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So sorry for the long long long wait. Here are the final two chapters of "Why Him?"

Song lyrics are in Italics and bolded from the song "Every Storm (Runs out of Rain) by Gary Allan.

Chapter Title: Move On? You Must Be Nuts!

Kid Flash's (Wally's) POV

"Every storm runs, runs out of rain. Just like every dark night turns into day. Every heartache will fade away. Just like every storms runs, runs out of rain."

Those lyrics keep on echoing through my head. It's been months since his death, Robin's death that is. It still hurts like crazy and I don't think this pain will ever fade. I mean sure the pain has eased, and been withering away slightly every week that has passed. Artemis and I talked to each other about our feelings, finally. We went on a couple dates, but we just sat there in silence for the most part. Whenever we tried to talk about something we ended up on the topic of Robin, school, the team. After three dates of us going home questioning everything we broke up.

We've tried to talk as a team, but it just makes us miss Robin more. There is this emptiness surrounding us, like we're missing something, or someone, which of course we are I guess. We all knew what could happen, call us naïve but I don't think any of us truly believed that something of that magnitude could ever happen to us. In our minds we were invincible, untouchable, well until Rob's death that is.

Looking back now, we were careless. That's what cost Robin his life, our carelessness. How is that fair? We act like foolish, moronic, idiotic, reckless, rash, hotheaded, impulsive children, but we live and he dies! He's dead instead of us because of his courage, to take that bullet. His bravery that allowed him to die for me! For some goof of boy, who wishes that…who wishes that his best friend had lived. That his brother, his baby brother had lived and not died for me, had not laid down his life for this cause.

All those adults tell me that it will get better, that Robin wouldn't want this for me. Do they not know that Robin doesn't want anything because he's dead? He's in the ground 6' deep, and all I hear is it will get better. It sickens me every time I hear that because well how can it? How can I let go and move on from this loss? How can any of us? How can they move on? I mean even Batman, practically Robin's father has moved on, at least it appears he has. He goes on missions still, and is still terrifying, if not more terrifying then before. Alfred seems different in a way but he's practically the same, same as Batman. The media moved on ages ago, and all the citizens. For the first few days, everything anybody ever talked about surrounded Robin or Dick Grayson, though no one knew he was one in the same. Now maybe once a couple weeks I hear a quiet whisper. It's almost like to them, he never existed. Like he never really mattered to them. He mattered to us though, his team. We still grieve, still mourn his loss, or well our loss really.

So I guess, what I'm getting at is, how am I supposed to move on, how am I supposed to forget what he did for me? What he sacrificed, how do I let that go? How do I let him go? Why should I even let him go? I deserve this agony that I feel every day. He should've lived! He should've lived! He should have lived!

How do I embrace something that never should have happened? How do I? I can't move on, how could I? He died to save me. So how can anyone expect me to move on?

AN

Once again I am terribly sorry for the extended wait.