Title: Learn To Love Again
Rating: T - Maybe M in later chapters
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Brittana and other minor pairings
Chapter: 4
Word Count: 3.6k
Disclaimer: I do not own glee or the characters from glee that I use in this story.
Summary: It's not possible for a girl to get pregnant by another girl, right? But what happens when Brittany gets Santana pregnant and thinks that she was cheated on, leaving both Santana and her child? Will Santana be able to bring up a child on her own, with no help? Will she be able to somehow convince Brittany that she didn't cheat and to come back to her?
A/N:
katiecakeface07 - Brittany isn't angry with them, but Santana is and definitely will be for quite some time until she actually understands what happened and why.
Santanalover16 - More Santana/Camila coming up in this chapter.
Z87da - Camila will for sure give her a hard time, don't you worry.
chuckleshan - That will happen when Brittany first meets Camila, and Santana will realize for sure!
Glee4ever123 - It won't be too long until they meet.
me - Oh yeah, that is definitely going to be part of how they bond in the future and yes, Brittany is a dancer and you will find out more about that in later chapters. Santana's parents will flip out when they come and visit ;)
Loveislovee - aw, Thank you so much! I'm glad that you like it so much :)
Julz - I'm not too sure about Alexis, I kind of just wanted a friend that had an unbreakable bond with Santana so that Brittany misreads their relationship. Maybe she did in the past though.
Okay, so who saw the scene of 'Lights Out' between Santana/Little Santana? I actually cried it was so adorable. If you haven't saw it yet, make sure you do sometime because that is what I am picturing Camila to look like, but with blue eyes.
On with the chapter though...
"Auntie Lexi" Camila squeals, scrambling down from her chair and running over to Alexis who picks the girl up, resting her on her hip. Camila went to bed before Alexis arrived last night so she didn't know that she would be staying over. Alexis walks over to the table and sits Mila back onto her before she sits down next to her. I know that she is still tired from last night, hell I am too.
We spent the whole night talking about Brittany and discussing how things are going to change in the future. It was literally 3 in the morning by the time we finally got to bed. Then, Camila of course woke me up at 6 because she decided that she wanted to go to the zoo.
Seriously, like why so early?
I tried to send her back to bed and tell her that we could go after we sleep a little longer but she was not for that idea at all. She brought out her pout, knowing full well that I can't say no to her when she does that.
Then, because Camila doesn't know how to be quiet when she is excited for something, she woke up Alexis. "You up for a trip to the zoo later on Lexi?" I ask her even though I already know that she has nothing planned and will probably of tagged along with us even if I didn't ask her too. We usually work together so when I don't have a shoot, she most likely doesn't either.
"I would but I have to babysit my niece. Unless she can come along with us but I don't know if Mila will be okay around her" Alexis asks me, warily looking Camila who has gone back to eating her toast that she was munching on before Alexis came down into the room. She will be fine, won't she? Plus, I said that she needs to spend time with people so that she can learn that some people are different and not everybody is like the kids that bully her.
I shrug my shoulders whilst looking at my best friend, "just bring her along. I'm sure she will be fine as long as she doesn't do anything to trigger her anxiety but I'm sure that she won't do anyway." Alexis smiles and I know that she is on board with the plans for later on. "Just get Ally to drop her off here instead of at your place" I tell her and she nods her head, pulling out her phone and exiting out of the room to make the call.
"Mommy, we go get ready now?" Camila asks me, showing me the empty bowl proudly.
She is giving me her best puppy dog eyes and I chuckle because she is just too adorable. "Well done, Cams. Did you drink your milkshake today or do you want it for when we are at the zoo?" You see, Camila is small. Smaller than kids are supposed to be her age and doesn't really put on as much weight as she should do. So when I took her to the doctors, they put her on these special milkshakes that help her grow and stay at a healthy weight.
She is getting better, but she just needs to carry on taking her milkshakes and going to the doctors regularly. I have to make sure that she doesn't skip meals and things like that, then she will soon hopefully will be able to put on weight and grow without any help.
"I have it at the zoo, mommy. Now, come get dressed" Camila impatiently tugs on my arms, trying to pull me towards the stairs so we can go and get changed out of out pajamas. I roll my eyes and scoop her up into my arms, earning a squeal of laughter from my daughter when I start to run to her bedroom with her in my arms. She is giggling into my neck and I smile widely at the sound of it.
Once we reach her room, I put her down onto the floor and we both walk through into her walk-in closet. Picking out some of Camila's clothes, I hand them over to her. "Get changed into these and them come to me so I can sort out your hair" I tell her, kissing the top of her head before exiting the room and going to my own. Quickly getting changed, I straighten my hair and lightly apply some make-up whilst I wait for Camila.
She finally comes plodding in after 20 minutes, taking a seat on my bed casually causing me to chuckle. It takes Camila a while to get dressed when I leave her to it on her own because she gets easily distracted by the toys and games in her room. "You know, Mila, your hair is so much like mine" I tell my daughter as I brush through my daughters hair before tying it up in a high pony tail.
