A/N: OH MY GOD. I am so sorry! The last time I updated was over a month ago!

Just when I was finishing this chapter my laptop broke so I had to fix it and D: I'm sorry!

But on the good side I have spent time thinking how to continue this story because I wasn't quite sure how to continue it or end it… but now I sort of already know the plot of the following chapters…

Again, thank you all guys for the reviews, favourites and follows! I really appreciate them! And they did give me ideas on how to continue this so MASSIVE THANK YOU :D

Well, without much more to say, here is Chapter 5 :)

Chapter 5 – "Even the sun sets in Paradise":

After deciding that neither really felt like finishing off their coffees, Kurt pulled out his wallet – "No, hey I got it" – to pay for their orders, and they went outside, where it was no longer raining.

It was well past midnight – definitively closer to dawn by now. They started walking and fell into a comfortable silence, except for the sound of their feet against the cold, wet pavement. Kurt had decided that it was probably best for Blaine to not remember more than he already had about what he had been through, and maybe walking would clear his mind.

Blaine was the first to break the silence this time "I feel we only talked about me in there" Blaine chuckled a little "what about you?" Of course he kind of regretted the question immediately, yet at the same time he didn't. He didn't want to know about Kurt getting together with Sebastian, but he also wanted – needed – to.

"What about me?" Kurt asked to avoid the question, if only for a few more seconds. What could he say to Blaine? That yes, he had moved on, and that yes, it had been with Sebastian? No… he couldn't.

"How have you been after all these years?" Blaine couldn't bring himself to ask the question he really wanted to ask. How did he end up with Sebastian? Didn't he (they) hate him? Does he love him? Does he no longer love you? His mind tortured him. Instead, he would find his way to it with other questions.

After taking a deep breath, Kurt answered, "It's been… hard, to be honest. The first few years were really tough, you know? I couldn't quite come to terms with myself that you were gone. I- I used to wake up and look over at your side and see the empty space, but the first thing that came to mind – if only for a few seconds – was that maybe you'd waken up earlier…" His eyes stung with tears, but he takes a shuddering breath as to not letting them fall and continues. "Even after realizing that you haven't woken up before me… a lot of times I would go downstairs and prepare breakfast for two without noticing" He let out a weak chuckle.

He lifted his gaze from the floor he had been staring at and looked at Blaine's eyes, which were, like his, glistering. "I'm sorry" He continued, quickly bringing his sleeves to his closed eyes to stop the tears from falling against his consent. "You don't want to know that, of course… you want to know about Sebastian." It wasn't a question; still he looked over at Blaine again, to see him nod slightly in response.

"Sebastian… well…" Kurt sighted, trying to come to terms to where he could start, and took a big breath again to continue, "like I said, it was… hard living without you…" The tears are still threatening to fall but he won't let them. Not yet. "You were gone for two years when I got the letter, and after that, I spent a year just… just off and distant… and well… one day when I get enough strength to drag myself out of bed to go to the grocery shop and I came across Sebastian so I said hello… he asked about you and having to say it out loud – that you were… gone-" He picks the last word carefully. "Somehow, after all those years, it made it… real."

"Kurt-" Blaine begins, trying to make Kurt stop talking as he feels the pain on his tone. But Kurt shakes his head; he needs to get everything out, or he will never be able to do so otherwise.

"After that day, I… I don't know, Blaine" He sighted deeply. The tears didn't stop their threat of falling, but Kurt would still not let them fall. They start walking again, without either of them saying to do so; they move with each other, as if having the same thoughts. "I uhm…" He started again, but words were hard to find at the moment. He tried again. "I- I know what you want to know, what you're thinking: why him? After everything that has happened, why him?" He was right, as if he was reading Blaine's mind; that was exactly what he was wondering from the beginning. Why him? "To be honest, I don't think I can quite understand why myself either… I guess Sebastian… he made me feel something I thought I would never be able to feel again after you left, Blaine… He just made me feel again, even after I lost all hope… He was there for me and I guess we learnt to care for each other in a way."

