Clares pov

I can't see you go

This is based on Eli leaving for college In a world where Clare doesn't know that she has cancer, or she just doesn't have iT.

Eli just had to leave for college and I have to let him go. It's not fair to either one of us and I just don't want to hold him back. What if he meets someone and I'm the only thing that's keeping him from puttinghimself out there. I can't do that to him I love him too much, and you know what they say if you love something let it go and If itlovers you back it will come to you. In this case the only thing I could do was tell Eli about my deCision.

"Eli, I just wanted to tell you that I'm fine with breaking up if that's what you want to do I just don't wan to hold you back and we can still keep in touch and be friends. "

"Clare not once did I think about leaving you, I was all in and I want to stay with you no matter whatthink now it's going to be hard but we can make this work, because we are us and we have been throu everything together. We van video hat and talk on the phone and I'll come to see you every once In a while. "

Good Eli because I can't see you go.

We spent the rest of the night together, hugging, kissing, and watching movies. I wish this could last forever, but I just want to enjoy it while I still have it.