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And well… here it is, Chapter 6! Enjoy!

CHAPTER 6 - "Hold on, on to me":

"Dada, where did daddy run off to?" Anna asked sweetly, her voice tinted with the slur of a four year old. She was under her comforter and bed sheets, and Sebastian was sitting by her side making sure she was well tugged in before she went to sleep.

"He-" Sebastian started, but stopped as he realized he had no idea where Kurt might actually be right now. It had been hours since he left and now, with the sun set, Anna was ready to go to sleep. "I don't know sweetie, but I promise I will let you know when he shows up, ok?" He promises to his daughter.

"What if he doesn't come home, dada?" The little girl questions, with exaggerate fear in her eyes – of course for a four year old it isn't and exaggeration at all.

Sebastian would be lying if he said he wasn't surprised at the question. Because what happens if he doesn't come home? Sebastian had no idea where Kurt had run off to, or why for that matter. He didn't know if something bad had happened to him, or if it hadn't. He knew absolutely nothing… and it was maddening not knowing. Still, he tried to appear calm for his daughter and son, trying to transmit the good energy to them, even if inside the concern was killing him. He smiled down at Ana and said, "He will come back home, honey, don't worry about it". He leaned down and kissed her forehead before wishing her good night.

"Good night dada" The little girl replied, already sleepy, and she closed her eyes.

Sebastian turned off the light on the girl's room and headed back downstairs to the kitchen. He was really just trying to waste time until Kurt came back home. If he comes back his mind reminded him.

As he passed by the living room, he noticed the TV was on and his son was sitting on the couch watching a show. Sebastian glanced at the clock. It read 10:50pm. "Buddy, in ten minutes I expect you to be in bed, ok?" He informed at the direction of the couch.

"Okay dad!" The boy called back.

Sebastian smiled a little to himself remembering how he was very much alike to his son when he was ten years old. He walked to the kitchen and boiled some water. While he waited, he began washing the dishes that had accumulated on the sink. Just as he finished putting all the dishes away, the kettle whistled, announcing the water had boiled. Sebastian poured some of the hot water in a cup and placed a tea bag inside. Again, trying to keep himself busy, while the tea bag tainted the water a darker colour, Sebastian proceeded to clean the counter tops. When the man realized he could no longer do anything else that would distract him in the kitchen, he took his cup of tea and walked back into the house after adding sugar to his drink and throwing the used tea bag away.

By now the clock read 11:07pm. The TV was still on and Sebastian rolled his eyes as he approached the couch. "Hey, what did I say? C'mon, off to bed!" He told his son, with fake strictness on his voice.

"Sorry" The boy mumbled, his voice raspy, and he stood up quickly, meaning to run to his room.

"Hey, hey hold on a second" Sebastian stopped him at the tone of his voice. When the kid stopped, Sebastian was able to see his eyes shining, and the tracks of tears on his cheeks. "Hey, what's wrong, buddy?" He asked with his voice tainted with worry. When he didn't answer, Sebastian continued, "Matt, c'mon, tell me what's wrong…" He led them both back to the couch and sat, opposite side from his son.

Matthew sniffed and spoke quietly, "I- I heard you and Annie talking in her room…" The blond boy looked up at his dad, brown eyes filled with worry and fear. "What if what Annie said is true dad? I mean I- I know you told Annie he would but you were quiet for a while before answering… what if daddy doesn't come back home?" the boy stared at his dad when he finished, then lowered his head – now looking at his lap where he played with his finger with uncertainty - waiting for an answer.

Sebastian stared back at his son, not believing the words that left his mouth. Their kids shouldn't be worrying about this so much! They were only four and nine years old, for Christ sake! "Matthew, listen to me." Sebastian told decided, but the boy didn't lift his gaze from his lap, so he added, "Hey, look at me". Only when Matthew looked at his dad – eyes still filled with tears – he decided to continue. "Matt, your dad will be here, okay? I want neither you nor Annie to worry about it, yes?" He asked, not breaking eye contact with his son.

Matthew nodded slightly before sniffling one last time and letting out an "okay", standing up from the couch as his dad did the same, turning off the TV.

"C'mon, you wanna watch a movie in my room?" Sebastian asked with a small smile on his face as both walked to their bedrooms.

"But, it's past eleven…" Matthew commented, a frown on his face, suspicious on the offer.