Blaine didn't miss the smile that crept upon Kurt's face as he said the last line. That smile he knew too well; a smile that used to belong to him, but not anymore. Blaine nodded, taking in the information that had just been shared. Again, stopped walking, but Kurt took no notice of it. Blaine took a deep breath and asked the question he was probably dreading the most, "Do you love him?"

Blaine's voice was distant and barely audible. Even if he had talked silently, it was too hushed. Kurt stopped and turned around to realize it was because Blaine had stopped advancing a couple of steps back. When Blaine didn't show any sign of moving forward, Kurt took the decision of doing so. When he was closer, he confessed, "I do. I do love him. I- I never stopped loving you, Blaine, you know that… but yes, I love him."

The response somehow comforted and broke him apart all the same. It killed him to know that the love of his life had left him, yes. But part of Blaine was also glad to know that Kurt had moved on; that he was able to go on with his life and start all over again. That he was able to find happiness despite everything that had happened.

Something hit him right then, just as it had done when he stood in front of Kurt's –and Sebastian's – house, and saw the family walk out the door: Kurt was smiling, back then. He was even smiling at the mention of his and Sebastian's relationship. Kurt is happy now, Blaine… you can't break him – not again. His mind tortured him even further.

With realization settled and tears in his eyes, Blaine stutters, "I- God- I- I shouldn't have come here in the first place… I should have known you would have moved on… I- I'm sorry, Kurt. I really shouldn't have come here…" He takes a step backwards, meaning to leave – again, he thinks – but Kurt is quick to step forwards and grab his hand in order not to let him, and Blaine is too weak to fight against him.

"Please don't leave… and don't say that, Blaine…" Kurt pleaded. "I would have waited for you… I- I did… but then the letter came and I just- I- I'm so sorry-". The tears were still not leaving his eyes, but Kurt was still gasping a little for air as he talked. "I'm sorry" He whispers finally.

As Kurt apologises weakly, Blaine steps forward and wraps him in a hug. Quite the same as the one they shared before, only now Blaine wraps his arms around Kurt's waist, and Kurt quickly puts his arms around the shorter boy's neck. Blaine regrets it immediately, obviously. Kurt being so close to him makes him feel as if nothing changed, as if they are back seven years in time and they get to be together again. Kurt's body was shaking, but it didn't feel like he was crying. With tears falling from his eyes at the proximity between each other, Blaine soothed the boy, "Shh… It's okay, you don't have to say you're sorry, Kurt… I should be the one apologising."

Kurt shook his head no and he let a big breath out. After years of being away from each other, they were finally together again. Maybe not the way he had thought it would be, but nevertheless together again. Even if they hugged before that night, both of them still couldn't let the fact of being this close to each other again go. Neither one of them let go and simply stood there in the dark, holding each other.

Soon, Kurt's body stopped shaking, and Blaine managed to stop crying. The two of them pulled apart, but didn't let go of each other. Blaine kept his hand on Kurt's back, and Kurt kept his arms hooked around Blaine's neck. Kurt's eyes were misty with unshed tears, and on Blaine's face, the tracks his tears left were visible despite the darkness of the night. They stared at each other's eyes. Kurt slowly reached with his hand and wiped away at the last tears that had fallen, but not putting any more distance between the two of them, and lets his hand linger on Blaine's cheek, not wanting to let go. He smiled down at the boy slightly.

It had been so long since Kurt had the chance of being this close to Blaine that it literally hurt him right now. He had spent years of agony in simple need of just being able to touch the boy again. It seemed a bit unreal, even; to think that just hours ago he hadn't known about Blaine being back, and now he was there, holding him. Suddenly, they are back at McKinley's auditorium just after the performance of West Side story, apologising to each other, telling how much they love each other. The reminder his mind sets upon itself is hurtful for Kurt. He was just so close to him that if he leaned in a few inches, Kurt would be able to kiss those lips again after all those years. It would be so easy to just edge only a little closer and press their lips together.

Blaine clearing his throat brings Kurt back to reality. They don't let go, but Kurt does lean back and looks a little embarrassed at the memory flashing through his mind. "So uhm… It's a little late – or early, actually… you- uhm you should probably get back home" Blaine speaks up, voice raspy and quite awkwardly.

