In the first couple of hours of slumber, Hidan started stirring slightly having a really bad dream
Dream~
'N-no' Hidan thought as Sai came up to him with his friends from their past
"Hey you shouldn't have trusted me Hidan" Sai said and Hidan froze
"I-I can't believe I even thought of trusting you! You let your friends…I-I can't believe you; how can you do tha-!?" Hidan said
"Shut up!" Sai yelled interrupting Hidan's sentence and Hidan glared at him
"No! You are evil! Did you even think of helping me!? Did you even love me!?" Hidan yelled and Sai punched him on the face
"No! Like everyone said I was raised to not have any emotion; to believe that emotions and feelings are a weakness" Sai said and Hidan glared even harder.
Hidan's eyes widened as two familiar guys pinned him to the ground, and Hidan tried to break free and saw Sai and another familiar person walk up to him
"N-No!" Hidan yelled
End of the dream~
Hidan woke up gasping and sighed in half-relief as he realized it was just a dream. But Hidan froze realizing Sai is right there and looked at him, and sighed in relief again since his dream didn't wake him up, but had a sad look
'Why? Why the fuck did he have to come in my life again bringing unwanted memories?' Hidan asked himself and soon enough fell back to sleep.
In the morning Hidan and Sai got up practically at the same time. Sai smiled and pulled Hidan closer to his chest; Hidan didn't know what to say or do so he let Sai hold him.
Sai pulled Hidan into a kiss, which Hidan was very very hesitant to kiss back. Sai pulled away once he knew the Jashinist wasn't kissing back and looked at Hidan sadly
"Why didn't you kiss me back?" Sai asked sadly and Hidan sighed
"I-I don't fully trust you yet, after what you did" Hidan said
"Oh…I understand" Sai said in a sad tone, but got up from the bed and began to get ready for the school day. Hidan sighed and sat up on his bed and was about to get ready but he looked at Sai, and a million of questions popped in his mind. But one that stuck out the most was 'Is this relationship a good idea? What happens if Sai was like that dream?'
Who knows if Sai said about loving Hidan and never wanted to hurt him was a lie or not? That dream felt too real for Hidan and he had no clue what to do.
But when thinking about all this and Sai, Kakuzu popped in his mind. Hidan froze and blushed slightly
'What the hell!?' Hidan thought 'why am I-"
"Hidan!" Sai said breaking Hidan out of thought
"Wh-wha…?" Hidan said as he switched his position on the bed so that his legs were over the side
"Hidan are you ok?" Sai asked sitting next to him
"I don't know" Hidan said as he was so confused about everything
"Hidan…" Sai said and Hidan stood up
"I-I don't know ok!? I mean after what you did, I just wanted to forget and you bring those damn unwanted memories back!" Hidan said and Sai looked taken back
"H-Hidan I'm sorry I-"
"After that I don't think I will ever be able to trust you ever again. I don't think it's a good idea if we go out" Hidan said and Sai looked to him in sadness
"B-but…"
"No buts. I was the victim last time and I will not go through that again! I don't think we could be friends either" Hidan said and Sai looked down in sadness
"O-ok…I understand…I'm sorry" Sai said
"Boys time for breakfast!" Hidan's mom yelled and Hidan and Sai heard it and silently got ready and went down stairs and ate breakfast with only Hidan's mom since Hidan's father left around an hour earlier for work.
Hidan's mom saw the tension between her son and Sai and the look of sadness over Sai's face
"Hey Sai what's wrong?" Hidan's mom asked and he looked at her and pulled off a fake grin
"N-nothing's wrong, nothing to worry about" Sai said and glanced at Hidan before eating the rest of his meal.
"I-I have to go. I have to do something at school before school starts" Sai said and stood up, grabbing his bag and looked to Hidan and his mother
"Thanks for the hospitality and I will probably see you again" Sai said looking to Hidan's mom and glanced to Hidan and looked down
"Or not" Sai said before leaving.
Hidan was about to go too, to meet up with Deidara, but Hidan's mom grabbed Hidan's wrist
"Hidan what did you do to Sai, he's sadder than normal"
"Nothing, just not friends anymore" Hidan said
"But why, you were so close" Hidan's mom said
"Well it's his fault not mine" Hidan said
"What!? I doubt that 100%" Hidan's mom said
"WHAT!? Why do you think it was me!?" Hidan yelled
"WELL YOU'RE SOMETIMES HARD TO DEAL WITH!" Hidan's mom said and Hidan looked down and pulled his arm out of his mother's grip
"Well that may be true, but IT was his fault" Hidan said
"Why?" His mother asked
"He did something to me that is unforgettable, he lost my trust because of it" Hidan said "I'm late, I have to meet with my friend" Hidan said and ran out of the house, with his school things, before his mom could do anything.
At school, Hidan met Deidara in front of his locker
"Hey Deidara" Hidan said
"Hi Hidan un" Deidara said and before anything else was said Sai walked up to them
"Hidan? Can I talk to you about wha-?" Sai asked
"If you say what I think you're going to say, I will kill you" Hidan said and Sai sighed sadly before leaving. Deidara looked to Hidan shocked
"Hidan what was that un?" Deidara asked and Hidan sighed
"Nothing" Hidan said and Deidara didn't believe him
"Hidan un. It was something, I can tell un" Deidara said and Hidan sighed
"Fine I'll tell you during lunch" Hidan said
"Ok" Deidara said and the two walked to their class
The first couple of classes went pretty fast and before anyone knew it lunch came. Hidan sighed and met everyone at the table and everyone left to the court yard. Everyone in their group knew that Hidan will tell what happened between him and Sai because Deidara told them. Kakuzu already kinda knew something was up from last night.
