Title: Learn To Love Again

Rating: T - Maybe M in later chapters

Fandom: Glee

Pairing: Brittana and other minor pairings

Chapter: 3

Word Count: 4.7k

Disclaimer: I do not own glee or the characters from glee that I use in this story.

Summary: It's not possible for a girl to get pregnant by another girl, right? But what happens when Brittany gets Santana pregnant and thinks that she was cheated on, leaving both Santana and her child? Will Santana be able to bring up a child on her own, with no help? Will she be able to somehow convince Brittany that she didn't cheat and to come back to her?

A/N:

Pikibear - She will have to work hard, and yes, you will find out in this chapter about Quinn!

EV87 - Thank you, the bullying will have much to do with Santana and Brittany getting together also!

taciiamayy - I know, it sucks that they have stopped writing. I will definitely include some interaction with Camila and Quinn/Kurt/Rachel and also her guarded personality with people.

xannaxmurderx - She will not like her at first, don't worry and she will for sure not like Brittany more than Santana.

"I'm so sorry, Quinn. I've got to go" I rush out as I burst through the doors of her office. Today is the day of the shoot and we have been looking to do this for a couple of months now, but I've just gotten a call from Camila's school saying that she is in the nurses office.

And yes, I did say shoot as in photo shoot.

I am a model.

With Kurt being a fashion designer and Quinn being a photographer, we all usually end up working together. Kurt has just finished with his woman's bikini line and we were going to do the shoot now. We've been talking about it for like 3 months and now it is going to have to be done later on.

Quinn looks up from her camera with wide eyes and I give her an apologetic smile as I quickly pull on my sweats and a t-shirt over the bikini. "I am so sorry, Quinn. I will be back in about 15 minutes, I just need to run down the street to get Mila. She's in the nurses office" I tell her, not wanting to let everybody down.

Guess I will have to bring Camila back here with me. It's okay, she likes to come to work with me and hang with Quinn and Kurt anyway. Quinn just nods her head and I run out of her office and through the building. I need to get to my daughter and I need to get to her quick.

As I run out the building and down the street, I let out a relief that today isn't one of the days I get stopped by paparazzi. It doesn't happen often and I am glad about that because I don't want mine and my daughters life in the media. Sure, there is a few pictures of us here and there but not too much, plus the few people that come up to me for autographs but that is it.

I thought it was going to be worse than this when I first started modelling but I am lucky that it isn't seeing as though I am well known in the modelling world. What? I am a hot Latina everybody literally begs me to come do a shoot for them.

When I reach Camila's school, I burst through the main doors and thank god that I know where the nurse's office is. I've been through all of this before. Camila is always 'falling' over but I know better. It is that fucking Jake kid again. When I get into the room and see my little girl whimpering in the corner, her legs pulled into her chest and her face buried into them, I drop to her side.

The nurse looks up to me hopelessly. "She won't speak to me. I found her in the playground and brought her in. I tried to touch her but she screamed and has been like that ever since" she tells me before leaving the room and I give her a quick smile before turning back to my daughter.

A gasp escapes from my mouth and I feel tears forming in my eyes when Camila lifts her head to look at me, revealing a black eye that has started to form already. Sobs are wrecking through her small body and I scoop her in my arms. "Shhhh, it's okay pretty girl. Mommy's got you now" I whisper into her ear, running my hands through her hair gently.

I can't believe that somebody has given my little princess a black eye. How are kids so mean these days? Seriously, their parents need to fucking sort them out and make sure they stay the fuck away from daughter. "Calm down, Cams... Who did this to you?" I ask her gently when I stand up with her still in my arms. I really need to speak to the teachers about these kids. I can't deal with my daughter hurting any longer.

"Logan. He's Jake's friend" Camila whispers against my shoulder as I run my hand up and down her back to calm her down. She wraps her arms around my neck and her legs around my waist as I carry her out to the main desk where the principle is sat. The woman smiles at me when I walk towards her and I sigh because it has been too many times where I've had to speak to her about Camila being bullied.

"Can I ask to have a meeting? Sometime this week?" I ask her quietly and she nods her head at me, typing in a few things on her computer before turning back towards me. "It is important so I need it to be as soon as possible" I add on because this has been going on for too long.

I need to put an end to this bulling. If that means having to send Camila to another different school or even get her home schooled, I will do it. Because I've been constantly having meetings with school over the past two months and nothing is helping.

"Tomorrow at 8? Just after school starts?" She asks me and I nod my head before walking out of the school, back towards the building that I just came from. But, then of course, a blonde that I haven't seen or spoken to since last week stops in front of me. My breath catches in my throat because I really can't believe that she is actually here in NY.

