Dean put the beer bottle he had been holding on the coffee table.

"Sure man, what's up?"

Sam felt he needed a little more time to pick up more courage and decided to have a small talk first.

"So… how was your day with Jess?"

Dean's face lightened up immediately. There was a sparkle in his eyes and he opened up the biggest smile.

"It was awesome Sammy, we spent the most amazing day together! I can't believe I've found this girl, I really feel something different for her, you know? I mean, you know me, before… what happened, I was a one-night stand type of guy, didn't wanna get attached to anyone, but it's different with her, I really wanna keep this girl… I mean, she doesn't mind at all about my leg, she saw it and didn't think it was a big deal… I never thought I'd find a girl that didn't care about it… but I'm not with her just because of that of course… she's amazing Sammy, you have no idea…"

Sam's heart clenched. He lost all the courage he had gathered after hearing his brother's words.

"Anyway, what you wanted to talk to me about, Sam?"

Sam stuttered.

"I… just…" His hands were sweating. He just couldn't do it right now. "I wanted to say I'm very happy for you."

Dean smiled again.

"Thank you Sammy! I'm happy for myself too!"

Sam snorted.

"You suck."

"And you're a bitch."

Sam locked himself in his room. He had no idea what to do, his brother was finally happy and he was about to ruin that. He was a coward, he wasn't able to tell his brother the truth… He spent a few hours alone and thinking about everything, and what he was supposed to do. After doing a lot of thinking, he finally made a decision.

He heard a knock on the door followed by Jo's voice.

"Can I come in?"

"Yes."

She entered the room and sat on the bed by his side.

"So, how did things go? Did you talk to Dean? Did you tell him everything?"

Sam didn't look at her.

"No."

"Why not? You missed him? Are you doing it later?"

He got up from the bed and went to the window. He couldn't face her.

"No, Jo. I'm not telling him anything."

She got up too.

"I'm sorry I must be hallucinating, for a second I thought you said you're not telling Dean anything."

Sam turned to her.

"You heard correctly. I'm not gonna tell Dean about my past with Jess."

Jo approached him.

"Sam, are you out of your mind? Why the hell are you doing this?"

Sam sat back on the bed and rested his elbows on his knees.

"You should see the look on his face when he was telling me about his day with Jess. His face lit up, he was so happy, Jo. My brother is finally happy after everything he went through, he found a girl that likes him for who he is, and I'm gonna ruin everything by telling him the truth!"

"So, you're feeling sorry for him? Is that it Sam? You think no other girl but Jess will like him just because he lost a leg?"

"Of course not, Jo! There's no reason why I should feel sorry for my brother, he doesn't need that. And I know there are tons of other girls who would love to be with him, but he likes Jessica." He took a deep breath. "Jo. You know how Dean used to be. He never wanted anything serious with anyone, he was all about the one-night stands. But now he's different, and Jess is the first girl that made him feel this way. I don't want to be responsible for ruining that, I can't do that!"

Jo reached for his hand.

"Sam, it's not your fault. It was destiny playing a trick on you, that's all. Dean will understand that."

"I know he will, Jo. That's the problem. He will understand and he's gonna let go of Jess because of me. He's gonna give up on his happiness because of me. And how do you expect me to be okay with that? How do you expect me to be with her, to show her off as my girlfriend in front of him? To make him sleep in the next room, while we're sleeping together? Dean always put my happiness before everything else, and if I tell him the truth, he's gonna step back and do that once again. But that will make him miserable, I know that. How can I do that to my brother? He doesn't deserve that Jo. He has done so much for me, ever since I was a child. Now it's my turn to give up on something for him."

Jo's eyes were pleading.

"I understand that Sam, but that means you get to suffer instead. You're the one who get to sleep in the next room, you get to see Dean with her everyday. You think Dean would like that?"

"I guess I'll have to suck it up." He closed his eyes and rubbed his hand on his face. "Jo, I love Jess, you know that. She's the love of my life, everything I ever wanted. But Dean is my brother. It's simple as that. I'm gonna put his happiness first, just like he always did for me."

"What about Jess in all of this?"

"Well, it's not like she's gonna suffer, right? She doesn't know anything, she doesn't remember me at all, she's not aware of the fact we even know each other. And she doesn't have to know. I'm just gonna be her brother-in-law"

"Sam…"

He raised a hand to stop her.