"Tell us un" Deidara said
"O-Ok" Hidan said and started to explain
Flashback~
Hidan and Sai were going out for about 6 months. Sai has about 3 friends that are bullies and could turn on him any time.
One day Hidan and Sai were at Sai's house, sitting on the couch together and Hidan sighed because their relationship's a secret
"Sai why can't we come out of the closet yet? It's been nearly 6 months" Hidan said and Sai sighed and pulled Hidan closer
"Because what would people think?" Sai asked and Hidan got mad and pushed Sai away and glared at him
"It doesn't matter what they think! If we love each other, isn't that enough?" Hidan asked
"Yes, but I can't, my friends will hurt not only me but you too" Sai said and Hidan sighed but nodded
A few days later, Hidan's sexuality came out, by a bully who announced it at school, and from it got beaten up, daily, by Sai and his bully friends. Sai's only excuse for beating his boyfriend up was because he was forced to by his friends. Hidan believed Sai's excuse until the time where one bully pulled Hidan into the boy's abandoned locker room, where 3 bullies, Sai's friends and Sai were there.
One bully snapped his fingers and 2 bullies, 'cept Sai, pinned Hidan on the ground and Hidan struggled to get free
"Wh-what are you doing!?" Hidan yelled and the bullies laughed
"One thing you might enjoy since you're gay" The leader of the bullies said "I'm going to rape you" One bully said and Hidan's eyes widened
"N-No…anything but that!" Hidan yelled, actually begging, and tried to get free, but the grip of the bullies who held him down was too strong.
"No I think I'll do that" The bully said and Hidan froze and looked at Sai who was at least a foot away from him. Hidan looked at him with a 'please do something' look and then noticed the emptiness and coldness in Sai's eyes.
Hidan had tears form, heart breaking
End of Flashback~
Hidan gritted his teeth as tears formed as everyone looked at him shocked
"I-I loved him then, b-but he lied to me. He said he loved me, but he watched me get raped by his 'so called' friend" Hidan said and Deidara looked sympathetic
"H-Hidan un" Deidara said and Hidan pulled his knees to his chest
"I-It hurt. The look in Sai's eyes, the emptiness" Hidan said "And he had the nerve to ask me to give him another chance and that he didn't mean to hurt me, b-but he lied. He was probably the one who told everyone I was gay" Hidan said tears falling down his cheeks. All of Hidan's friends were now mad as if they new him for a lifetime. But Kakuzu was the one who was the maddest, shocking himself
'Why am I so mad because of that story of the past of that bastard?' Kakuzu asked himself confusedly.
Before anything could happen, Sai walked out of his hiding place he was hiding in, overhearing the story. Sai walked to the group earning a glare from each person including Hidan, only Hidan's and Kakuzu's glares were intense.
"How dare you do that to the one you love un!?" Deidara yelled
"You could have helped him!" Tobi and Konan yelled
"Yeah that is messed up, even for me" Zetsu said and Sai looked down
"H-Hidan I'm sorry" Sai said and Hidan glared
"No! I can't believe I was about to give you that chance! You're an emotionless asshole"
"And-" Pein started, but before he finished his thought, Kakuzu stood up and pulled Sai close to him by the collar of his shirt.
"If you ever come near Hidan again, I swear I will make your life a living hell" Kakuzu said in an evil tone that meant every single word. Kakuzu let go of Sai and Sai ran away in fear and Kakuzu rolled his eyes and turned around to see the confused shocked and wide-eyed faces of his friends and sat down. Kakuzu then noticed everyone was looking at him
"What?" Kakuzu asked
"Wh-what was that?" Pein asked
"Honestly? I don't know" Kakuzu said looking to Hidan who wasn't crying anymore, but he was shocked that Kakuzu did that for him
"Now you know that Sai doesn't truly love you" Sasori said
"Yeah because if he did he wouldn't take a simple threat like that and still chase after you, but he ran away" Kisame said and Hidan frowned looking down and smiled
"Thanks for being there guys" Hidan said
"No problem" Everyone said in unison
All the sudden the bell rang for class and Hidan remembered art class
"Sh-shit…Sai's in my Art class!" Hidan said and Deidara smiled
"Well don't worry you have me and Danna there un" Deidara said
"We won't let anything happen to you" Sasori said and Hidan smiled and was nervous at knowing Sai's in the class. Hidan sighed and looked up to Kakuzu and saw him smile and Hidan blushed slightly, not knowing why. Kakuzu didn't know why he's smiling either. Everyone left to their classes, Kakuzu and Hidan walking to their science class
"Kakuzu why did you do that for me" Hidan asked and Kakuzu stopped for a second before walking again
"Well I have to have you focused so we can work on the project" Kakuzu lied and Hidan smiled catching the lie
"Yeah" Hidan said and Kakuzu looked at him
"What, you think I'm lying?" Kakuzu asked and Hidan shook his head
"Never said that 'Kuzu" Hidan said and ran to the class
Kakuzu froze in that spot confused about Hidan and his feeling
'D-did he just call me 'Kuzu'?' Kakuzu asked himself and began walking to class again.
After that class, Hidan sighed and met with Deidara and Sasori and left to their art class and Hidan sat at his desk, next to Deidara and Sasori. Hidan noticed a note on his desk and read it
'Hime-Chan
I'm sorry, I didn't know what to do then, I was afraid. I know you think I did it on purpose, but I didn't! Those guys would've hurt me.
I might have been raised to have no emotion and I don't, but with you the emotion I thought I didn't have comes out. I'm so sorry, I was so hurt to watch you go through that, but I had to hide my feelings, I didn't intend to hurt you. I'm sorry
Love,
Sai
Ps. I guess it was too soon to ask you for forgiveness, I'm sorry'
Hidan sighed and clenched the note and glanced at Sai who was in a depressed mood and turned around groaning.
'What am I going to do?'