The first time Sam dreamed about Jess, was a week after he returned from the camp. He was sitting on the beach, probably the same one where they met. He was staring at the ocean, thinking about her and wondering if she would ever come to him. That's when he saw a girl coming out of the water, the sun was reflecting on her blond hair. She walked towards him with a smile.

"Jess? I… I didn't think you would come."

She bent over and kissed him.

"I did. But now I have to go."

Sam grabbed her arm. He couldn't let her go again.

"But Jess, I just found you… you can't leave me!"

She gently took his fingers off her arm.

"I'm sorry Sam. It's the way it has to be. Bye."

He watched her leave, he tried to get up and go after her, but it was like an invisible force was holding him still.

And then, she disappeared.

Jo had a firm grip on Sam's arm, and he was thankful for that, otherwise he would be on the floor now. For 6 years, all he could think about, day and night, was this girl. The first thing that crossed his mind in the morning and the last, before sleeping. There it was, the smile that was brighter than sunshine, the blue eyes that reflected her soul. This was a dream, it was the only explanation. He searched his brain trying to remember if Dean had told him the name of his girl, but he couldn't remember it. He kicked himself mentally for never asking. But still, there were a million Jessicas, it was impossible that was the same one.

Except it was. Only a few seconds had passed since he first looked at her, but it was like a lifetime had flashed before his eyes like an explosion. The first time he saw her, the first time they kissed, all the moments they spent together, the last time he ever saw her, Jo telling him she was gone and she had lost her number, how he felt when he realized he couldn't find her, all the moments he wished he had her by his side. The girl that he searched for everywhere he went, that was everything he dreamed about, was in front of him. And she was holding hands with his brother.

Miraculously, Dean hadn't noticed anything in Sam's expression, he was very excited that his baby bro was finally meeting his girl. He smiled when he introduced her.

"Sam, Jo, this is Jess."

Jess turned to Jo first and shook her hand, Jo tried to disguise as much as possible her shock.

"Hey Jess… nice to meet you."

Jess smiled at her.

"You too! Wow Dean, she's way better looking than you are!"

Dean just laughed, oblivious to all the tension going on.

"Yeah, right… I'm the prettiest sibling, that's a fact!"

Then, she turned to Sam and held out her hand to him, still smiling.

"So I finally get to meet Sam! Dean talks a lot about you, you know!"

Sam shook couldn't say anything, just nodded. When he took her hand, it was like he had got a shock, touching her soft hand after so many years… he wanted to hold her and never let go, he wanted to tell her how much he had missed her… but something was not right. He thought he saw something cross her eyes for a fraction of a second when she looked at him, but apart from that, she gave absolutely no signs of recognizing him at all. She was really acting as if they were meeting for the first time. I mean, he could understand if she didn't think about him anymore, but not remembering him at all? Had he meant that little to her?

He looked away from her. He felt his eyes filling with tears, but he couldn't cry, how would he explain? Finally, Dean came for his rescue.

"Hey baby, are you thirsty? Shall we go get something to drink?"

And he took her away. Sam was feeling like his head was about to explode, he couldn't think, he couldn't say anything, he had no idea what to do. He felt like the floor had opened and he was falling, and he would never stop falling. He heard Jo talking to him, but her voice was so far away, he tried to focus. She was pulling him by his arm. He forced himself to move, he didn't care where she was taking him, he couldn't even see straight anymore.

Jo took him to his room and locked the door. He sat on the bed, rested his elbows on his knees and stared at nothing. Jo knelt in front of him.

"Sam, look at me. Are you okay?"

He took a few seconds but finally looked at her.

"Okay?" He grimaced at her. "I just saw Jessica, after 6 years. And she's dating my brother. So yeah, I'm totally okay".

Jo sat next to him on the bed and put an arm around his shoulders.

He felt she was about to say something but there was a knock on the door.

"Sam? Are you in there?"

It was Sarah's voice.

Jo replied.

"Yeah Sarah, he's here, just a minute!"

She turned to Sam.

"Sam, look at me. I know you're miserable right now, but you need to make a little effort. It's your birthday party and your friends are here for you… at least for a couple of hours, then you excuse yourself saying you have a headache, but you need to do this… just try to avoid her, I'll help you."

Sam considered what she was saying. He really didn't wanna leave his room, he just wanted to disappear, he didn't wanna see anybody… but Jo was right, all those people were here for him, he couldn't just lock himself in his room on his birthday party… "just a couple of hours", he told himself. He motioned for Jo to open the door, and Sarah got in.

