Chapter 3: Apologizing With Tears
[Kyo's P.O.V]
'Where is Tohru? She is usually up by now, she is probably still sleeping.' Kyo thought to himself. He was glad Rika gave him the money yesterday. He was finally able to buy the expensive necklace that he wanted to give to Tohru. He only hoped she would like it as much as he did. Today was the day he admitted everything to Tohru, despite her recent lack of emotions.
Yes, today was the day Kyo was going to confess to his beloved Tohru. He was going to tell her everything about Rika and his emotions. Kyo was just so happy all of the sudden and decided he should go and wake up Tohru; otherwise they'd be late for class.
He reaches he room and opens her door, only to find Tohru not there. But as he looks around, something catches his eye. There were 3 neatly sealed envelopes on her desk, each with one of the boys' names on them. Kyo finds his and decides to open it, curious of its contents. He opens it and begins to read Tohru's neat hand writing.
Dear Kyo,
You may not know this, but I love you. You were the only one I had ever wanted, but I couldn't confess. Not when you are dating such a horrible girl who caused me pain. But don't worry, my suffering is over now. After being bullied at school, abused by Rika and Mai, and constantly ignored, I have decided that it's time to move along and end this cruel treatment. Please do not blame yourself for my decision, it was nothing you did. I can promise that much.
Anyways, sadly by the time you find this letter, I'll be long gone. I ended it all; this sad and cruel life no longer haunts me and I am free.
'I painted you a pretty picture, but my picture has a twist. You see my paint brush is a blade of choice and the canvas is my wrist. I hope you like my pretty picture painted with my pain. You can still find my blade of choice and all the tears that it started to rain.'
Goodbye Kyo, I will always love you and I hope that we can meet again sometime soon.
Sincerely,
Your invisible lover, Tohru.
Tears fall onto the note Tohru left, Kyo can't help but cry. He throws down the note and searches for Tohru in her room. As he opens her closet door, he stares in shock and horror at the bloody mess. Kyo panics and tries to find a pulse anywhere on her broken body, but finds none. He looks on the floor and finds an open pill bottle, almost emptied of the strong antibiotics inside. Was this her way of solving everything? What happened to her talking to people about her problems?
Kyo only cried more and looked upon Tohru's scarred wrists. His name was carved into her skin, into her vital vein. Did he really mean so much to her? Why hadn't he noticed sooner? Kyo hid his face in his hands and let the tears flow from his puffy red eyes. After crying for what seemed like hours, he gathered the strength to pick up her lifeless and cold body. He carried her down stairs and walked into the room Yuki and Shigure were currently in.
Yuki and Shigure just stare in shock at Tohru's lifeless body in Kyo's arms. Shigure starts crying and Yuki hangs his head down so no one can see him cry too. Kyo just walked over and laid her body upon the couch.
"Our beautiful little flower… has wilted from the lack of love and care…" Shigure spoke up. This made all of them think deeply. Where had they gone wrong? What had made her take her own life?
Yuki's anger starts up and he begins to blame Kyo for all this. But Yuki knew Kyo wasn't to blame, it just felt better blaming someone else.
"It's not my fault!" Kyo yelled, "It's not my fault!" Everyone knew it wasn't his fault. It was all there faults. Not once did they think about Tohru and how she was doing. They always thought she was okay and they never bothered to ask if anything was wrong.
Kyo is angered at this point and walks up to Yuki. He gives Yuki one punch to the face and sends him flying, finally defeating the rat. Yuki just sits up and once again and looks at the lifeless Tohru. Everyone almost had forgotten that she was laying there. The silence was broken by Shigure whom had called the rest of the Sohma's to tell them of Tohru's passing…
[Yuki's P.O.V]
'I was foolish to ignore Tohru and leave her to fend for herself. How was I supposed to know Mai was abusing her? How was I supposed to know her life was hell?' Yuki wondered to himself. Tohru hadn't spoken to him much anymore. She'd only smile at him and move on with her life. Not once had she said anything to him about the cruel treatment she had been receiving.
Yuki starts to cry silent tears and covers his face in his hands. He felt terrible for not being there for her when she needed it the most. He then makes a quick phone call and breaks up with Mai. How could he stay with one of the girls who had caused Tohru to take her own life? Yuki was angered, sad, guilty, and hurt all at the same time. He just felt the need to scream out to the cruel world, but decided against it knowing that he'd seem weak if he did so. The rat then punched the wall to channel his anger and walked into another room, not wanting to look at the lifeless body on the couch any longer.
It just hurt far too much and he couldn't handle the pain it caused him. ..
~Time skip to funeral~
[Kyo's P.O.V]
'I've lost the one person who meant the most to me, the one person who I trusted with my entire life. How could I have been so stupid? Why didn't I realize anything sooner? Maybe if I hadn't been so blind, she would still be here with me…' Kyo thought to himself.
Kyo then puts on his black suit and finishes getting ready for the event that shattered his heart. Yuki, Shigure, and Kyo all met up downstairs and began their walk to the place Tohru's funeral was being held. As they walked outside, they saw the sky could up and it began to rain. Kyo hated the rain, but he knew that he could handle this for Tohru's sake. He reached into his pocket to make sure the necklace box was there; which to his relief it was.
[Normal P.O.V]
All boys began their walk and arrived at their destination soon enough. Uo and Hana see the group of men, along with some of the other Sohma's, and walk over towards them. Tears poured from their eyes as the preacher started his speech about Tohru. Such a young, sweet, and beautiful girl laid on her death bed at only 17 years old. The preacher left flowers upon her grave and took his leave so that her friends could say their own words.
First up were Uo and Hana. After they shared their words and tears, they placed flowers and a picture of Kyoko upon Tohru's grave. Then after them, everyone else began to say their words and laid their flowers and other items upon her grave. Everyone had started to leave the funeral session, everyone besides Kyo.
As soon as he was sure everyone had left, he set the necklace box on her grave. Tears fell down his face and he fell to his knees, holding his head in the palm of his hands. Once he calmed down a little bit, he began to talk to Tohru's grave as if she could actually hear him. He told her everything he'd been hiding. He even told her how much he loved her and wanted a future together with her. The rain only fell harder, making it harder to tell he was crying.
After he was done admitting everything to her grave, he wiped his eyes and laid down next to her grave. He closed his tear filled eyes and let sleep take over, not caring he was laying in the cold rain.
[The ghost of Tohru's P.O.V]
I saw Kyo at my funeral today, he told me why he was dating Rika, that he loved me, and how sorry he was. I couldn't help but smile as tears fell down my face. This is one of those times I regret doing what I did, but it was the only way to save myself from madness. All I can do now is hope that we will meet again soon because I don't believe in goodbye's…
Well I hope you all liked this chapter kind of made me cry a bit while writing it. I am probably going to write 1 or 2 more chapters of this so yea. Hope you liked it! See you all next time. (: