up the other sleeve to check the other arm and it was the same. She is a cutter? I shook her shoulders until she woke up. She took one look at my panicked face and her exposed arms and she quickly rolled her sleeves down and just stared at me.
"You're a cutter?" I blurted out insensitively.
"Don't fucking label me. You don't know anything about pain," She whisper-yelled at me.
"I am so sorry, I am just worried about you," I went to hug her but she slapped my hands away.
"You can't tell anyone, not even Gabe or Mason. Got it? Don't even think about I when you're phased. Please," Her voice was a mere whisper.
"It's hard to keep it a secret when I am phased but I will do my best and I won't tell anyone. Promise," This time she let me hug her.

It had been at least 6 hours since we brought Seth here and he still hasn't woken up, even after being injected with the antidote.
"Ari I need to go get another load of ingredients with Mace, she you administer the second dose of the antidote!" Gabe yelled from down stairs.
"Yep!" Ari put hand sanitizer on her hands on the way down the stairs. Everything was a bit calmer now, we could hear Seth's heart beat steadying and his mouth wasn't frothing anymore. Ari got a clean syringe and filled it with the slightly green liquid. She bent down beside Seth, "Seth, if you can hear me, you are going to feel a little pin prick in each of your arms okay, it will make you feel better." She tied a piece of fabric quite tight around his arm to try and find a vein. I winced as the needle went into his arm and the fluid was pushed into his vein. I hate needles.
"If its okay with you guys, I am going give him some morphine to help with the pain. I have had Spriggon venom poisoning and it is beyond painful," All of the guys nodded, except for Leah.
"How do I know you are not making him worse," She snapped at Ari.
"If I wanted to hurt him, he would either be dead, or you wouldn't know where he is or what I was doing to him," There was no malice in Ari's voice; it was as if she was telling facts. Which was kind of creepy? Leah just nodded and stayed quiet while Ari gave Seth some morphine.

**A FEW DAYS LATER AND ARI's POV**

It's been three days and Seth is only just starting to wake up. I have been very careful when I have had to see Jacob, other than that I try to avoid him. I was lying on my back on a rug in the attic just staring at the ceiling, when Jacob came up, holding a book in his hand. My heart rate picked up when I realized it was my Diary.
"Your such a Dick!" I shoved him hard in the shoulders.
"I just wanted to know how to help you and I saw this lying open on your bed. I read the page it was open on and that is it, I swear," Jacob chucked the book on the ground and lifted his hands in the air in that 'surrendered' kind of way.
"27th of June, 2007." I froze. I know that date.

*Flash Back*

We had morning meetings as usual but the captain pulled my asides and talked to me and asked me to follow him into this room with a bathtub full of blood.
"We kept your family's bodies frozen until it came time when you were ready to go through initiation to the Triads Council- Section 4. We pulled their bodies out of storage, heated them up and drained their blood. This is your initiation, if you don't do it we will kill your brother," The Captain smiled, that creepy evil guy smile. Shit, no, not Section 4. I am going to be training to be the Leader of the Assassination missions. I slowly made my way of to the tub, being ever so careful not to cry. Just before I was about to get in, the Captain made me strip off or he would kill Gabe. I slowly hopped in the bath tub, but made the mistake of crying.
"Are they tears I see?" The Captain roared as he marched over to the bath tub. He grabbed my shoulders and pushed me under the blood, holding me down until I went limp. I remember waking up, on the floor of the same room and the Captain reviving me. I will always remember the words he said when I woke up, spluttering and coughing and gasping for air, "I saw four tears, you only were punished for one."
I kicked and screamed and tried to fight him as he picked me up and submerged me in my family' blood for a second time. All I thought of was keeping my brother safe.

*End of Flash Back*

"Earth to Ari. Seth is awake and we are taking him home, Sam just told me. Are you okay," Jacob wasn't the one standing in front of me anymore, it was Gabe and he was gently resting his hands on my shoulders.
"I know you don't love me so quit pretending! I am just a monster that has done so much to keep you alive!" I screamed at him, picking my diary off the floor and ripping out the 'initiation' page and I threw it at him and jumped out the attic window, landing on my feet didn't even hurt. Then I just ran. I needed to get away from everything, away from him. I can't him thinking I'm so bad, when I have done everything for him.

Gabe's POV

It was like a twisted horror movie. She did it for me, and I repaid her by disowning her? Dropping to my knees, I couldn't think anymore, I couldn't move.
"Gabe? You okay?" Mason shook my shoulders a little.
"Did you know about this?" I showed him the piece of paper. He didn't speak, he just lowered his head. He knew.
"Why didn't you tell me!" I shouted and pinned him against the wall by his throat.
"She knows you will never think about her like she used to be. She knows you won't accept her as close family, so she didn't think it would change anything, while you are living in denial," Mason choked out, prying my hand from his throat. He is right. I am in denial, and I don't know if I can forget the things she has done. But what about the things I have done?
"Do you remember that snag and tag mission we did? Capturing the 14 year old elf princess and taking her back to the Tower. You can't forget the things you were made to do to the girl. You can't deny it!" Mason yelled back at me. I have never heard him yell.
"If there is something you have to say Mason. Say it!"
"You treat her like shit! And now that we are cooped up in separate cells, things are different. We can't be cold and hostile to each other anymore. This is life, we have a chance to live as a family and you push her away!" Mason shoved me and I went flying through the air and landed hard on the floor across the other side of the room.

I'm not used to it, being free. We spent nine and a half years in that god forsaken tower! My life, as much I hate to admit it, was full of me killing innocents as well. I just nodded at Mason, and he left me in the attic, with my whole minds flipping out of control.