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Maya's POV

Opening the kitchen cabinet I grab the peanut butter and spread it onto bread for Lexi. She decided that she wants a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for lunch today. She's feeling a lot better, and she wasn't affected by Wyatt's death at all.

Cam told me that when he told her in the hospital that we wouldn't be bringing a baby home she was kind of happy about it. She said that she never wanted a brother anyway.

Of course she didn't realize that she was celebrating the worst thing that Cam and I have ever experienced. She just figured that he wasn't real. I guess it ended up being a good thing that we weren't to adamant on preparing her for his arrival.

Cam seems to be pretty shut down right now which is hard. It's been 5 weeks since the accident and I'm fairly certain that he will never be the same Campbell again.

He's had lots of rough patches in the last 10 years, and I have stuck with him through all of them, but this time is different. I'm going through this too, and I'm not sure if he gets that. I feel responsible for this, and it kills me.

Just when I start to get past it I see him suffering and all of the guilt comes back. I wish he would go see someone, but he refuses. He gets angry when I even suggest it.

"Here you go, Lex" I tell the little girl whose hair is starting to grow back as I hand her the peanut butter sandwich.

"Thanks, mommy!" my five year old tells me with a smile. She is the reason I am able to get up in the morning I swear.

If it wasn't for her smiling face I would probably be with Cam right now unable to function… I have to be strong for her. She needs me. She needs both of us, but Cam has decided to check out for a while.

It's not that I'm angry with him. I know that it's not his fault. He's sick and this is just more difficult for him, but I wish he would at least try a little harder to get back to normal.

At first he was upset, but he was still… here. He's just not anymore, and I need him to be.

"Mommy, can I go say hi to daddy today?" Lexi asks me as she takes a bite of her sandwich.

I frown at the fact that she is reduced to asking if she can see her dad. "Of course, baby." I nod sadly.

"I'm not a baby anymore. I'm 5. I'm a big girl!" she corrects me with a stern glance. "I'm sorry. I mean of course big girl." I correct myself patting the short hair on her head.

"Can we go now?" she asks me hopefully, and I nod at her before wiping her face of peanut butter and guiding her up the stairs to the bedroom that I haven't been staying in.

"Cam, are you decent?" I ask as I knock on the door. He doesn't answer me so I open the door up a crack to check for myself.

"Lexi, I think that daddy's sleeping." I tell the little girl as I close the door to the bedroom.

"Daddy's silly. It's not night time." She laughs, and it brings a smile to my face. Maybe seeing her would be good for Cam. He hasn't seen her at all this week. He only comes out of the room after she's sleeping and that isn't even for long.

I open the door up, and walk in to see Cam lying on the bed sleeping. "Cam" I say quietly as I gently nudge him trying to wake him.

He opens his eyes and looks up at me groggily. "Hey, how you feeling?" I ask him caringly grabbing his hand in my own.

"I'm okay." He responds sadly sitting up on the bed. Lexi runs over to the bed, and crawls up onto his lap quickly with a smile.

"Daddy!" she squeals wrapping her arms around his neck and squeezing tightly.

"Hey Lexi" he mentions trying to bring a smile to his face but failing. "Daddy, why are you sleeping? It's not sleep time. It's awake time." She tells him giddily laughing, and bringing a bit of hope to his eyes.

"I know, Lexi. I need to stop being so lazy." He tells her sniffling back tears, and trying to be okay.

"Daddy, you wanna play Connect four with me? She asks him with a smile.

"I'd love to, Munchy." He tells her giving her a hug. "Yay!I love you, daddy!"

"I love you too, Munchy!" he tells her as a small smile comes across his face.

After he showers, he stays out of the room hanging out with Lexi until it's her bed time. He even reads her a story which he hasn't done in months. She was so thrilled to see him, and he seemed pretty happy to spend time with her too.

I expected that after reading Lexi a story Cam would go back into hiding, but was pleasantly surprised when he came down and sat with me on the couch.

"I'll make a call tomorrow. I need to get past this. Thank you!" he tells me with a small smile.

"Thank you. It's been nice to have a bit of a break." I tell him smiling at him happily.

He looks down at his lap and starts fiddling with his hands looking guilty. "M, I'm sorry. This hasn't been easy on either of us, but I've been just horrible to you." He apologizes looking like he is going to cry because he feels so bad.

"It's fine, Cam. Don't feel bad about it. I'm just glad you're feeling better." I say grabbing his hand tenderly.

"I'm gonna feel bad about it. I can't do that to you and Lexi, and not feel bad about it. I should have listened to you weeks ago. I need to see someone." He tells me rubbing my hand.

"Okay… Just know that I don't think you need to worry too much about it. I understand how hard all of this has been on you. It's not your fault… It's mine." I tell him starting to cry.

What am I even doing crying? I'm just going to upset him again.

He puts an arm around me, and I lean my head in his shoulder. "It's not, M… It's no one's fault." He tells me in an attempt to console me.

I stop crying eventually, but we stay like that… We snuggle on the couch until we both fall asleep, and I can honestly say I haven't slept that well since before everything happened even if it was on a lumpy couch in an upright position.

Cam's POV

When I was reading her a story Lexi told me that she had missed me, and I realized how little time I have spent with her since Wyatt made his very brief appearance on the earth.

It also made me realize that I need to buck up, and be a man for my family. It's not fair to Maya that I have been acting like a depressed idiot. I love her, and I love Lexi so I should show her that I do by making an effort to get better instead of wallowing in my own self pity and grief.

My logic for not seeing my doctor was that I don't deserve to be happy. I shouldn't be happy after such a terrible thing has happened. I know now that my not being happy has led to my daughter and my wife feeling neglected, and it's not worth hurting them anymore.

Maya fell asleep on my shoulder and I am mesmerized by just watching her sleep. It's been so long since I've just watched her sleep… It may sound creepy, but it's one of my favorite things to do. She is so beautiful, and it makes me feel so damn lucky that she's mine.

How did I go so long without being around her? She's my wife for crying out loud.

I kiss the top of her head, and decide that I will spend the night holding her like I have so many times before... Normalcy is on its merry way.