"Can I take you out sometime? I need to talk to you about things?" Even though Brittany is talking to me, her eyes are glued to Camila who has cried herself to sleep. "I really mean it when I say I want to be part of her life, Santana. I'm going to do everything I can to prove it to you, okay?" I sigh at her words because I know that she isn't going to give up.

"Meet me outside the school down the road tomorrow at half 8" I tell her with a smile when she looks up to me and brush past her into the building before she can ask about Camila's bruised face. I can't be anymore late to this shoot than I already am. It is a good thing that I already have my hair and make-up done otherwise this shoot probably would of been delayed for another couple of weeks.

When I go through the building and into the back where the pool is, I lay down Camila onto one of the small recliner chairs that Kurt brought along with him. I don't know why but I'm sure that he won't mind if Cam slept on it. "Oh my God, is she okay?" Kurt exclaims as he comes up beside me, his eyes glued to the bruise on my daughters face.

"A bit shaken up. I have a meeting tomorrow with her principle, I think I'm going to have to get her home-schooled" I tell him, a small tear rolling down my cheek but I quickly wipe it away so I don't ruin my make-up.

Kurt rubs my shoulder sympathetically before leading me over to where Quinn is ready to shoot some pictures. After a couple of hours, the shoot is finally over and I quickly change back into my normal underwear and some casual sweats. "What happened earlier?" Quinn asks when I lift a still sleeping Camila into my arms.

I swear, this girl can sleep for about a week without waking up. When I turn around, Quinn gasps, obviously seeing her eye. "Jake's friend. The teacher saw her and brought her inside, but when she tried to touch her, Cams freaked out. You know how she is, so when I got there, she was sat on the floor in the office and curled into herself" I explain to them both as we walk down the streets towards my house.

Usually we go to their apartment but since Camila is asleep and probably needs a pack of ice on her face, we can go back to my place today. Quinn can just text Rachel or something to meet us there. "I can't believe a child can do that to another child. I mean, we used to be bitches but we never laid a finger on another child."

We were both all talk but nothing more. Well, at least not to anybody other than each other. We would never hit another child. "I know, Q. I'm thinking of getting her a private tutor or something. That way she can also come to my shoots with me as well" I tell them both, biting my lip because I honestly don't know what to do.

On one hand, I want my daughter to get better and make friends. I want her to have the school experience that I did because if I didn't go school, I wouldn't of met Brittany or Quinn, Kurt and Rachel. But then on the other hand, I don't want her to be bullied any longer. She has already been to two different school since 4 months ago and in both of them she has been bullied.

Her anxiety is already so bad and I don't want it to get any worse along with how she trusts people. She only let's certain people in and I don't want her to close herself away anymore. I want her to get better and for her not to think something bad is always going to happen to her. The only way I know this will happen is if I get her a private tutor.

"San, I know it is hard, but it is the best thing for her" Kurt says to me as we come up to the front of my penthouse and Quinn unlocks the door with her key because I have Camila in my arms. Quinn, Kurt and Rachel all have a key each for my house and they have done since I first moved in. "I just text Rach and she is on her way over now with some ice" he adds, sitting down on the couch opposite me alongside Quinn as I lay down Camila next to me.

"I bumped into Brittany earlier" I blurt out and they both quickly turn to face me with their eyes wide open and their jaws hanging slack. I know that I should of waiting until Rachel arrived to tell them, but I just had to get it out. Since Brittany left me, the three have became my family and have always been there to hold me and comfort me when I break down over her.

They were there for me when she left me and they deserve to know that I agreed to go out with Brittany tomorrow. "She asked to take me out to talk, and I said yes" I rush out and when they open their mouths to reply, I hold my finger up to silence them and motion with my head towards Camila, knowing that they probably would of yelled at me.

"Why? Santana, you don't have to go out with her if you don't want to and you most definitely don't have to let her in Camila's life if you don't want to" all our heads turn to Rachel who is standing in the doorway with an ice pack in her hands. She's obviously been stood there a while because she knows that I ran into Brittany.

Rachel hands me over to ice before going to sit next to Quinn and giving her a small peck on the cheek. Really, I still can't believe that they are together. It was shocking enough that they became friends during high school and then when they became a couple just after Camila was born, I almost had a heart attack.

"I know I don't, but I want to hear what she has to say" I tell them all as I gently hold the ice pack on Camila's face, careful not to wake her up. They all want answers and are looking at me in astonishment that I would even consider wanting to see Brittany again after what she did.

Believe me, I plan on making her work herself back into my life and even harder into my daughters, but I still love her. No matter how hard I want to just ignore her and carry on like I have been the past four years, I can't. I can't stop loving her no matter how hard I have tried to.

