Aren't you all glad I posted early? Lol okay so I've got NEWS! :I don;t know whether to be disappointed that I wasn't a realy good person to cover up the his point of view identity, or to fee proud that You guys guessed right! "HIS POINT OF VIEW" IS TALKING ABOUT HALFPAWW! CONGRTULATIONS EVERYBODY! You all get a free chapter 5 from me lol. Be grateful...oh I know you are!

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Waterpaw's Point of view

I padded silently towards Thunderclan border. After Shadowpaw had escorted us out, I stayed behind and let Liontail continue. Well, turns out Halfpaw followed me and wanted to tell me that Shadowpaw couldn't come tonight. But…couldn't Shadowpaw just have told me when he escorted me out? That was the question.

Shadowpaw also said the kit was confused. I wasn't so sure. Something was definitely going on.

"Hey," I jumped up as I heard a husky voice that belonged to Shadowpaw. Now I was even more confused, "Is this bothering you? Meeting like this?"

"No…but we can't keep it up for long," I leaped over a rock and landed next to him. I tilted my head, "You look different."

He shuffled and directed his eyes to the river, "Oh really?"

I wrinkled my nose, "You smile different too."

He brought his eyes back to me and said, "Yeah. I passed through an herb patch on my way here."

I met his muzzle with mine and laughed, "Yeah, I can definitely tell. Can-."

"Waterpaw?" I heard a voice that also sounded a lot like Shadowpaw's, "I thought I—Halfpaw? What are you doing here?"

Halfpaw? I pulled back and looked at the cat who just spoke. That looked like the real Shdowpaw. So Halfpaw was the one I was standing next to? What?

"What is going on?" This seemed like a good time to bring the other subject up, "The kit in your clan said-."

"I told you, she gets mixed up a lot," Halfpaw said next to me.

I moved away from both of them, "I? I thought Shadowpaw told me she got mixed up…what's going on?"

"Waterpaw, maybe not tonight. There's a lot of stuff," Shadowpaw started to say.

I interrupted him, "No. I want to know now," I snapped, "What are you doing?"

My heart was confused. Which one's which? It seemed like the one from earlier was Halfpaw. Then why did he come as Shadowpaw?

Shadowpaw glared at Halfpaw, "What are you doing here?"

"Talk about that later," I raised my voice to show how serious I was. I wanted answers now. It was like my heart was running out of time, wondering who it should love…who to seek…and right now, neither of them had my heart, "I want answers now."

Halfpaw padded to me and started calmly, "I was born with a crest. My dad hated it so I covered it up. Covering it up made Shadowpaw and I look like each other and as kits we would fool others into thinking we were one another-."

My eyes widend, "So you wanted to fool me too…"

"No, Waterpaw, it wasn't like that," Halfpaw panicked. He watched me carefully as he kept on explaining, "I don't cover up the crest at night, that's how you knew me by. But when you came this morning, I had it covered. And I knew you and Shadowpaw were passionate about each other so the only I could express my feelings was to pretend to be him…"

I gazed back at Halfpaw through narrowed eyes, "So Shadowpaw walked me in, Shdowpaw was helping the medicine cat, and Shadowpaw told me he couldn't come tonight. But you walked me out, you told the kit to come to me, you lied to me. Then tonight, you pretended to be your brother."

He dropped his eyes, "I knew Shadowpaw had the upper hand. I thought I could…"

I turned to Shadowpaw, "You knew this too?"

"But I-."

"You knew," my tone had a deadly edge to it. Everything tensed.

"Yes."

I closed my eyes, "I am such an idiot. I just…I can't believe this," tears slipped out of my closed eyes, "Both of you…thought you could just play with me and my feelings-"

"Waterpaw-."

"Because I'm just a stupid idiotic Riverclan cat that doesn't even know how to defend herself…I am such an idiot," somewhere in my chest, something broke. And it hurt. Physically and emotionally. Now I opened my eyes and looked Halfpaw in the eyes, "You felt something and you lied to me, pretended to be someone else. Do you think that means something?"

