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Cam's POV (2 weeks later)
Sabrina passed away on New Year's Eve about an hour before the ball dropped, and that night Jim fell apart. He left the hospital in a distraught mess, and I followed him to a bar down the block. We sat in silence as a group of excited college kids welcomed in the New Year with drinks and noise makers.
He ordered drink after drink until the man sitting in front of me was completely out of it. I think by 2 a.m. he had forgotten all about his daughter's death. I know that drinking away your issues is never the answer, but in this case I can't blame him, and hey at least he had me to drive him home.
Mickey agrees to sit in the hospital with Lexi while Maya and I go to the funeral. Maya is a bit nervous to leave her with him, but she agrees that we should be at the funeral.
"We're so sorry for your loss." I say patting Jim on the back sympathetically as Maya gives the broken man a hug.
"Thanks for coming, guys." He says sniffling before making his way to a seat in the front row. We sit in the back behind a bunch of sad looking teenagers, and the service starts. Once the Pastor is done, Jim delivers the eulogy, and it brings tears to Maya's eyes almost immediately.
The whole time he delivered the eulogy I couldn't help but think of how difficult it would be to lose a child. I thought of Lexi and how I felt the day she was born and every day since. I thought of the minute I first laid eyes on the tiny crying baby, and how in that moment I felt more love for that baby than I had ever felt for anyone. I then think of how crushed I would be if that little girl was ever taken from me, and figure that that is the way Jim feels.
Maya leans her head on my shoulder as she sniffles in her tears when Jim closes his entirely too touching eulogy.
The Pastor then calls for anyone who would like to share a memory of Sabrina, and a brown haired girl no older than 15 stands in front of the group. She explains that Sabrina was her best friend, and tells the story of how they became friends back in preschool.
After the wake, Maya and I head back to the hospital where Mickey is still trying to entertain Lexi. "How was it?" he asks us in a serious tone.
"Sad… just lke most funerals." I reply quietly as Maya walks closer to the small girl on the hospital bed.
"Hey baby, did you have fun with Uncle Mickey?" Maya asks Lexi curiously as the little girl smiles at her.
Lexi is starting to get past Sabrina's death. The first day was terribly hard for her, and despite what she has been told by everyone, she keeps having nightmares about dying.
She told me that in her dream the cancer chases her and chases her. It's not inside her, but more of a monster that eats people, and pulls their hair out. She is usually crying when she explains it to us so we only are able to get bits and pieces of it.
The last couple nights either I or Maya have had to sleep next to her on the hospital bed, and even then she wakes up in a panic.
We try to tell her that it will all be fine, and the cancer will not eat her, but she doesn't believe us. She is still very scared of it.
Luckily, Lexi's appointment with Doctor Pierce is today, and we should know if the last round worked to put her in remission by the end of the day.
With all that has been happening since she was diagnosed, remission would be the greatest. Lexi could finally have a nice respite to the continuous sickness.
At 3 o clock, Doctor Pierce comes into the room, and starts the tests.
"I'll be back as soon as we know the results." Doctor Pierce tells us with a genuine smile on his face.
We waited with Lexi watching cartoons for the longest hour ever until Doctor Pierce finally knocked on the door frame with a very happy look on his face.
"I have great news!" He tells us in a sing song voice. "Lexi is in remission. And, her blood counts are not looking nearly as bad as we thought they would. She can be discharged by the 5th." He states happily, and I look at my small family of 3 excitedly.
"Oh my gosh, thank you so much Doctor Pierce." Maya proclaims shaking his hand with gratitude. "No problem." He says grinning.
"So, this is very good news and the worst is over. But, in a couple of weeks we are going to start her consolidation therapy… This is just to make sure there aren't any cancer cells hiding anywhere, and it will help ensure that the cancer doesn't relapse." He claims casually.
"It will actually be similar to how we started. Since Lexi started off with a very whacky red blood cell count, we started with weaker chemo drugs, and went on to a higher intensity as it went along. This would be 3 or 4 rounds with 4 weeks in between each round. She'll be in the hospital for 5 days each time, and then she can go home, and live pretty normally." He tells us optimistically.
"Thank you so much!" I tell Doctor Pierce shaking his hand. "One question though, what are the chances of relapsing?" I ask in a serious tone.
"Honestly, with the consolidation chemo she most likely will not relapse. There's always a chance of relapse, but I wouldn't worry about it all that much. You'll cross that bridge IF you come to it." He tells us putting emphasis on "if".
"Okay. Thanks again Doctor." Maya responds nodding, and waving him out of the room.
Maya's POV (2 days later)
"Yay! We're home!" Lexi scream excitedly as we get her out of the car, and into the house. The minute her feet hit the hardwood floor, Lexi is off to the living room toy box where the first thing she grabs is her stuffed Pascal toy from her favorite movie.