And anyway, I'm not just doing this for me or Brittany, I am doing it for Camila. She deserves to have two parents that love her just like every other child and I know that by the look on Brittany's face, she wants to get to know her. I know that she is serious about being in her life, I just need to make sure she won't run away again.

I don't trust her, but when I get that trust back, I will introduce her to Camila. "Camila needs her and I need her. I'm still in love with her and if she still loves me, I know that we can eventually be a family" I tell them quietly, looking to the ground as tears fill up my eyes.

"San, I know you love her but I don't trust her, I'm sorry" Quinn says with a small sigh and I know that if I look up right now, she will most probably have an apologetic smile on her face. It is okay I guess, I know that the three of them probably wouldn't trust Brittany either because they have been with me through this.

"I know and I'm not expecting you to forgive her, but I'm asking for my best friends to understand why I am doing this" I explain to them softly, desperately trying to get them to know why I'm meeting with Brittany. "I know it is going to take time to get trust back and for us to properly get back to the way that we was, but I know that we can if we fix our problems and try."

Kurt let's out a sigh, "I can see that you know what you are doing, so we will support your decision. But if she hurts you again then we will kill her" I laugh at his works because Kurt couldn't even hurt a fly, but it causes Camila to start stirring. Oops. The small girl beside me let's out a whimper as she opens her eyes and I pull her onto my lap.

"It's okay, Cams. I'm just putting a little ice on your face" I tell her softly to calm her down as she curls into me. "You feeling okay?" I ask her, brushing away the strands of hair from her face and quickly tying her hair up in a high pony. She nods her head against my neck and I drop my hand to rub her back, "are you sure?"

She pushes the ice pack away and looks up at me, "I don't like that school mommy" she whispers and I know by the look in her eyes that she is terrified to go back. I can't send her there anymore, not when she is getting like this because she is trembling in my arms right now. Honestly, I can't believe I let things go this far before I let her get home schooled. I trusted that the teachers would kick that Jake kid out of school or something though.

"You don't have to go back, baby. I promise you" I say to her softly, kissing her temple softly but then, she jumps out of my arms when she notices the three other people in the room and runs towards them. A smile comes to my face when I see her hugging them because I'm glad that she is at least comfortable with my best friends. She has always been comfortable around them though because I am so close to them.

Camila sits down on Quinn's lap. "Can I come to your place tomorrow?" Camila asks Quinn, playing with the loose strands of her hair as she does so. My eyes widen and I nod my head towards Quinn, silently begging for her to say yes because I really don't want Camila to be with me when I am with Brittany. I can't introduce them yet not even with Brittany as my friend because I don't know how Camila will act around her.

"Sure, how about you sleep over tonight? We can watch movies, do some karaoke and give each other make-overs" I chuckle and roll my eyes at Quinn's words. She really is just a big kid sometimes. Camila looks over to me with wide eyes, pleading me to let her go with Quinn, Rachel and Kurt. She is looking at me with a pout that reminds me so much of Brittany and her puppy dog eyes make me giggle.

"Of course you can. How about you go on upstairs and get some pajamas and your toothbrush to take with you and then tomorrow I will bring you some clean clothes" I say to her and she smiles at me before scurrying off upstairs to go get her things to take with her.

-The Next Day-

"Miss Lopez, I understand this meeting is important and probably regarding Camila?" the principle, Mrs Walker, asks once we are sat in her office and I nod my head, trying my best not to glare at her and yell. Seriously, she could of prevented all of the bullying that has been happening to Camila and I hate this woman for not doing that.

Taking a deep breath to calm myself down, I turn back to her. "Yes, I came to talk about the bullying that has been going on since Camila first transferred schools to go here. Jake Rains and his friends have been doing it on a daily basis" I inform her and her eyes widen like she is only just hearing about this. What the actual fuck? I came in like last week to talk to her about this.

"Camila is getting anxiety from this, constantly getting nightmares and will hardly trust anybody. I have been coming meetings frequently over the past two months about this and it still hasn't been put to an end" I say to her, trying to keep my voice from cracking and willing myself now to start shouting because there is little kids around in their lessons.

Mrs Walker is looking me up and down and I glare at her. "You know what? I don't need this, and Camila most definitely doesn't need this either. She is done with this school and will not be coming back" I spit out, feeling myself getting angrier and angrier with every second that passes by.

I know that I won't be able to stop myself going all Lima heights on her if I stay here any longer, so I stand up and walk out of her office and the school. The school was stupid anyway. Camila will be better of with getting home schooled and she probably will learn more.

Anyway, if I am putting her in ballet lessons like she asked me to, she will probably make friends there, right? Hopefully she will let people in now that she won't be going back to school. When I exit the school, I see Brittany leaning against the gates with her hands shoved in her pockets. Okay, Santana. Calm down, you can't be going out with Brittany when you are angry.

