Chapter 11

They stared at each other for a moment as Emily gently tucked a stray strand of hair behind JJ's ear, before leaning in to claim JJ's lips again pulling her into a soft gentle kiss.

"I am sorry you got hurt," Emily whispered.

As she looked softly into sparkling blue eyes, Emily swallowed slightly as she ran her fingers against JJ's neck. JJ moved towards her touch causing Emily to lean in as her lips met her soft skin along her neck gently kissing and slightly nipping causing JJ to moan.

Emily moved her back slightly, JJ's legs connected with the bed, Emily motioned her to sit down there eyes locked together neither giving any indication that either wanted to stop. Emily's hands shook slightly as her fingers hover over the buttons on her blouse, JJ let out a soft moan giving Emily the courage to continue.

There was no rush as she began to slowly undo the buttons gently taking it over her shoulders the blouse was casted to the side as her fingers ran over her skin causing goosebumps to rise on JJ's arms her fingers ghosted over her breast causing slight friction between her bra and nipples which now had become hard, as she ran her fingers around the back unclipping her bra she swallowed slightly as JJ's full breasts were revealed.

Emily gently cupped both breasts between her fingers as she motioned JJ to lay back; no words were spoken though their eyes were focused on each other. Emily felt she could drown in the blue swirling orbs, which bored, into her soul.

Emily rubbed her fingers over JJ's taut nipples as she towered over JJ leaning in for a soft kiss, Emily ran her tongue along her lower lip asking for entry which JJ was all too happy to allow, there was no fight for dominance as Emily ran her tongue along JJ's a soft moan escaped from deep inside JJ's throat and it only fuelled Emily on more as she deepened the kiss, her fingers twisting JJ's taut nipples as the heat grew deep inside her.

One hand still cupping and playing with her breast, her other hand ghosted down her toned torso, JJ's hips bucked slightly under the soft touch. Emily toyed with the fabric of JJ's pants, all JJ could do was moan as Emily's lips left hers, she trailed her lips and tongue down her neck before settling on her pulse point, JJ moaned louder again this only made the fire that was already building inside Emily grow more as her fingers made quick work on the button and zip, JJ's hips bucked more as Emily slipped her hand inside her fingers toying with groan, dipping under the silken undergarments.

JJ's fingers wrapped into Emily long brown hair, with one swift move Emily's finger rested on JJ's clit causing JJ so speak for the first time since Emily had kissed her back, "Oh god, please, yes" the words came out at the tail end of a deep moan.

Emily moaned softly as the words hit her ears as her lips wrapped around JJ's taut nipple as she began to gently suck and nip it softly.

JJ's hips raised as Emily tugged against her pants lowering them giving her more access and room, JJ allowed her hips to open more as Emily ran her finger through her moist folds feeling the heat which was emanating from inside, her thumb rested against her clit as she began to rub it gently causing JJ to moan louder her hips rocking against her hand, Emily continued to suck and nip against her nipple moaning softly against her, as her finger dipped against the entrance to JJ's centre.

"Please I need you to," JJ said in a moan unable to complete what she was saying as the moan took over as Emily let one finger enter her core. JJ's hips bucked against her hand "Yes Emily make love to me" JJ said in a hushed voice causing Emily to freeze mid-throw, she swallowed audibly as she backed up stopping all contact and movement, her eyes wild with a look of fear on her face.

As JJ went to speak the worry evident on her face Emily bolted towards the bathroom, locking the door behind her, Emily allowed her body to fall against the door before sliding down so she was sat on the floor tucking her knees up against her body as she hid her face.

A soft knock on the door made Emily's breath hitch slightly, she mentally kicked herself she had everything she had wanted in the room and wanting her but the thought of allowing herself to make love and to show her true feelings to JJ had sent her into a panic.

"Emily" JJ whispered softly as she wrapped a towel around her body "talk to me?" JJ asked as she waited for some response from Emily. The silence continued as JJ waited for some kind of response. "Please Emily just talks to me" JJ said keeping her voice soft as she spoke.

Everyone on the team knew how closed off Emily was and how hard it was for her to show her feelings or allow anyone close enough to know her true feelings.

JJ kicked herself as she realised what she had said, she sighed softly as she moved away from the door allowing Emily some space. JJ made her way back into the room away from the bathroom as she began to put her nightwear on switching the TV on low, but enough so Emily knew she was not behind the door.

The shock of hearing those words had sent her into a tailspin, she never thought anyone would want her like that, in the past people had used her for who her mother was, and in Emily's eyes, and she wasn't good enough for anyone let alone for anyone to love her.

The tears ran down Emily's face the fear laced inside her, in over 20 years she had never allowed anyone close to her, she had closed her heart off to the thought of being loved or allowing herself to love anyone and it was because the last time she had she had been hurt and paid the highest price for allowing someone that close to her.

She had spent the past 20 years building tight walls around her never showing her feelings and if she did slip it came out as anger, not as anything else, but this was different from the first moment she had laid her eyes on JJ she liked her and she had wished for more but now she was scared could she allow someone close to her and allow someone in.

Maybe JJ was just using her or the fact she had seen JJ's lifeless body in front of her made these feeling more pronounced and made her realise how much she cared about JJ, Emily knew deep down she would walk to hell and back for JJ but now her feelings were so strong, from the second she had realised JJ wasn't breathing, feelings and emotions had swirled inside her but she still wasn't sure what the feelings were, or why they were so strong.

The sheer thought of losing JJ had scared her so much that she now feared that she was going to hurt her if she allowed her in or close and the last thing Emily wanted to do was hurt her.