Chapter 17
We follow the ambulance our sirens blaring as we race to the hospital, thankfully Rossi drives he is able to control himself though I can see the panic in him, it is the first time I have seen him show this much emotion so I know it is bad, I know the fear inside me is real because I know that is what he feels as well.
I frown slightly as I look at him "I thought Reid was going in with peters?" I ask softly.
He gives me a soft smile the one I know him for the silent reassurance "Reid and I swapped" he said and that is all I needed to know as we turn into the hospital parking lot.
We are shown into the waiting room, I can't help but close myself off as we wait for any word of our team, Rossi stands in the corner watching me I can feel his eyes on me. I silently look at him as the tears form in my eyes. I try to keep the tears at bay but I can't I am scared to lose our team my family, but more I am so scared of losing Emily and she isn't even mine yet.
"Have you rung Garcia?" he asks me as I shake my head, I can't even gather enough strength to speak I know if I do talk I won't be able to keep my emotions in,
"Will you be okay while I go and make a phone call?" he asks me and again all I can do is nod as he then turns to leave the room.
He comes back in giving me a half-smile before my eyes fixate on the floor in front of me as we wait for news. The other ambulances followed shortly behind us, as we had followed the first, which carried the person who had flatlined.
This is one part of the job we all hate being in hospitals and waiting for news of our friends, it feels like we have been here for hours, the tears fall from my eyes freely, I feel someone sit next to me a hand rests on my back gently rubbing it, but I make no acknowledgement until their hand takes hold of mine, I frown because I know those hands but I daren't lookup.
Her arm wraps around me I can feel her breathe against me but I am scared to look up and look at her just in case it is my mind playing tricks. I hear the door open again and this time a nurse speaks.
"Agent, you need to come back into the treatment area and have those wounds dressed" her voice is so firm that even I wince. But then I hear her voice as her words vibrate into my ears my mind, I close my eyes slightly as I just listen.
"You can treat me here if you must but I refuse to leave this room" I want to scold her but my reaction is completely different as I finally look up, I nearly throw myself into her arms.
"Emily" I whisper her arms wrap around me tightly
"I'm okay Jen" she whispers so softly. I feel her turn back around.
"I really need to treat you Agent" the nurse glares at her and I cannot help but chuckle it is with her refusal that I know she is truly there and okay. I look at Rossi who gives me a soft smile.
"Only if JJ can come with me" there is firmness in her voice and I know why she wants me at her side as I finally look at her and I cannot help but gasp.
"Emily" I say in slight shock. There is blood smeared across her face, her shirt is almost completely destroyed, she gives me a soft kind smile
"I am okay JJ, just sore" she raises her eyebrow at Rossi. "You will come and get us as soon as you hear anything" Emily states "We won't be long" I have to chuckle because I know what she is saying is true she will discharge herself if they take their time.
"Emily what happened?" I ask as we make our way to the treatment room,
"We all entered and the house blew up" I look at her, her eyes are sad and sadness I have never seen before.
"I got that," I say back as I look at her "Emily what is it" she is much like Hotch, Rossi and Gideon she holds her emotions in very tightly. As though nothing affects her but this I can see something at play
"Morgan entered first" she closes her eyes slightly as the nurse starts to clean her skin. "Are you finished yet?"
I have never seen her snap so easily but I can see the pain and worry inside her eyes "Just one more stitch" the nurse says softly as though she is worried about saying anything else
"I need to speak to Rossi" she says softly, I frown now I am not getting a straight answer from her and seeing her snap so easy I am wary of asking her.
"Just let her finish then you can" I keep my voice soft; I know Rossi and Emily have a special relationship.
For the first time in the three years, I have known her I am wary of her emotions are raw and I can hear the fear in her voice. "We need to get Garcia here" she lets out in a hushed voice. I really look at her
"Is Morgan" she shakes her head
"I don't know he was in bad shape I know he flat-lined once, before they rushed him here" tears fill in her eyes "JJ please, we need her here I will pay for it I don't care just get her here" she is almost pleading with me as I try to filter the words into my mind.
I nod as we walk back into the waiting room, I watch as Emily speaks to Rossi and he leaves the room to make the phone call, as she walks over I finally notice that she is limping again as she sits back next to me "Your limping" I comment, I hear her chuckle
"Yeah think I twisted it again" I go to speak and she just holds her hand up to stop me. I understand because like her we are all worried about our team.