Halfpaw stared at me wide-eyed, "I knew I didn't have a chance-."

"Have some pride," I whispered, "I might be an idiot but I'm a little smart. I have feelings. And…," I turned to Shadowpaw, "You…," there were no words whatsoever.

I was done with him. Whatever left over feeling I had for him, was gone. Or I couldn't find it. My chest hurt so badly I wanted to collapse.

I turned around with tears in my eyes and started to walk away.

"Waterpaw!" their voices mixed together as they both stood on both side of me, their pelts brushing mine.

I shipped around, angry by the touch, "Leave me alone! You have ruined everything I believed in and because of you two I just realized that love is a big waste of time! Just stay out of my clan, and my life. Please…"

I ran and paused turning back. I hoped they could hear me over the tears, "Good luck with your competition. I hope you have a good life together."

I ran full speed. Halfpaw caught up to me but I whipped around and clawed him, not even looking back, I fled for my own clan. Where everything was safe and fine. Where Shinningstar would be waiting for me. No one would tear me apart like a piece of trash.

I felt the air leave my lungs as I fell down. A heavy body had crushed into me. I got up and shook my pelt, hissing at anything that dared come close.

"Waterpaw…," Shinningstar called softly.

I turned around and wiped everything away before turning back to her, "Hey, what are you doing up?"

She purred sadly and flanked me, "Surely not meeting two Thunderclan toms."

The left over pieces of my heart skipped a beat, "Shinningstar…"

"It's fine Waterpaw," she licked my muzzle and smiled down at me, "It's over now. I heard everything," before I could ask, she continued, "You were acting different, Firepaw reported you went missing at night…I know how it goes."

Before I knew it the tears started splashing again. Shadowpaw…even Halfpaw…how could they? Why couldn't everything just go perfectly in my own clan without me ever meeting them?

I looked up at the stars as I shook with tears, "Happy Starclan? Everything's gone."

Shinningstar and I stood there for a little while until I stopped crying. She smiled, "I have news."

Now I had another problem. I knew what she was going to say. Of course it had been too long since our last visit to them. They always complained. They left Clan life for a rogue life.

"Mom and dad say we have to visit soon. Their end is coming and they want to see us one last time."

No…first Halfpaw and Shadowpaw. Then Shinningstar finding out. And now, my parents. Was I ready to go on another journey, this one even longer than the first? Was I ready to face them emotionally, even after what just happened with Halfpaw?

How did my life get complicated so fast?

It's all their fault: Shadowpaw and Halfpaw.

I wish I'd never met them. They made me fall blissfully, then made me crash down painfully. I wasn't ready for another one with my parents.

"Shinningstar, do you think-."

"No," she was back into full leader mode, "You will go."

I nodded. I didn't feel like arguing. I felt like curling up next to Shadowpaw. But the tiniest, smallest fragment of my heart broke: they will never be here.

I want them.

I don't want them.

I hate them both!

I followed Shinningstar to her den, "Here," she made bedding for me. I murmured my thanks and collapsed on the moss.

As I fell asleep, I knew I didn't hate either of them. But I didn't like how my heart felt like it was being ripped out, clawed, and shredded by Halfpaw. And it was only Halfpaw. With Shadowpaw, I just felt betrayed, but now I'd gotten over it. But with Halfpaw, it hurt more than Shdowpaw's. I closed my eyes and remembered his soft, amber eyes, lying straight to my face like it was nothing.

Of course it was nothing. Halfpaw and Shadowpaw were just playing with me and happened to feel bad in the end. Feeling bad helps nothing. All I could think was: Halfpaw. It wasn't even a sentence. Just a pathetic little cry in my head. Until I felt Shinningstar's tail on my shoulder, I wouldn't have known I'd actually said his name out loud. I want to know why he's the one inside my head and not Shadowpaw.

Halfpaw's point of view.

I made her cry. And now she's gone.

Shadowpaw's point of view

We broke her. And she left. It was about time too. I was getting sick and tired of competing with someone whose head was wrapped around some silly she-cat from another clan. She was gone.

Now the real fight begins.

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