Sam couldn't stay in. He had a lot on his mind and all he wanted to do was disappear. He didn't wanna see anybody, Jo, Sarah, Dean… He took a quick shower and texted Sarah saying he had to help out a friend and maybe would be away all day long.

He ran into Jo at the door.

"Are you leaving?"

"Yeah… I need to clear my head. I'll be back later."

He turned to her before going out.

"Don't tell anything to Dean about this."

He knew she wouldn't but it was better to be safe than sorry.

"You know I won't say a word."

He gave her a half smile and left. He got into his car and drove aimlessly. He didn't wanna get anywhere specific, he just needed to get away. He drove for a couple of hours, until he stopped by the side of the road in the middle of nowhere. He got out of the car and sat on the hood, it was a sunny day, just like it had been when he first met Jess. Every moment was coming to his mind now. It seemed like a weird dream, for 6 years all he could think about was this girl, wondering if he would ever see her again, what had happened to her, and now there she was… Just as he remembered her, the same beautiful smile, the same look on her eyes, even her voice was exactly as he remembered.

Man, he had fantasized about this moment for so long, what he would do when he finally found her… he was so sure it would be perfect, she would fall in his arms and they would be happily ever after and would tell their grandchildren about their amazing love story. He laughed at the irony, he did find her, but she was his brother's girlfriend now. Someone in heaven must be laughing very hard at him.

And there was still the matter that she didn't remember him. Jo was thinking something was up, but he wasn't so sure. He always wondered if she still thought about him, and know his question was answered. But he had to agree with Jo though, it was odd. 6 years is not a lifetime, she should at least remember meeting him… but acting like she didn't know him at all? All he could think was that he hadn't meant anything to her.

He leaned over the windshield an closed his eyes, feeling the sun warming his skin. A single tear rolled down his face.

It was late in the afternoon and Jo was eating cookies and watching TV when Dean arrived.

"Hey there Joanna Banana, what's up?"

Jo hated when anyone called her like that, but just as Sam only let Dean call him "Sammy", she didn't mind when Dean did it.

"Hey… nothing much, just stayed in all day and finished cleaning the house."

"Where's Sam? His car is not outside"

She saw it coming, it was the first thing he always asked. She had been thinking in what to say to him if Dean got home before he did… she decided to tell him half of the true.

"He went out for a ride… said he was needing it, he should be back soon"

I hope, she added mentally.

"He's alright? I mean, after drinking almost the whole liquor store yesterday…"

She tried to act cool.

"Yeah, he's good… nothing like a hot coffee and a shower to take care of a hangover. He'll survive."

He looked convinced.

"Okay then, I'll take a shower and I hope you made us some nice dinner"

"Sure, I hope you like leftover pizza."

Dean took a shower and came back to the living room eating the cold pizza. He sat by Jo's side on the couch. She saw him getting his phone and texting someone, she had a good idea who it was.

"Sam?"

He shrugged.

"Just wanna know where he is."

She took a peek at his phone to read the answer.

"Will be home in an hour."

That gave her some time to talk to Dean. She turned to him trying to look casual.

"So… Jess seems like a nice girl…"

He smiled at her.

"She is the best… we're still getting to know each other but I can tell she's an amazing girl…"

Sam would agree with you, she thought. She got a text on her phone, and she quickly replied.

"Just a friend. So, you met her at the diner right?"

"Yeah, she works there as a waitress… and we started talking and sharing stories about us."

She was getting to the point she intended.

"She must have some interesting stories…"

"In fact, she does… you'll be shocked when you hear this one…"

Sam was driving back and he was a little afraid to get home. When Dean texted him asking when he was coming back, he knew his brother was home, and was afraid Jess could be there too. So after replying to Dean, he texted Jo.

"Is Jess there?"

If she was, he'd go anywhere but home. But the reply comforted him.

"No, just Dean."

A few minutes later, his phone started ringing again. It was Sarah. He had to talk to her, she didn't have anything to do with any of this.

"Hey baby."

"Hey Sam, where are you?"

"Heading home… I told you, a friend needed help, I'm sorry…"

"No problem, but… are you okay?"

"yeah, I'm fine, just tired and I have a massive headache because of last night… I just need to get home and go to bed… I'm sorry I won't come over tonight baby, I'm really tired."

"Okay… see you tomorrow then?"

He really liked her, but he needed some time, with Jessica back in his life everything was upside down. He would deal with Sarah later.

"Sure thing."

When he got home, Dean was in the living room and he heard Jo in the shower.

"Hey there drunky!"

Sam groaned.

"Shut up, Dean."