"Hey baby, what's going on? Are you okay?"

Sam tried to put on a less miserable face.

"Yeah, I'm fine, just a little headache but I'm okay… let's go back there."

They got back in the living room and Sam spotted Dean and Jess talking to some friends, he had his arm on her back. It physically hurt seeing her, he felt like crying again. He wouldn't be able to do that, it was too much for him. How was he supposed to be in the same room as Jess and pretend everything was fine?

He decided to get a drink. The first sip burned his throat, and the third one, his soul. After a few shots, he was felling better. After a while, he saw Dean leaving Jess with the guys and coming towards him.

"Hey man, are you alright?"

Sam giggled.

"Of course, Dean! It's my birthday, a lot of people I love are here, I just met your lovely girl, why wouldn't I be alright?"

"Okay Sammy, but take it easy okay?"

He grabbed Dean's shoulders.

"Dean, I'm always the perfect straight-A student who never does anything wrong, can I just have fun for one night? I mean, I don't even have to drive home!"

"It's your call."

And he walked away.

Sam went for another drink. He wanted to forget, he couldn't deal with this tonight.

Sam woke up feeling like his head could explode any minute. There was a buzz in his ear and when he opened his eyes, he felt the room spinning around him.

He put his arm over his eyes and tried to remember what the hell happened. He had dreamed about Jess, again. But she was… with Dean? No… and then all the images hit him like a punch in the face, it wasn't a dream… After 6 years, he had finally found Jess. Everything he dreamed about, had came true. But in all the ways he imagined finding her, not in a million years he pictured this. The true love of his life was dating his brother. What an irony. eHe had no ideaH

He had no idea what to do.

He went to the living room and found Jo at the kitchen.

"Morning sunshine!"

He just groaned and sat at the table. She brought him some coffee.

"What happened last night?"

"You mean after you had like 6 shots of tequila? You were pretty much the light of the party, it was funny actually. That was before Dean and Sarah drag you to your room and give you a cold shower… I have to admit it, you were a pain in the ass, you didn't wanna leave the party, Dean had to force you… but after they put you in bed you were pretty much out."

He was feeling pretty embarrassed.

"And where are they?"

"Dean was called to work today… and Sarah went home after you fell asleep, she considered staying, but Dean said it was better if she went home. You better call her."

"I will… once I start feeling like a person again."

They sat in silence while Sam drank his coffee.

"What about… her?"

There was a pause before Jo answered.

"She was worried about you. Dean told her you were not like that usually…"

Sam felt his eyes filling with tears and he couldn't hold it anymore. Jo sat closer to him and put a hand on his arm. She just let him cry.

"What am I supposed to do, Jo?"

She smiled at him with sympathy.

"You never forgot her, have you?"

"What do you think? Of course I haven't… For the past 6 years, I thought about this girl every single day, Jo… you have no idea, I can't even begin to explain…"

"I imagined… I never had the guts to ask you, but I imagined… you were never the same after you met her."

He sighed.

"I always dreamed about the day I would finally find her… but not once I imagined this."

She let go of his arm.

"I'm so sorry, Sam."

He looked at her.

"For what?"

"It's my fault all this happened. If I hadn't lost her number in the first place, you guys would have been together back then and you wouldn't have suffered…"

"It's not your fault Jo, it was fate or whatever… I don't know, maybe I wasn't supposed to be with her… I'll never know…"

"But still… I'll always feel guilty about this, and don't tell me I shouldn't, I screwed up… even if you can, I can't forgive myself for this…"

Sam didn't answer. She looked pensive.

"There's one thing I don't get though. How come she didn't recognize you? I mean, she wasn't faking I guess, I watched her. Or she's a hell of a good actress, because he gave absolutely no signs of knowing you at all… it was like she was really meeting us for the first time…"

"Maybe I didn't mean as much to her."

"No, Sam. That's impossible. She felt something strong for you too. When she came to me that morning to give her number, she was desperate because she had to leave you. And even more when she found out you weren't there. I saw in her eyes, she really liked you. I mean, I get that she may not think about you much anymore, it's been 6 years after all, but not recognizing you at all? And I met her back then as well, and yesterday she came to talk to me while you were drunk having fun, and said it was really nice meeting me, asked me some stuff about me… it was really like we were first meeting. I don't buy it, Sam. Something is not right here. I wanna know what's going on."

So guys, what do you think happened to Jess? and what do you think Sam will do? you know I need reviews, right?