Kurt hadn't really thought about it, really. He had to go back home; to Sebastian, to the kids. "Yeah, I- I should" He said half-heartily, but not breaking his gaze with Blaine's. He unhooks his arms from around Blaine's neck and as if expected, Blaine does the same. Suddenly somewhat awkward, they take a step back and stay distant from each other.

A block away, there's a big avenue, where a few cars are still passing by, despite the hour. There, they will surely be able to get a taxi to take them back home. So, they begin walking towards it again, in a deep silence neither knows how to break.

"Do you- do you have a place to stay? I mean, it wouldn't be trouble for you to stay at my place… if- if you want" Kurt suggests. He does mean it, and he does want to know if Blaine has somewhere to stay, but he also asks in order to break the silence.

"Yeah… yeah, I have a place to stay, don't worry…" He replies. It's a lie, obviously. He doesn't have a place to go, but he feels that if he stays at Kurt and Sebastian's place tonight, it will be just too uncomfortable for both of them. Sebastian still doesn't know what happened that afternoon, he supposes, and Blaine doesn't think he would be too happy to find out his husband brought home his ex who had been gone for seven years, and is out-of-thin-air back… no, he couldn't stay with Kurt tonight.

"Oh, okay…" Kurt is disappointed yet relieved to hear that because it means he would have to say goodbye to Blaine tonight, but he doesn't know how he could throw such big news at Sebastian if Blaine would have accepted the offer.

The rest of the walk to the avenue is spent in silence. When they reach it, is only a matter of minutes (luckily) before a cab passes and they stop it. Kurt forces Blaine to take this one, and he would take the next one.

Just as Blaine is about to get in the car, Kurt stops him and Blaine turns back to look at him with hopeful eyes, not wanting to say goodbye to Kurt just yet. He wants to stay with him forever, like they planned… "Uhm… do you have a- a number? I can call you to? So we can meet again…" He asks, trying to extend the conversation as long as he can, expectant to the chance that they can meet again.

"No, I don't actually, but give me yours and I'll call you when I get the chance?" the other boy responds, taking a pen out of the bag's pocket and handing it to Kurt. "Uhm…" he mutters as he realises he doesn't have a paper for him to write on.

Kurt chuckles and takes Blaine hand, both of their hearts seeming to skip a beat at the action. "Here", he says as he scribbles down his number on Blaine's palm.

"Great, I- I'll give you a call tomorrow… or later today, I guess?" Blaine asks with a shy smile.

"Yeah, that's fine" Kurt smiles. "Bye, Blaine" He adds and leans in to give the boy a kiss on the cheek. He doesn't know if it's appropriate or not, but he doesn't really care.

"Bye" Blaine talks back, not quite remembering the word that leaves his mouth, very astonished by the kiss. Somehow he gets into the cab and orders the driver to take him to the closest hotel in town. Before he knows it he's paying the driver and entering a lobby, being given a key, and taken to a room. Inside, he doesn't recall taking a shower or changing, just flopping on his bed and falling immediately asleep.

-O-

As Blaine gets in the taxi and the car drives away, a feeling of nostalgia and sadness washes over Kurt as he watches Blaine go away. The boy whispers a half-acknowledged "Bye, Blaine" into the air before stopping another cab that passes by no more than three minutes later, for his fortune. On the way back, his mind is still trying to recover from all that has happened in the last few hours; still trying to realize that Blaine is back.

He arrives at his house and gets out of the car after paying the driver. His steps feel heavy to carry as he walks to the entrance. Thankfully he carried his key with him, and unlocks the door to step into his house. Kurt closes the wooden door, leans against it. His knees feel weak, forcing him to slide down the door, sitting on the cold floor.

Now that he is finally alone, away from Blaine he lets himself completely feel. He lets himself cry, allowing the tears he had been saving all afternoon to flow freely.

A/N: OH. MY. GOD. IT IS FINALLY FINISHED. I CANNOT EVEN.

SIGH.

Ok, well, it is finally done! So yay! It took long enough, didn't it?

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Next chapter will hopefully take me less time as I already have planned out what is going to happen… (Spoilers alert: Kurtbastian moment!)

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