"Come on Sam, you were the light of the party yesterday!"

He sat by his side on the couch.

"You should tell my head that. I'm never drinking again."

"Yeah, right."

Dean shifted on the couch to face his brother.

"So tell me, what did you think of Jess? I know you didn't have much time to talk to her, specially after you deciding the tequila bottle was your best friend, but still, did you like her?"

Sam closed his eyes for a moment. He already saw that coming, of course his brother would need his opinion about his girlfriend… he tried not showing any emotions.

"Yeah Dean, she seems pretty cool… but as you said, I didn't have time to get to know her very much…"

"Yeah, but you'll have plenty of time!"

I bet, Sam thought.

"Yeah, I'm sure I am… look, I'm beat, I'll take something for my headache, take a shower and go to bed, tomorrow is a new day."

"Ok, good night, Bitch."

"Shut up, Jerk."

Sam took a long shower and all he wanted to do was get to bed. He wsa getting ready to do so when he heard a knock on the door.

"Sam, it's me" it was Jo's voice. "Let me in, I wanna talk to you!"

Oh God, now what?

"Come in."

She entered the room and sat on the bed, he followed her.

"I talked to Dean today."

"So?"

"He told me some stuff about Jess, you know…"

"What is it?"

"I know why she doesn't remember you, Sam."

"What? Did you tell Dean something? But…"

He had just talked to Dean, he clearly didn't know anything… she raised a hand to stop him.

"No, I didn't tell him anything, of course. But he told me something quite interesting about her…"

"I'm all ears."

"She didn't forget about you, Sam. I mean, she did obviously, but it was not on purpose."

Sam wasn't even breathing.

"What on earth are you talking about, Jo?"

She grabbed his arm.

"She lost her memory Sam! Dean told me that a little more than 5 years ago she had an accident, she dove head first in a lake and hit her head on a rock. She had a head trauma and lost part of her memory then, not all of it though. A part of her life disappeared, specifically everything that happened in the previous 5 years from the accident."

He wasn't blinking.

"Are you serious about this, Jo? You're joking, right?"

"Do you really think I'd joke about something like that, Sam? Of course I'm dead serious!"

"I can't believe this…"

"It's true. She doesn't remember you, but not because she chose to. She really can't remember you. If the accident happened a little more than 5 years ago, that means it was a few months after you met her. And that means that weekend was erased among 5 years of memories."

"Oh my God…"

She waited for him to say something. He let out a breath he didn't even know he was holding.

"I… I need to think about all this I guess…"

Jo got up from the bed and kissed him on the cheek.

"I'll leave you alone. Good night."

She closed the door leaving him with a thousand of thoughts. He had to admit he was a little relieved with the fact that she hadn't forgotten about him, at least not intentionally… but he couldn't believe this, she didn't remember meeting him, didn't remember the time they spent together, anything… he felt a hole in his heart, he had no idea what to do, if he should tell her and tell Dean… everything about this whole thing was getting more and more absurd…

Sam woke up on Sunday morning but he hadn't slept much. He spent almost all night long thinking about everything and he was feeling worse than ever. But he decided to go see Sarah, she had nothing to do with any of this and he needed to clear his mind for a while.

He found Jo in the living room.

"Are you going out again?"

"Yeah, I'm gonna see Sarah, I've been neglecting her for a while, it's not fair to her…"

"Have you decided what you're gonna do?"

He sighed.

"No idea."

She stared at him.

"You need to tell him, Sam."

"I know… I just need to pick up the courage to do it."

"He'll understand, it's not your fault, it just happened."

"Yeah, I know… where is he, by the way?"

"He… went out with her. Said they had planned to spend the day together."

He nodded.

"Okay… maybe I'll talk to him tonight then."

He turned to leave. Jo called him.

"What?"

"He will understand, you know?"

He didn't answer.

Sam spent the whole day with Sarah, he tried to make it up to her for the past days, for not giving her enough attention. And he tried to clear his mind of everything that was going on, he didn't wanna think about the talk he had to have with Dean later…

He drop her off at evening and drove home. His hand were sweating, he was getting closer to face Dean and it wouldn't be an easy talk… he got home and saw the Impala parked in front of the apartment. He prayed Jess was not there.

He got in, and found Dean alone.

"Hey man!"

"Hey… is Jo home?"

"No, she went out with some friends…"

He took a really deep breath. This was it. He sat on the couch facing Dean.

"Dean, I… wanted to talk to you."

Sooo, what did you think? You like the story so far? How do you think this conversation is gonna be? I need reviews, you know it!

(btw, I wanna thank Julia for helping me choose Jo's nickname ;) )