A/N: So, another update today. Enjoy! :)
Tracer0403: that's a really good idea. I think I'll do something with that :)
Casey didn't have the opportunity to talk to her mother the rest of the evening. Casey had shown the house to Alex, but they were done really quick, because there was simply not that much room. The weather was nice, so they decided to sit in the backyard around a little campfire. After an hour they heard a car parking in front of the house. A couple of minutes later Chris walked into the backyard.
"I heard you were visiting, so I thought, it would be nice the drop by." he smiled.
After he had said everyone hi, Evelyn got up.
"I'm sure you're thirsty, Chris. Case, can you help me in the kitchen?" she said. Casey saw the opportunity to talk to her alone, so she followed her mother into the house.
Casey leaned to the counter. She struggled with her words. She didn't know how to phrase her concern. Should she just ask explicitly or implicitly?
"Mom.. what do you think of Alex?" she decided that would be the best question for now.
Her mother turned around to face Casey. "Why are you asking, honey?"
"Because.. I get the feeling you don't approve her." she hesitated while she said that.
"Why?" Her mother frowned.
"Because you gave me that look. Just tell me. I can handle it." she added.
"Okay, don't get me wrong, I like her, but.." she sighed. "I don't know if she's playing nice or she is nice." she emphasized the word 'is'. "Because when you told me about her the first time, the woman you took her job from, because she died.. The fact she was an Ice Queen.. And everything you told me about her. I didn't get the feeling that you liked her that much. Actually, I thought you hated her. And now it turns out you're dating her. Or whatever you do. I don't get it, Case. What did she do to win you over?" she looked very seriously. Casey had expected this reaction.
Casey sighed. She didn't know if she should answer that. The truth was, that they had sex in her office that one night, but she kind of had the feeling she couldn't say that to her mother. She accepted her as a lesbian, but she didn't know if she could handle her daughter having sex with another woman. Although she must have known that she did, saying it was another thing.
"Mom, I can't tell you what made me change my mind. You can't handle that. Can you trust me?" Casey asked. She saw the hesitation in her mother's eyes, but she saw also that she understood. Did she understood what changed her mind or just that she didn't want to tell her? What was it?
"I guess I have no choice, Case. If you don't want to tell me, I'm not gonna force you to say it." she looked a bit sad. "You know, when you were a little kid, I always thought you would marry a guy and have a few children and be a stay-at-home mom. But now you turn out to be the exact opposite of those things. You're unmarried, you are into a relationship with a woman, have no children and work is your life. It's not that I'm not proud of you, because believe me, I am. It's just that I don't see you that often and it's like I'm losing you. I don't know you anymore. You don't tell me everything like you did when you were just a kid. That's really difficult to me, Case. You don't let me into your life anymore. And I don't know if that's because you're a lesbian or your work or whatever, but I want to know, because I want to know you again. I don't want to lose my daughter."
"I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. I promise I will let you in my life a little more from now on. But it's not that I don't want to tell you why I changed my mind about Alex.. it's just that I thought you didn't want to know. I mean, you accept my as a lesbian, be I don't know if you really understand. Because being a lesbian also means you sleep with women. And I just thought you couldn't handle knowing that.. I fell for Alex because I slept with her once.. And we didn't stop doing that.. because it was amazing.. And I fell in love with her. And we're together for six months now.."
"I think it's always hard for a parent to realize your daughter is sharing her bed with someone else." her mother sighed. "Does she love you?"
"Yes. She said she loved me, and I believe her. She asked me to move in with her.." she stared at her feet.
"Do you love her back?"
"Yes. I've never loved anyone like this before." Casey admitted.
"What did you say to her?"
"That I had to think about it. It's too soon. And I wanted her to meet my parents before I made a decision. I wanted you to approve of her." Casey looked up. She saw her mother had tears in her eyes.
"Casey.. It's your life. You don't need our approval. But I must admit that I'm flattered. And if you're ready, it's never too soon.." her mother said. "Case, you're just scared to commit. When you were a little girl, you never wanted friends to get so close. You barely took them home. You were a very lonely girl back then, because you never let someone in. Now you're grown-up and you're still scared. This woman loves you and you love her back. You don't have to be scared."
"You're right. But what if I move in with her and she's so annoyed by my presence and leaves me? I don't want to ruin it."
"You won't. Do you spend a lot of time together right now?"
"I sleep at her place almost every night."
"Then you practically live together. What's the problem?"
"I don't know."
"Talk to her about it. I'm sure you work things out." she pulled Casey into a hug. "So, let's go back outside, before they think we're kidnapped."
"Yeah, that seems like a good idea to me."
Casey laid on Alex's chest on her bed, her left leg between Alex's. It was almost 2 AM. They had a really nice evening and just went to bed. Casey made little circles on Alex's stomach with her finger.
"Did you like it today, Lex?" she asked.
"Yeah, your parents are nice. I had a lot of fun. I had no reason to be nervous." she kissed the top of Casey's head.
"Alex? Do you think I will ruin what we have if I move in with you?" Casey hesitated when she asked.
"No. Why would you think that?" Alex seemed surprised.
"Because I think you will hate me."
"I won't, Case. I never will. And even if I will hate you, I will love you even so. You have nothing to be scared of." Alex ran her finger nails across Casey's back.
"You think?"
"Of course."
"Okay. I'll do it." Casey said.
"Moving in?"
"Yes. I mean.. I love you.. and I want to be with you. It's just that I thought you wouldn't like me when we did. And maybe it's too soon. But I don't know. We could try."
Alex pulled Casey in for a kiss. "I love you. We're gonna live together." she smiled.
"Do you know that you're really sexy when you look like this?"
"Oh, do I, counselor?" Alex smirked.
"Yes, you do. And especially because you're in my childhood zone. I think I never had a woman this beautiful in this room." her eyes glistened.
"Well, you must be really thrilled right now."
"You bet I am, counselor." she kissed Alex tender, but Alex wanted more. She kissed her back more passionate, deepening the kiss. Alex flipped them over, running her hands up her sides, stripping of her pajama shirt.
"I'm so happy to have you." Alex breathed.
"Good. Because I'm not easy to have." Casey teased.
"You know I don't like it easy. That's why I work at SVU." Alex answered and kissed Casey again..
