"So," Rosalie said. "How much longer are you going to make Edward suffer?"

"I don't know," I answered honestly.

I was having a sleep over at Rosalie's with Angela and we'd been cussing and discussing the fight Edward and I had last weekend. I'd been at my father's for a week now, going to class was killer, Edward wouldn't look at me, he would only talk to me if he had a direct question.

To be honest, I hurt, like really hurt over the loss of talking with him. I'd always looked forward to talking with him, he understood me better than anybody else, but now, we simply didn't talk and it hurt that he could ignore me so easily.

"Bella," Angela said. "You need to talk with him, he's your husband, your baby's father. I'm not saying what he did was right, I'd be pissed as hell if he'd done that to me, but you should have told him what was going on."

"I meant to, I guess it just slipped my mind," I cried. I swear, I'd cried more this week than I had in the past eighteen years. "I mean, we'd just won our first game in a long time and I was stoked for the party."

"Whatever the reason," Rosalie said. "You have to talk to him. Communication is key in any and all relationships. How do you think I've keep so many men happy?"

I laughed through my tears.

"He looks so depressed in class," Angela said. "I mean, his eyes are sunken into his head, he barely looks like he's eating, he's depressed over the fight."

"I know, but I don't know how to deal with this," I whispered. "Dad says that I just need to face it head on, take whatever he give to me, even if that includes divorce papers."

"I don't think he'll divorce you," Rosalie said. "He may not believe in love, but he believes in you and your child. Maybe he just needs to be taught how to love; I think you are just the person to do it."

"What do you mean?"

"You love him," Rosalie said. "You know you do, don't deny it."

"I don't know," I answered honestly. "I've never been in love, what if I fuck it up?"

"Hon, everybody fucks up love," Angela said. "It's a trial and error deal; you see what works and what doesn't."

I nodded, I felt like I should be taking down notes.

We got off the subject and talked about other, meaningless things, including Emmett and Ben. Getting out of my sex life or lack thereof, was nice and hearing about those two's was nice to hear that they had found the one.

I glanced at my phone around midnight, after Rosalie and Angela had fallen asleep after one to many drinks. I found there was a text message from Edward.

I know you are mad, but I really need you to call me, it's urgent!

I wondered what was so important, he wouldn't be calling to tell me that the baby was hurt, I'd know that if it happened. I thought about not calling him, faking that I'd been dead to the world, but his message seemed urgent, like maybe I should answer it.

"Hello?" Edward answered after I called him.

"Edward, you asked me to call you," I said.

"Bella, thank god, you're okay. I have been so worried."

"You know my number, you could have just called," I said as I stepped out of Rosalie's room.

"Where are you?"

"I'm having a sleep over with Rose and Angela, at Rose's, why? Dad knew I was here, I presumed he's been keeping you up to date on my comings and goings."

"I'm on my way, Blue, sit tight. You are going to need your friends."

Edward hung up and I almost feared what had happened. I woke Rosalie and Angela up as the doorbell started ringing, followed by pounding.

I heard Rosalie's parents get up and answer the door.

"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need Bella, there's an emergency," Edward said.

I hurried downstairs in my sleep pants and t-shirt.

"Bella," he sighed and walked past Rosalie's parents and gathered me up in his arms. "You're okay."

"Yea, care to tell me what's going on," I said as I pushed out of his arms. Rosalie and Angela came up behind me as Edward said his next words.

"There was a home invasion at your fathers," Edward said and I started to stagger backwards into Angela and Rosalie. "They shot Charlie," I heard a sob escape Rosalie's mother as my best friend's arms grabbed ahold of me. "Blue, he didn't make it."

I couldn't stand, my father was dead, I simply slumped down into their waiting arms as I sobbed. I could hear whispers from the other's as they heard that my father was dead. He was dead, gone, nothing but a memory.

"Bella," Edward said, I was sitting on the ground, Rosalie and Angela were crouched down beside me, Edward crouch down to my level. "Jasper asked me to get you and bring you to my house, he said he'd come by in the morning, he's at the station now, IDing the body. Blue eyes, I really need you to come with me. Rose, Angela, can you get her stuff?"