"Jo, please. I already made my decision. Dean will never know anything about this."

"But what if this was a sign, she came back for you through Dean…"

"Jo, I don't care what this is, if it's a sign or not, I won't do that to my brother."

She insisted.

"So, are you just gonna give up on the love of your life? What if Dean ends up marrying her? What if they start a family, have kids?"

Sam felt a lump on his throat.

"I guess I'll have to do the same… with someone else. Maybe Sarah, who knows…"

"Sam…"

"Jo, the decision is made. It's not opened for discussions. And I have a request for you. Jo, you are the only person who knows the truth. All the people that went camping with us are long gone, I don't talk to any of them anymore. Only you know that I met Jess before and what she means to me. You have to promise me you'll keep this secret, you'll never tell anyone about this. Of course, specially Dean and Jess. Please Jo, I trust you. Promise me."

She took a deep breath.

"I don't agree with this. At all. I think you're making a huge mistake, and if Dean finds out eventually, he will be very mad with the fact that you hid this from him. But that's your business and your decision. If that's what you truly wants, I'll do as you ask. I'll never say anything about any of this. I promise."

Sam put an arm around her.

"Thank you. So much."

They stayed in silence for a while until Jo breaks it.

"I guess I'll leave you alone to sleep now."

"Ok. Thank you Jo."

She stopped at the door.

"Are you ok?"

He gave her a half smile.

"No. But I'll be eventually."

Sam lay on the bed and the tears he had been holding during the entire conversation with Jo, were now running freely down his face. His heart was broken, he had made the hardest decision of his life, but what was he supposed to do? Take Jess from his brother? Let him feeling miserable? He couldn't do that to him.

He cursed himself for never telling Dean about Jess. If he had, if Dean knew how he felt about this girl, if he had seen her picture, the moment he set his eyes on her for the first time, he would know that was Jess, the love of Sam's life, and the first thing he would have done was bring her to him, he wouldn't have had time to fall for her… and everything would be much easier. Even with the memory loss, Sam would make her fall in love with him again. Now he would have to pay the price for hiding the truth from his brother. And it was a high price to pay. He had no idea how he was going to live with Jess on a daily-basis having to watch her with Dean. But he would do it, for him. His brother deserved to be happy, specially after everything he went through. He just deserved it.

Sam woke up in the morning and he didn't even remembered at what point he had fallen asleep. His eyes were puffy and red. He took a shower and was glad Dean and Jo had already left for work and college, so neither of them had to see his miserable face. He arrived at the campus and found Sarah. She came towards him and kissed him.

"Are you okay, Sam? You don't look too well…"

He tried to smile at her.

"I'm fine baby, I just couldn't sleep very well last night."

She took his hand.

"Are you sure, Sam? You've been acting weird lately… I'm worried about you."

"I'm fine, really Sarah. Thanks for your concern but you don't need to worry about me, I'll be fine."

He decided he would do anything for his relationship with Sarah to work, maybe she would make him forget about Jess… he knew it was impossible, but he could at least give it a try. He put his arm around her, kissed the top of her head and they went to class together.

Jess was sitting on the couch, staring at the tv, but not really watching her. Anne, her sister, approached her.

"A penny for your thoughts?"

Jess jumped.

"Wow, I didn't see you!"

She laughed.

"Yeah, I realized!" she sat beside her. "What's on your mind? Your lovely new boyfriend Dean?"

She blinked several times and tried to put on a romantic face, but it came out pathetic. Jess pushed her.

"Shut up. And he is lovely, okay? I'm glad I met him, he's perfect."

"Yeah… not entirely, right?"

Jess stared at her.

"What, are you talking about his leg? You know I don't care about that! It actually makes him more vulnerable, that's sexy…"

"I'm just messing with you little sis, I know it's not a big deal. He seems very nice too, and I'm wondering how long it's gonna take for you to bring him here so I can finally meet him! I mean, you met his family already!"

"Yes… I did… met his younger sister and brother…"

Her face changed and Anne noticed it.

"What? Something wrong about his siblings?"

"No, not at all, I just talked to them briefly but they seem very nice people… it's just…"

"Just what, Jess?"

She looked away from her sister.

"I don't know Anne. I have this weird feeling about his brother, Sam… I feel like I've met him before, somehow."

Sooo, what did you think about Sam's decision, and what do you think it's gonna happen now? please let me know, I'm very curious!