Sam was anxious. He was helping Bill with the groceries and couldn't wait to get back to the camp, he had a weird feeling, he wanted to see Jess as soon as possible. He asked Bill to drive, and hurried back to the beach as fast as he could. That feeling he had, that something was not right, wouldn't leave him.

They got to the camp, Sam helped Bill with the groceries and was about to go see Jess when Jo came running to him, with tears in her eyes. Oh fuck.

"Jo, what's wrong?"

She could barely speak.

"Sam, I'm so so so sorry!"

"What the hell happened, Jo?"

She was sobbing, and the words wouldn't come out. Sam grabbed her arms and sat with her on a bench.

"Jo, you need to calm down and tell me what happened, please!"

She took a deep breath.

"Sam, I'm so sorry… you're gonna hate me forever when you hear this…"

Ok, now he was deeply worried. He stared at her, waiting.

"Jess came by this morning… you had left like 15 minutes earlier… she was worried, she said that the father of one of the guys camping with her, had a stroke, and they'd have to leave right away… and she came here to talk to you and say goodbye…"

Sam closed his eyes. Jess was gone. He wasn't gonna spend the day with her, she was gone. If he hadn't gone with Bill, he would at least have said goodbye to her…

"Jo, did she leave her number or something so I can contact her?"

"Y-yeah…"

But she turned pale… something was very wrong here.

"Okay, so give it to me, please."

She started sobbing again.

"I'm so sorry Sam, you're gonna hate me forever for this… I don't have the number anymore. I had put it in my back pocket, and I forgot about it, and then Matt came and carried me to the water… and when I remembered the paper it was too late… it was already destroyed. Sam you have no idea how miserable I'm feeling right now… You can hate me as much as you want, I understand…"

Sam was barely listening anymore. His heart sank. He got up and walked away from Jo, she called him but he wanted to be alone. He sat at the beach and stared at the ocean.

Jess was gone, and he had no ways to contact her. He cursed himself for going with Bill for those stupid groceries, if he hadn't, she would have talked to him. He cursed himself for not asking more about her, where she lived, where she studied, her last name… and now she was gone, he had no idea where, there was absolutely no ways to contact her.

He thought about the last time he had seen her, how he had kissed her and said that today they'd be able to stay together all they long… and he would finally ask more about this girl who, in only 2 days, made him feel something he never had before. And now… she was gone, and he wasn't even able to say goodbye to her.

Tears were rolling down his face. What was he supposed to do now? Forget? Forget those blue eyes, those rosy cheeks, that blonde hair that smelled like roses and that voice that was like listening to the most beautiful of the songs… forget the way he felt when he was looking at her, like he was looking at the sun? Forget how that girl made him feel, like nothing else mattered in the whole world, but being with her?

How could he forget? In only two days, he was sure this girl was his true love, and he knew he would never be able to feel the same way about anyone.

Now she was gone and it was unlikely that he was gonna see her again.

It would be impossible to forget. Jess had changed him forever.

Two days later

They were all set and ready to leave. Sam couldn't wait to get the hell out of San Elijo. The last two days were like hell to him. He couldn't stop thinking about Jess even for a second, and everything in that place reminded him of her. He barely talked to anyone, he wanted to be left alone. Jo didn't force him to do anything and he was glad. He was kind of avoiding her. He knew it wasn't her fault, but he couldn't look at her, he needed some time. He felt like a part of him was missing, and he was scared to death that he was never getting it back.

The trip back took forever. Every blonde girl he saw, he would check to see if it was Jess. He wondered if was always gonna be like this.

When they arrived at the motel, Dean welcome them with a smile.

"Hey guys! It was about time! How was the trip?"

Jo looked at Sam.

"It was okay Dean, we had a good time… nothing much, it was good to take some time off."

"And you didn't meet any girls there Sammy? No sex in the tent?"

Sam took a little time to answer. What was he supposed to say? That he met the love of his life, spent two amazing days with her, but now she was gone and he had no idea where? He decided he didn't wanna tell Dean about Jess, he didn't want anyone to know. Jo knew about her, but she didn't know how deep were his feelings. He wanted to keep this only to himself.

"No, I didn't meet anyone."

Jo stared at Sam in disbelief, but Dean didn't notice it.

"You're such a girl Sam, you should have stayed here, I met a lot of chicks…"

Sam gave him a half-smile.

"That's great, Dean."

He was getting suffocated in there, so he said he was going to buy a Coke at the vending machine and got out of the room. He sat on the sidewalk and put his face in his hands. He couldn't believe he had the love of his life for two amazing days and he let her slip through his fingers. She was going to be waiting for his call, maybe was right now, a call that would never come… she would think he didn't care enough, that she meant nothing to him, not enough to give her a call… and he couldn't even tell her what happened…

He really didn't want anyone to know about her, not even Dean. He didn't like hiding anything from his brother, but this… he needed to keep Jess to himself. Nobody would ever understand, and what was the point explaining? Jo was the only one (apart from the guys from school) who knew he had met a girl named Jessica once. But she wouldn't know he will think about her day after day. That everytime he's in a crowd, he's gonna look for her. That he'll never love anyone like this.

A few days later

Jess waited. And waited. He should have called by now. She felt so bad for leaving him, she thought he'd be devastated. She waited a couple of days, he would probably still be on the camp and there was no phone there. But more days had passed, he was sure back to his house now, so why hadn't he called? He had said such nice things, made her believe he really had liked her. Was that a lie?

She spent hours by the phone waiting. Everytime it rang, she would rush to answer it, but it was never him. Eventually, she gave up. She clearly hadn't meant that much to him, anyway. She was heartbroken, what she felt for him was real, was deep. And he was just playing with her feelings. No matter how long it took, she would forget Sam.

John had arrived from his hunt, and told the boys it was time to go. Sam didn't know what to feel. For the past days, everytime he went out, he started looking for her. He didn't even know if she lived in San Diego, but it was all he had. Now, they were heading to Wyoming, and he would have to stop looking for her…

But would he really be able to do it someday?

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This chapter was shorter than the last one because I had to end it here. after this, another part begins, and I didn't want to start it now. I hope you're ejoying it so far!