Her hand wraps around me as she pulls me close I feel her lips touch my forehead and I shiver slightly, "Jen," there it is again not JJ not Jennifer but Jen, I look at her turning my face upwards as she looks down at me, she cups my cheek, I go to speak but my words falter slightly "I shouldn't have run from you JJ, I am so sorry I did that, forgive me?" her voice is so soft and she doesn't seem to care that Rossi is in the room listening to us.
"I can forgive you but I need to understand why you ran," I say in a hushed voice,
Emily pulls me closer against her as she speaks slowly "Have you ever been scared that you could have something so precious that you feel if you act on it and allow them to see you that you will lose them?"
I look at her slightly confused, her finger rests on my lips so I am unable to speak "In other words Jennifer I love you and that scares the hell out of me" I hear Rossi clear his throat and I watch Emily roll her eyes slightly. I smile slightly but before I can respond, her lips meet mine as she kisses me softly and gently she pulls back and our eyes lock.
The only thing that disturbs us is Rossi as he laughs, "About time" my eyes go slightly wide as Emily chuckles
"Thanks, Granddad" Emily smirks at him her fingers cup my cheek again. She looks me "We will talk later" she says with a soft smile. I nod as the door opens I feel her tense as we look towards the door.
I feel her swallow against me as the words come out as a whispered breath "Reid" Emily wraps her arms around him as he winces in pain slightly, he looks over at me, much like Emily his face is a bloody mess and covered in stitches,
"Where are the others," he asks looking around the room.
Rossi places a hand on his shoulder "We are still waiting for news" I move towards him as they move away from him I wrap my arms around him as I kiss his cheek
"Are you sure you're okay?" I ask
"Bruising and cuts but other than that I am fine" the relief seems to leave us as our team is finally coming back together.
The hours seem to drag we still have no word of Morgan, Hotch or Peters, I hear the clipping of heels shuffling against the hard floor before the door opens, sad blue eyes look at me as Emily stands walking over to her wrapping her arms around her body and it is at that point Garcia breaks down in her arms.
My heart goes out to her but I also feel it should be me comforting her not Emily but I also can understand why. Emily still has no news about her partner and Garcia is Morgan's glue the one person that she worries about more than anyone else is. She guides her over to where I am sat and it shocks me slightly as Emily sits her down next to me, my arm wraps around her as she leans into me.
I watch as Emily and Rossi have a hushed conversation, words are spoken and I watch as Emily leaves the room. Rossi approaches us and he kneels in front of Garcia, much like a father would do when their child was hurting. His eyes meet mine as he speaks "Emily has just gone to see if she can get some news on Hotch, Morgan and Peters." I nod as Garcia's breaks her heart on my shoulder.
"Rossi, has she said how bad they are?" he gives me a soft smile as his eyes move back to Garcia, he knows this is going to hurt her more than any of us,
"All she knows is Morgan is in bad shape, she is worried about him," he takes a breath as he looks at Garcia his arm resting on her as I and Reid flank her, if someone was to look at us it would look as though we are having a group hug.
"Morgan flatlined at the scene" I feel the gasp that Garcia takes as though the wind has been knocked clean out her body
"Oh god" it comes out on the tail end of a sob.
"I know he is in surgery as I managed to find it out when I called you, Garcia" she nods.
There is nothing any of us can do I look at him as I speak "Hotch?" I question,
"That is what Emily is trying to find out, and she can't just sit here."
I chuckle slightly "Heaven forbid her to have a break" I feel Garcia shudder against me,
"She also wants to find out news on Peters"
Reid tenses slightly "What about Morgan?" The door opens slowly before Rossi has chance to answer.
"I found this wandering the halls they seem to think he belongs to us," Emily says as she pushes the wheelchair into the room. A none too happy Hotch was pushed in as the door closed behind them.
"Peters?" Rossi asks
Emily gives a half-smile as she speaks "He is in intensive care but he's doing okay"
"Morgan?" Garcia stutters out through her tears as Emily brings Hotch over to where Garcia is sat, he places a hand gently on her leg, Garcia's hand rests over his
"He is in a bad way, he arrested on the table."