Camila turns around to grin at me and leans in to quickly peck my cheek. "Mommy, when I go new school?" Camila suddenly asks me and I sigh, taking the small girl into my arms with no trouble at all.
"I'm looking into it, Mila. A special person is going to come teach you so you don't have to go back, so don't worry that pretty little head of yours" I coo to her softly when she snuggles into me as we walk down to the living room where Alexis probably is. "Anyway, now you will be able to come to work with mommy whenever I have a shoot" I tell her and her face brightens at my words.
Ever since she was little and I first started modelling, Camila has loved coming along to work with me.
"Ally is dropping her off here now. They'll be here in like 5 minutes or something like that" Alexis tells me. "Babe, you are so hipster. Look, you have even tuned my little Mila into one" I look down from my clothes, then to Camila's before tuning back to Alexis and rolling my eyes. She isn't the one to talk, she is just as hipster. Well, not just as hipster. Maybe I am a little more indie-hipster than she is.
Lexi chuckles at me and Camila grins even though she doesn't even know what the hell we are talking about. The doorbell rings, and the three of us jump slightly before Alexis slips out of the room to answer the door. "You ready to go to the zoo baby?" Camila nods her head, excitedly bouncing up and down when I let her down from my hip. "But before we go, quickly run and get one of your milkshakes and bring it to me so I can put it into my bag."
Camila runs out of the room to go get her special milkshake and I pull on my shoes as I wait for her. "Here, mommy" Mila comes back, handing me over the sealed drink and I put it into my bag before taking her hand and leading her to the front door where Lexi is stood talking to her sister.
"Hi, San. Hey there, cutie" Camila whimpers slightly and wraps her arms around my waist, hiding away from the older girl. I lift her into my arms and she buries herself into me as I send an apologetic look towards Ally who just waves me off. Even though this is not the first time Camila has been around Ally, she still isn't comfortable around her at all. "Thank you for taking care of her today" Ally says to Alexis and I, kissing the top of Megan's head.
Megan waves goodbye to her mother before tuning towards Camila who is in my arms. I bite my lip, not knowing what is going to happen between the two little girls. "Hi" Megan waves excitedly to Camila who shyly looks down at her from my arms with a smile playing at her lips. "I'm Megan. Who are you?" I raise my eyebrows, my eyes glued to Camila and I know she is contemplating weather on to talk to the other girl or not.
"C-Camila" my daughter stutters out nervously and I am shocked that she is actually talking to the other girl right now and not just ignoring her like she usually does. I just hope that she is able to feel comfortable around Megan because it would be nice for her to have at least one friend that is her age. "Your mommy is Ally?" Camila asks the other girl, tilting her head to the side as she does so.
I am so surprised that she is talking to Megan and I can't help the proud smile that spreads across my face as I lock up the front door. "There getting along better than I thought they would" I say to Alexis and we look over to where the two girls are now talking about God knows what as they scramble into the backseat of my car. Sharing a quick glance with Lexi, she smirks at me and hops into the passengers seat.
"San, seriously though, don't worry about her too much. I told you that she would eventually make friends with somebody and if Camila is okay talking to Megan already with only just meeting her five minutes ago, you should trust her judgement" Alexis reassures me and I know that she is right, but I guess that I am just not used to Camila being so calm around somebody new.
Usually, she is really clingy and doesn't talk at all. But now, she's actually talking to Megan like she has known her for a while and is already comfortable around her when she has only just met her less than half an hour ago. As I start up the car, I let out a small sigh. "I know that you are right, I'm just not used to her like this. I don't know what has made her trust Megan so easily but I hope that she can do it with more people than just her."
"She will, babe. Don't worry too much. I know it is hard to not worry with everything she has gone through and is still going on, but you need to let her be sometimes. She obviously can see something in Meg that allows her to not be scared and I'm sure that this is the first step to her anxiety getting better" Lexi tells me and I nod my head at her words because she's right.
It is silent for the rest of the car ride to the zoo, except from Camila and Megan's hushed whispers from the back seats, and in less than 10 minutes, I am pulling up into the best zoo in New York. Camila loves it here, and I've got to admit that I kind of like it here too. I usually bring Camila here when it is her birthday and she has like the best time running around and looking at all of the different animals.
Hopping out of the car, I turn to face Camila and Megan who are holding hands and bouncing up and down excitedly. "I need you to calm down okay? Don't be running off and stay close" I tell them both, bending down so that I am the same height as them both. They both nod their heads and start giggling as they skip off ahead of Alexis and I as we pay in.
This is going to be a long day...
-4 HOURS LATER-
"NO!" my eyes widen in shock when Camila screams and runs towards Megan who is sadly being pulled towards the door, kicking and screaming in Ally's arms. Whoa, I never thought that it would be so hard to get them separated after spending the day together. Never has Camila screamed like that and I've never seen her warm up to somebody so fast as she has done with Megan.