If I did, I would probably end up screaming at her and taking all of my frustration out on her. "Are you okay?" Brittany asks me, stepping closer, causing me to take one step back. A hurt look washes across her face and I feel a little guilty for my actions but I just need a minute to breathe. "Fuck, I ruined everything. So fucking stupid" I flinch at her words, partly because of hearing her curse and partly because of her calling herself stupid.

I place my hand on her shoulder to stop her from mumbling to herself and her eyes lock with mine. "You're not stupid, Brittany. I was just pissed at what just went down in there" I point to the school as I speak to her softly and she smiles in relief at my words. "Starbucks? It is just down the road" I ask her, motioning with my head to the small shop just across the road.

Brittany just nods her head, not speaking. I think she's trying to figure out why I was pissed. I'm not sure if I should let her in on things to do with Camila yet, but she is her mother and I can't stop her from caring about our daughter. Even if it has only just been a week since I proved that I was telling her the truth when I told her I didn't cheat and if I didn't she probably wouldn't be here with me right now, I know she wants to know everything about Camila.

I know that since she read that letter and laid eyes on Camila, that all she wanted to do was take her in her arms, but she didn't because I wouldn't let her. I'm not going to let her until we are in a stable place in our relationship first because if our relationship isn't good, then that will reflect on how Camila is with Brittany.

Once we reach Starbucks, I order a hot chocolate and Brittany orders a latte before we both sit down still in silence. "Santana, I just want to start of by apologizing" Brittany speaks up after a couple of minutes and I look up at her from the spot on the floor I was staring at. "I know what I did was wrong and so fucking idiotic of me, but I just could not believe that I could get you pregnant, even if I could see in your eyes that you was telling me the truth."

"I was so hurt and angry, not just at you but at myself. I left you in your time of need and I felt terrible for doing that" she tells me and I can see the sincerity pooling around in her eyes, and I know that she is speaking nothing but the truth right now. "The guilt of leaving you has been following me around since that day, leaving you and also know that there was a possibility that I left my child too, it haunted me."

Tears are welling up in her eyes and I reach across the table to take her free hand in mine. She sniffs slightly before carrying on, "but I knew that I couldn't come back to you because I knew that you were angry and would probably go all Lima heights on my ass if I did" I chuckle at her words through my own tears. "These past four years have been hell for me, Santana. I have been so lost and I am so fucked up that it actually seems unreal."

My heart clenches painfully in my chest when she lets out a bitter laugh, I know that she is beyond pissed and angry with herself. "I've been living with my aunt in Australia because she was the only one that cared enough to open up her home for me. But I hardly saw her, I spent all my time locked away in my room and just laying around all day doing nothing" she pauses and lifts her hand to wipe away her tears.

"But three weeks ago, I got out of there and came here. I knew that you would most likely still be here and I knew that I had to find you here" I let out a barely audible gasp because she did come here to find me. She did come here to get me back and just by that, I can feel part of my trust for her coming back - but not all of it. "When I saw Quinn, I begged her to tell me something about you, but she refused" I roll my eyes. Quinn is overprotective.

"Then you walked in, with a little girl in your arms. I felt like I was going to collapse when I let my eyes scan over you both" a small smile is playing on her lips and I can't help but smile too. "It felt like part of my heart was built again and like I could breathe a little more. When you shown me the DNA results, I felt like such a dick. I should of known that the child was mine when you first told me you was pregnant."

Brittany's hand clenches around my own. "Instead of trusting you, I ran. Not just from you, but for my child and I felt so much guilt wash over me as I read it. You was my girlfriend for 5 years and I should of known that you wouldn't be unfaithful, but I let my fears and insecurities take over me. But I am here now, Santana. I know that nothing will justify what I did and that you will probably never forgive me" she shrugs her shoulders at her own words.

"Santana, I am not leaving again. I am here to stay, where ever you go. I want to know my daughter and be apart of her life, but I know that I am going to have to work for that. So I will" Brittany smiles and I do too. "I will do anything to be able to get to know her and I will do anything to prove to you that I am in this fully" Brittany is looking at me desperately, waiting for some answers.

I sigh and look her in her eyes, "Brittany..."

TBC...

A/N: Oooooh, so what do you think Santana will have to say to Brittany? Do you think she should go all Lima heights on her or tell her somethings about Camila? Or both? Also, sorry for the long wait for this update, but I was away and had no internet connection :(

I hope that this chapter was worth the wait though and the next one won't take too long to be updated. So, review and tell me what you think and also your favourite character, lines or scenes are from this chapter and what you would like to see more of in future chapters!