The Mysteries of This Life
Chapter 16: Home isn't Home Anymore
I stared up at the ceiling through my eyelashes. My eyes were only open enough for me to do that. If you looked at me, you wouldn't be able to tell I had my eyes open in the slightest. I felt so horrible for yelling at Uryu like that. I felt bad a bout yelling at Mizuiro and Ichigo too. I didn't know why I had done that. Yoko was floating by my bed. She stared at me like I was dead. I heard the door creak open slowly. I didn't bother to look up as someone entered my room. I didn't even move. I didn't move when someone sat on my bed either.
"Yamasorrowichi? Are you sick?" I didn't answer my dad. "Maybe I should go make you some soup." I jolted up into a sitting position and my eyes shot open fully.
"! I'm sorry daddy but you can't cook." He gave me a weird look. "What?"
"You called me daddy. You haven't done that since you were little. Come to think of it, it was shortly after your mother's funeral that you stopped." I stared at him for a while. Tears filled my eyes as I stared at him in silence. The tears started flowing down my cheeks and I jumped into his arms. He held me close as I sobbed into his shoulder. After a while he started to sing a song that my mother always sang to me when I wasn't completely happy. After a while I couldn't take it anymore.
"Daddy you don't sing good enough to do this song justice. Mommy is the only one that sings perfectly enough for this. Please stop." He stopped and started patting my back. "I miss her daddy. I really do. I can't help but cry just this once. Anytime I was crying before was out of joy or distress. This is the first time I'm crying out of sadness since I stopped calling you daddy. I always held my tears back because I thought id let her down and make her spirit sad if I would cry from sadness. I'm sorry for crying and being so sad mommy. I'm sorry. I just miss you too much. Please don't be sad. Please. I'm sorry for anything I did wrong. I'm so sorry." I continued to cry and my father gently kept talking to me.
"Let it all out my sweet little girl. Let it all out. Cry as much as you need to."
"Why did that person have to kill you? Why? Why did he kill you and leave me there? Why? He saw me there. Why did he leave me alone? Why did he kill you in front of me? I was only 3. I remember it so clearly though. I miss you mommy! I want you to be back. I want to see you and talk to you and hug you. Mommy! Mommy why'd you have to go? Why couldn't your spirit stay? I wish I could see you. I wish I could be with you. I miss you so much mommy. I wish you were still here. You made me and daddy so much happier. I miss you mommy. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you so much." I kept crying.
"Yamasorrowichi. I know you miss her. I miss her too. It's a terrible amount. I wish she were here with us again but she isn't. She can't be. You can cry whenever you want. Don't hold it back anymore. She won't be sad that you're crying. She will accept that it's a part of life for you to cry. She would want you to cry when you want and to live your life to the fullest. She would want you to enjoy your life as you live it. Crying is something that you can't avoid. It's something that happens inside every human. Just cry if you want to. If a boy makes you cry, tell me who he is so I can kill him." I chuckled lightly at his joke and kept crying. "Just don't always try to hold back your tears. Don't live life without any joy. Live life as full as you can. Do it and you're mother will be happy. I don't know where she is. All I know is that if she saw what a beautiful, intelligent, and talented young woman you've become, she'd be very happy and very very proud of you. I love you Yamasorrowichi. Would you like to make a craft of some kind to make you feel better?" I stopped crying as he told me that. I looked up at him.
"I love you too daddy. And crafts sound good. We should sew something like a tapestry for modern homes that reflect middle class, lower class, and poverty stricken families. And after that we should make a tapestry that reflects the same style but with a picture of mommy on it in place of a design."
"How about I buy the things and watch what you do?" I laughed lightly.
"Ok. That'll work." We walked out of my room. Yoko followed us out and we went to buy the things I needed for my little craft projects. "Wanna know something funny daddy?" I asked as we walked down the hall of our house.
"What is it Yamasorrowichi?"
"I joined the crafts club and we were going to start making sewing projects to take home with us and work on. I can use the tapestries as my project."
"Then you need to definitely keep me out of the sewing. Otherwise you'll get laughed at." I smiled up at him.
"Ok. So we need to get certain things." I named a list of the things I needed as we walked out of the house.
(A/N: So that was chapter 16. I know it's sad. And I know that you're gonna think Yamasorrowichi and her dad are OOC but they aren't. I made them so I know. Uhm. Review and you get 20 points. The next chapter is the royal family. I know I left them out for so long but I didn't want to reveal this thing yet. But I wrote this chapter and thought it would totally fit in. Guess what! It's a serious chapter too! I'm sorry but it has to be done. Anyways… I don't own Bleach. I only own Yamasorrowichi, her dad, and Yoko. This chapter song is You're Not Alone by Saosin. It's a sad song which may explain why this chapter is so sad… Oh well. Anyways... Please review. Have a great day!)