Okay, Updated fairly quickly because i really am sorry about the small chapter- Especially when i realised that this chapter literally just leads straight from it so they could have been put together. Oh well. Here goes.

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Continues directly from last chapter. sorry about that, again.

Chapter 16: Memories

I shuffled round the corridors angrily walking until I found the library; the quiet peaceful library.

I walked in and inhaled the ancient books happily; it had been almost a week since I'd been in here last. I looked around like it'd been months. I was about to sit down where I normally sat (down at the very back next to the really, really old leather bound books; Closest table to the restricted section.

I'd been in the restricted section 3 times before. It was third year and I'd been in the common room when I found a lone book on the surface of one of the table- it was a book about the Animagus.

Everything about it looked forbidden and dangerous- so naturally despite the prickle on the back of my neck I opened it and lost myself in it. I took it back to my dormitory where I read it all the way through- cover to cover- though in third year a lot of it was too difficult for me to actually fully understand.

I'd known it was from the Forbidden Restricted section the moment my fingers touched it- it made me curious- Who had taken it out? Why? Were they planning to become an illegal animagus or were they just fascinated by the whole shape-shifting business? If so, why had they just left it out, for anybody to pick up and see? Or had they just forgotten it- were they coming back for it?

I was haunted by the unanswered questions- what's more I started to want to become an animagus illegally after reading the book. I even started to get some of the ingredients together but then Lily stopped me.

She was furious. She'd 'found' the book under my pillow and noticed I was sneaking around and she went mad at me. She lectured me for a whole hour on the consequences of my actions and why I shouldn't jump into stuff because it 'looks like fun'.

I'd never been told off like that by anyone except my mother- That was the year Lily and I became best friends- actual best friends. We were always close but that's when we crossed the boundary into sister-like best friends- we could yell at each other, wear each other's clothes- tell the other one they were wrong and just that we knew best.

She made me take the book back the day that she confronted me about it.

The second time I read a book from the restricted section was when I wanted to know more about Grindewauld since Mr Binns was being deliberately vague. That was Third year too. When Lily found out about that time she was disapproving but she was also fascinated- she seemed uncertain about it though (she pretended that she didn't want to also do further reading) and respected the rules as always. So I had to take that back too. I didn't like it too much anyway- it was the scariest book I'd ever read; So much death.

The third and final time was in fourth year (last year as I'm in 5th) and it was about Werewolves. We'd skimmed it in classes and no-one ever wanted to speak about it. I regret picking up that book so much, it scared me to death. I started hyperventilating in the Library. The book had come to life as i opened the book and pulled me into it. It was terrifying.

I saw werewolves slaughtering people on every single page playing like a film although as I saw the moving images there was no doubt- none at all that they were real. Many of the images of the werewolf were the same- just one wolf. Mordicand, Greyback's Father. Mordicand ripped out the throats of children and muggles and wizards- merely for leisure.

I had nightmares about the werewolves every full moon for months. I remember how Lily had found me in the library with the book and helped me get back to the dorm because I was so scared. She'd followed me out again, despite her rules.

Lily Evans. I'm so stupid; she has been there for me time and time again. I'm the worst best friend ever. I stood up ready to leave and go and find her when I saw someone that made my heart go crazy in my chest. He was sitting there scribbling on a scroll of parchment but as I squinted from where I was I noticed he wasn't doing work at all. He was doodling.

Well I never. Remus never doodled- every single time we'd studied together he'd always just got on with the work-but there he was doodling. As though sensing my sudden stare he shuddered and looked around himself and began scanning the library for someone. I ducked behind a bookshelf.

I didn't want to talk to him right now- and now I know he doesn't want to speak to me.

I crept out the library as discreetly as I could, I even tiptoed the long way round so that I wouldn't accidentally been seen be him as I passed.

'Gwen?' someone called from the opposite direction loudly to me, in the corner of my eye I saw Remus' head snap up and look at me.

I turned to the person who gave away my exit- Amos Diggory. I was surprised that it was him. he walked up to me, he was way taller than I remembered (from quidditch matches last year). He was beaming at me, I smiled back.

'What's up Amos?' he had a friendly air around him, like warmth that made you feel like you were in on some secret joke. I found myself grinning back at him. Do all Hufflepuffs have that? I'd test that theory later.

'How're you? Ready for Quidditch to start? The match is tomorrow! Hufflepuffs V.s Ravenclaws- it's going to be one hell of a first match.' He said happily. The Hufflepuff team suck at quidditch their beaters are too nice to actually aim at people- they just aim in front of them of in their way.

Amos was probably their best asset on their team. He emitted a confidence and chill about it that I was suddenly wondering if they would beat Ravenclaw. 'I'm good. Oh yeah I forgot about the first match-Do you think you'll win?'

He smiled and shrugged, 'Hard to tell. Captains been working us to the bone though- I hope it pays off.'

'We haven't had a practice yet- but then we have a whole month until our first match so It's all good'. I was a chaser on the team.

The librarian glared at us. we bowed our heads at the same time and chorused, 'Sorry.' He caught my eye as we did it and I chuckled at our similar antics. 'Let's get out of here' he whispered though loud enough to still earn a cold scowl from the librarian. I nodded trying not to laugh as we tiptoed out the library gasping at every tiny noise one of us made and shifting worried glances to the librarian who just rolled her eyes and returned to ordering books.

We flew around and raced each other round school until it was curfew. He was a good flyer and it was great fun to distract me from seeing Remus in the library. I understand why Amos was sorted the way he was- he's one of the nicest people I'd ever met. But I couldn't stop my mind wondering whether Remus would still be in the Library and just what he had been doodling.

I wondered how I didn't know that he doodled- was this a new development? Or was I just never that observant when we studied together? I thought back- no, I'd really never seen him doodle before.

I felt guilty that when Amos told me goodbye I was still half-thinking about Remus. I really don't deserve these people being my friend.

Oh dear. Oh no. Of course she just had to go into the restricted section and scar herself for life. Dammit Gwen- you're an idiot.

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