Camila tries to pull Megan from Ally's arms and the two girls are hysterical, their cries so loud that I can barely hear myself think. "Cam, stop it baby" I try to pull her away from Megan, but the two of them have quite the grip on each other. "You need to let go of her, she needs to go back home with her mommy" I say to her softly but her tears only get faster and harder.
"No, she can't go" Camila sobs, her eyes turning red because of how much she is crying. "She's my friend. Please don't take her away from me" then, she breaks down completely and collapses to the floor in tears. My heart breaks in my chest for my daughter because I know right now that she is thinking she will never see Megan again. This is what happened when I first met Brittany.
Taking my daughter into my arms, I rub her back comfortingly to try and get her to calm down. "She isn't going forever baby girl. I promise that Megan can come over whenever you want her too or you can even go over to her house if it is okay with Ally" I coo to her quietly and she looks up at me with misty eyes.
"Really? She can stay tonight?" Camila asks me, her bottom lip trembling and the hope shining in her eyes causing me to looks over to Ally in question. This is the first time Camila has reacted this way and has taken a liking to somebody. I don't want to ruin that. I want Camila and Megan to stay like they have been today. Ally places Megan down on the ground before crouching down to look at her.
"Would you like to stay tonight with Camila?" she asks and Megan's face brightens, a beaming smile spreading across her lips. Megan nods her head happily, a pleading pout begging her mother to agree to let her stay over for the night. "Do you promise to be a good girl and come home tomorrow when I ask you too?" Megan is a little more hesitant this time, but nods her head again. "Then you can stay if it is okay with San" I smile at the two of them.
"Of course you can stay Meg" Camila and Megan start squealing and their hands find each others as they run out of the room, probably to the play room or Camila's bedroom. "She will be fine, I will drop her off at your house tomorrow Ally. I'm glad Mila has a friend" I tell Ally who has a questioning look on her face, wondering if it is actually okay with me if Megan stays over for the night.
She relaxes at my words. "Thank you for having her, San. If she is any trouble just call me up and I will come and get her" Ally says and I roll my eyes because the girl has been no trouble all day and I honestly doubt that I will see anything of the two girls tonight anyway. "Lex, are you coming with me?" Alexis nods her head and stands up from where she is sitting on the love seat, giving me a quick hug and kissing me on the cheek.
"I'll see you tomorrow babe. We have a meeting about that photo-shoot in England at two" my eyes widen because I completely forgot about that meeting. I will have to ask Quinn or somebody to mind Camila during the day for a little while, I'm sure that they won't mind doing it for me though. "Just remember that it is good Camila is trusting Megan so easily" she whispers into my ear and grin widely.
With that, the two of them walk out of my house leaving me alone with two 4 year old girls. I lean back against the couch, letting my eyes flutter close as the silence enters my ears for the first time in quite a long while.
But then of course, it doesn't last long because my phone buzzes beside me.
It's probably Alexis because she has forgotten something.
When I reach for my phone, my eyes widen and I am now completely awake as I stare at the name flashing on my screen.
1 new message: Brittany.
My heart flutters in my chest and a dopey smile automatically forms on my face no matter how hard I try to stop it. I can't help these feelings. My love for Brittany is making me over think everything that has happened between us.
I can't blame her for what happened.
She didn't know that she has this weird thing inside her that can allow her to knock up girls.
Yes, I am still really pissed that she didn't believe me, but I can't hold it against her forever because I know that if the roles were reversed, I would of flipped also. Obviously I wouldn't walk out on her like she did to me, but I would have doubts whether she cheated on me. But then again, I would be able to feel it if she was lying to me or not.
2 new messages: Brittany.
3 new messages: Brittany.
4 new messages: Brittany.
My heart leaps into the pit of my stomach as I bite my lip and open up the messages.
I can't wait to have lunch with you again tomorrow. It was so good seeing you again, it brought back so many memories and feelings for me. Hopefully someday in the near future we can learn how to start being a family - Brittany.
Oh Shit, that was too soon. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to press send even though I meant it. Only after we are in a comfortable position in our relationship and you and Camila are okay with me being in your life though - Brittany.
I will never give up on you again. You or Camila. I really am here to stay Santana and I am finding every way I can to prove this to you. You mean so much to me still and Camila already does too - Brittany.
Are you mad at me still? - Brittany.
My heart is racing faster as I re-read the messages over and over again, tears falling freely down my cheeks as I do so. Her words hit me like a ton of bricks and it finally registers into my brain that Brittany is here in New York, fighting for Camila and I to be in her life.
With shaky hands, I type out a message to her.
I'm not mad, Brittany and my feelings towards you will never change and the memories we shared were all brought back to me also. I promise that over the next couple of weeks, we can learn how to trust each other again and then I will definitely allow you to see Camila. I know you are in this and you have no idea how happy that makes me - Santana.
A/N: Finally an update! Hope that you all enjoyed this and I promise to update as soon as I can.
Okay, so do you think Santana is allowing her love for Brittany to take over? What do you want to see happen when they next meet up? Are you guys happy that Cams finally made a little friend?
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