Sebastian pretended to give that a thought before he answered: "Well… how about this? Since it's Friday, you can stay up later…" The huge smile on his son's face made it too hard for Sebastian not to hold one smile of his own, but he resisted in order to keep up the play trying to look serious. "But-" Sebastian interrupted, in make believe that the imposition he was putting would be hard, and Matthew's smile fell a little as he listened careful to the condition. "- you don't say a word to your dad when he gets here, he would kill both of us, and you know it…" The smile was back to both of their faces now. "Or to Annie, for that matter… you know your sister tells everything at her age" Sebastian added, and they both laughed as they made their way to the master bedroom.

"Which movie do you want-"

"The Avengers!" Matthew interrupts Sebastian before he can even finish the sentence.

Sebastian chuckles. "Ok, ok. Go wash up and change while I set up the movie." He orders the boy. The order is not even completely out of his moth before the boy is running out of the room, extremely excited to watch the movie. Sebastian laughs a little at the sight and goes to set the movie on his DVD. He changes into his pyjamas and goes to lie in bed. As he does so, he glances at a photo set on his bedside table: One of Him, Kurt, a younger Matthew, and a new-born Annie held by both men. It was taken in the hospital only hours after she was born.

Sebastian smiled at the photo and the memory before his thoughts were interrupted by Matthew jumping on his bed, settling under the sheets.

Sebastian pressed play to the movie, and not fifteen minutes passed before Matthew fell asleep. Carefully, Sebastian lifted the boy and took him to his own bed, making sure he was tugged in before leaving back to his own room and turning off the TV.

Sebastian lay down in bed and looking at the photo on his bedside table before is the last thing he remembers before falling into a deep sleep.

-O-

Kurt decided he had done enough crying – and too loud for that matter; he could wake someone up. He really hoped he didn't, though. He forces himself up from the cold, white tiles and decides something hot in his stomach will probably do him good right now. So, he walks to the kitchen. In the way, he takes big, deep breaths, calming himself, and dries his tears with his sleeves.

Upon entering the kitchen Kurt puts water to boil to prepare tea. He would normally drink coffee right now, but he figured he needs some sleep, and coffee would not help him with the matter.

To be honest, he can't stop thinking about that afternoon. He really can't. But he needs to try and put it behind him… at least at home; at least for Sebastian and the kids.

He is determined to not let anyone see him this way, but he still can't seem to stop thinking of that afternoon and how damn close he had been to Blaine; to kiss Blaine.

The water begun to boil and the whistle of the kettle startled Kurt and brought him back to reality. He hurried to turn off the stove - in order to not let it whistle for too long and wake someone - up and served himself a cup of tea, still not being able to keep Blaine and that afternoon quite out of his head.

He was too focused on preparing the hot beverage and he did not hear the rustle a mattress does when someone sits up on bed, upstairs; or the bed sheets being tossed away and the light switch being turned on. Nor did he take notice of the sound of steps coming down the stairs, towards the kitchen.

-O-

The rustle of metal clanking against each other interrupts his unconsciousness, but not enough to completely wake Sebastian up. He is still at that point in his sleep where he is not awake, but neither is he completely asleep either.

A faint whistle is heard from downstairs – which is surely muffled by the walls and furniture between the two floors. The noise wakes up Sebastian this time and he, confused, looks at the clock, which flashes in bright neon blue: 3:32AM. Sebastian is by now used to Kurt making coffee at night, so Sebastian doesn't really pay much attention to it. Although the hour the clock shows does startle him. Why is Kurt preparing coffee at three thirty in the morning?

It takes only a few seconds for realization to hit, and when it does Sebastian sits up at what may seem inhuman speed. Maybe he dreamed it, he thinks, so he stays seated on his bed, eyes wide – despite just waking up, sleep is not shown in his eyes right now. He is listening carefully for another sound to prove if someone truly is downstairs.

A moment passes before another clang of metal against metal assures this and Sebastian lets out a breath he didn't realize he was holding until just yet.

He impatiently walks out of the room and towards the stairs. There, he grabs the railing of the stairs with shaking hands, not trusting his body enough not to fall. Despite this insecurity, he cannot help all but run down the stairs.

There is a constant clink – duller this time – coming from the kitchen. Kurt must be stirring the beverage and the spoon must be hitting the cup, he thinks. Sebastian walks slowly towards the kitchen and stops just a step before reaching it, not daring to look inside.

Taking a deep breath, Sebastian takes the final step and stares into the kitchen. There he is. Kurt is with his back facing Sebastian, and he continues to turn the spoon inside the cup for a few more seconds before turning a little to put the spoon in the sink.