"Sure, we'll grab ours as well, you got a place for us to crash?" Rosalie asked.

I think I saw Edward nod, but I wasn't sure, I had tunnel vision and the only thing really running through my head was that my father was dead.

"We aren't leaving her side, Edward," Angela was saying. I felt the world shift and I was in Edward's arms, I threw my arms around his neck and buried my head into his chest. I felt Rosalie's parents pat me on the back as we made our way out the door. Edward keep making soft noises to me.

He shifted me again as I was put in the passengers seat of his Volvo, Angela and Rosalie must be driving Rosalie's BMW, because I didn't feel them get into the car. Edward squeezed my hand as I keep my eyes closed, I feared that I would toss my cookies if I opened them, even a crack.

The world shifted again and I was moved inside, Edward told the girls to put their things in his room, that they could sleep in his bed, with me tonight.

"No," I cried. "Edward, please."

I needed his comfort, I needed the comfort of his arms wrapped around me, I needed my husband tonight, I wasn't sure what tomorrow would bring, but tonight, I needed him and his arms around my body.

I think I fell asleep even before Edward put me on the bed, the last thing I remember was Edward kissing my forehead.

"Oh, Blue, I promise, we'll get through this, together.

I woke up at five the next morning, Edward's arms still wrapped around me. I felt safe, I knew that today would bring tears and hurt and pain, today Jasper and I would have to figure out what to do, but at this moment, I felt safe, nothing could hurt me when I was with Edward.

Maybe Rosalie was right, maybe I was in love with my husband, but he'd been scorned by love before, I wasn't sure if he could love me, maybe I should do what Rosalie said, maybe I should teach him to love again. He'd loved before, why couldn't he love now?

"Hey," his velvet voice whispered in my ear.

His breath blew in my ear, making me momentarily forget about everything and giggling like the little school girl that I was.

"Did I wake you," my own voice was still thick with sleep.

"I don't know," he said. "I think I just sensed that you woke up. How are you feeling?"

I didn't answer right away. His arm was wrapped protectively over my belly, my hand found it's way to his and stroked his arm lightly.

How did I feel? Confused over the feelings for him, sad over the loss of my father, scared because I didn't have my father to run to anymore, all these emotions were running through my brain as he held me.

"Safe," I finally answered. "I feel safe."

"Safe, huh?"

"Yea, with you, like this, I feel safe," I turned my head to face him. "I'm scared for what is going to happen today, but right now, I know that you won't let anything hurt me."

"I was worried," Edward said. "You've talked and cried in your sleep. I was scared that you hated me, for being overprotective."

"I should have told you, I was going to, but it slipped my mind," I sighed, taking a deep breath. "I was excited for the game and the party, I just wanted to get out of the house for a while, be a normal teenager."

"I was scared, Blue," Edward said, his head snuggling into my shoulder and kissing it.

"Please don't leave a hickey," I said. "I had a time trying to cover the last one's."

"Sorry, I know, don't flaunt what we have," Edward said, still softly kissing my neck. "I was scared, when Jazz called and said that there had been a break in, that Charlie," he let the sentence hang, I knew he was going to say was dead but couldn't say it "I worried that I'd never see you again. You've been a huge part of my life for so long, I couldn't manage if I lost you. I started calling around. I called Jason to see if he was having a party, I explained that Jazz had me looking for you. After Jason said he hadn't seen you at the party, I called Angela's parents, they said that she was sleeping over with Rose, finally you called, my heart nearly stopped when you called, I was so happy to hear from you."

"Edward," I nearly purred. His eyes turned up to mine, his lips stopped their ministrations. "Make love to me."

I'm so sorry, for several things, but as you've read, I'm really sorry about what I did, but in the long run, it had to happen, I swear, the reason should slowly become clear for my reason for what I did. Also I'm sorry that I haven't updated, I've been busy with RL, so excuse my pathetic excuses.