She rushes back to us, and looks up at me expectantly before saying "Tangled?" with puppy dog eyes. "Sure, baby." I say picking her up, and bringing her into the living room.
We start the movie, and I drag Cam into the kitchen to talk to him about an important matter that we have been putting off quite a while.
"We need to tell her." I mention nodding my head. "M, we just got home. Give it a few more days." Cam tells me putting his hand on my shoulder.
"We've been putting it off for way to long. She'll be excited. Let's just tell her." I try to convince him grabbing his hand and squeezing it gently. "Please." I add with a pouty lip waiting for him to crack which I knew he would.
"Fine..." he agrees with a small grin before kissing my forehead. "Should we do it now?" I ask him curiously. "I guess." He responds with a shrug. "Okay, just like we talked about!" I say smiling excitedly.
"Alright, let's go." I say grabbing his hand and guiding him into the living room.
"Hey Lexi, Daddy and I have something to tell you." I announce to the little girl before pausing her movie.
"What mommy? I'm trying to watch 'Tangled'!" she groans slightly annoyed by us interrupting her favorite movie.
"So Lexi, we have some really big news…" I tell the little girl with a nervous grin. "You're going to be a big sister." Cam announces enthusiastically. Lexi gives us a look of confusion, and I decide to elaborate.
"You see honey, there's a baby in my belly, and in about 5 months the baby will come out, and he or she will be your little brother or sister." I explain anxiously hoping that she understands.
She gives me a look of horror. "Mommy, did you eat the baby?" she asks accusingly, and Cam bursts into laughter.
"Of course not, Munchy… the baby is really little right now, and it's growing in mommy's belly." Cam tells her reassuringly still trying to stop laughing.
"Oh… How did it get in there?" she asks confused, and I look at Cam not really sure how to answer her question.
"Mommy is making the baby in her belly." Cam tells the confused 4 year old.
"Oh… Can it be a girl baby?" she asks excitedly. Cam and I giggle again, and I quickly tell her. "Well we don't get to choose, honey."
It seems silly to me, but I guess all of these questions were valid for a little girl to ask. She has no clue about where babies come from, and all of that. Honestly, I am just very happy that she didn't ask too many questions like that. I can't imagine what we would have told her if she had.
"Oh, it is good to be home!" I sigh happily falling onto my bed that I have missed very much. "My sweet, sweet bed how I have missed you!" I say relaxing into the fluffy comforter.
I look over at Cam who is giggling at me from his dresser while he puts on a pair of plaid pajama pants.
"I guess it is pretty nice to be home again." He mentions sitting down next to where I lay on the bed.
"I get to fall asleep next to you. What could be better?" he asks grabbing my hand gently and causing me to smile.
"And years later, you are still …Cheesy!" I laugh sitting up on the bed.
"You know you love me!" he says pecking my lips. "I very much do." I respond smiling and getting up to put my own pajamas on.
I change my clothes, and meet Cam in the bathroom where he is brushing his teeth before bed. I brush my hair into a pony tail before brushing my own teeth.
"Well shit!" I hear Cam say while I am washing my face.
"What is it, babe?" I ask him as I dry my face with a towel.
"I forgot to refill my prescription again." He groans looking at the empty Xanax bottle.
"It'll be fine, Cam. How many days did you miss?" I ask him curiously as I apply my moisturizer.
"Like 4 days." He replies anxiously starting to freak out a bit. "Cam, calm down. It'll be fine. We'll refill it tomorrow." I comment calmly trying to make him chill out.
"See, I'm already freaking out!" he groans pulling his hair, and walking into the bedroom.
"You were absolutely fine until you realized you don't have them. Chillax!" I tell him walking behind him and rubbing his shoulders.
"Okay… You're right. You're right. I'm fine. Thank you." he tells me taking a deep breath.
"You're welcome, darling. Now let's hit the hay!" I say smacking him on the butt, and sticking my tongue out at him before lying down on my side of the bed.
I lay down on my back, and I feel Cam's eyes staring at me. "What?" I ask him confused at why he is watching me.
"You're starting to show." He says smiling widely and placing a hand on my belly.
"Cause that's exactly what I want to hear. You're such a great husband to call me fat!" I say sarcastically turning away from him.
"You know that's not what I meant. You look as beautiful as ever. Definitely not fat!" he adds trying to explain himself.
"Whatever. I'm not mad. Love you!" I say groggily as I start to fall asleep.
"I love you too." He say's turning the bed side lamp off. "And I love you too little baby." He whispers to my stomach, and then kisses it which makes me smile despite how tired I am.
"Night…" I say as I drift into sleep on my incredibly comfortable bed.
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