Sebastian has no recognition of what is happening, and neither does Kurt. But before Kurt can even reach the sink, Sebastian is suddenly hugging him, making Kurt let out a small yelp of surprise as he does so. The hold Sebastian has on the boy is strong, and gets even stronger as Kurt comprehends what is happening and holds onto Sebastian back.

Having Kurt again in his arms after a whole day of worrying forces an exhale of relief out of Sebastian and brings tears to his eyes.

"Where the hell have you been?" Sebastian whispers in Kurt's ear, not enough strength to talk at normal volume. Sebastian leans back, but still holds Kurt at arm's length. "You just run off and left me with the kids in the car… I've been worrying sick over you!" Sebastian adds – voice louder and filled with concern this time.

Sebastian grabs Kurt's face in his hand lightly and leans in, kissing him gently before Kurt has the chance to answer. Sebastian draws back, but keeps their foreheads against each other.

"I'm sorry" Kurt apologizes softly and his voice is marked with obvious regret and it's still obviously hoarse from crying.

Hearing this makes Sebastian lean back - his hands still clutching Kurt's face - , and he takes notice of the red in Kurt's eyes and how swollen they seem.

"You've been crying." Sebastian states. "What happened? Did someone hurt you?" Sebastian continued, anger starting to build up inside him. "Because if someone did I swear to-"

"Blaine." Kurt interrupts bluntly.

At the look of confusion on Sebastian's face, Kurt looks down to his shoes, not being able to look at the other boy right now, and clarifies, "It was Blaine who was standing by the car earlier today… That's why I run off…"

At the explanation, Sebastian stiffens completely, his mind not knowing exactly what conclusion to reach.

-O-

"He's back? But- But th- the letter. It said-" Sebastian stammered after the initial shock wore off.

"I know… that's why I run after him." Kurt explained. "I couldn't believe it either…"

An awkward silence falls between both of them, and after a few moments, Sebastian gathers enough courage to break it, taking a big breath before speaking. "Does… Does this mean… I mean… does this mean you're, you know… going to go… with him, now?" Sebastian asks, and even though he tries not to, the hurt and awkwardness if evident in his tone.

With a sigh, Kurt responds, "I don't know, Seb… I-" The tears begin to fall again. "I love you, I honestly do, but… I don't know what I feel right know and I- I- I just don't know, Seb… I'm sorry." Kurt admits, sounding defeated. "I'm so confused and- and I'm so sorry" He chokes out before a sob escapes his mouth.

Sebastian is there hugging him strongly again, not admitting his dread on the possibility of Kurt leaving "It's fine, Kurt." He assures the broken boy, as he himself tried to hold in the tears that threat to fall. "Shhh. Let's go to bed, ok babe? You must be exhausted". It was true, Kurt really was exhausted. With a sigh, Sebastian concluded, "Let's go to sleep and we can discuss it later, okay?"

With a sniff, Kurt nods. Sebastian gets closer again and gives Kurt another small kiss before leaning back and smiling a little.

They walk upstairs to their bedroom. Not saying a word to each other, Kurt changes into his pyjamas and cleans himself. Meanwhile, Sebastian is already lying down on their bed, looking up to the ceiling, thinking about what will happen. Will – Would - Kurt chose Blaine? He couldn't… right? They had begun a family together… there was no way Kurt would leave them now… right? His mind runs over these thoughts, not willing to shut up. Then again, Blaine was, in fact, Kurt's first love; everybody knows that the first love is one that stays forever in one's heart.

Interrupting his torturous thoughts, Sebastian is glad Kurt walks in the room and goes towards the bed and lies down under the covers next to him. Sebastian puts an arm around Kurt's waist, holding him close. "I've missed you…" He whispers, kissing Kurt softly at his nape. "I love you" He adds in the same hushed tone.

"I love you, too" Kurt responds. And he means it; he doesn't doubt it. The warmth in his stomach as Sebastian rounded an arm around him confirmed it.

They stay like that, holding each other until they both fall into a peaceful sleep, only to be woken up a few hours later with the cry of a baby a few rooms down, and Kurt and Sebastian are forced to wake up.

A/N: OH YEAH! It is done! And it's waaay longer than the other chapters, I KNOW! I'm sorry!

Asdfghjkl well this is done, and I'm so happy :D

If I'm being completely honest one of the hardest things ever I finding a title of each chapter u.u I've been with my itunes on shuffle (yes all titles are from songs wow original i know) for like an hour trying to decide on one.

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