Title: Learn To Love Again
Rating: T - Maybe M in later chapters
Fandom: Glee
Pairing: Brittana and other minor pairings
Chapter: 11
Disclaimer: I do not own glee or the characters from glee that I use in this story.
Summary: It's not possible for a girl to get pregnant by another girl, right? But what happens when Brittany gets Santana pregnant and thinks that she was cheated on, leaving both Santana and her child? Will Santana be able to bring up a child on her own, with no help? Will she be able to somehow convince Brittany that she didn't cheat and to come back to her?
A/N:
Chuckleshan - Thank you! I'm using this idea because I liked it so much and yes, she will tell her.
ShadowCub - Oh she is.
mag01 - Thank you for your wishes and she will do something like that.
Guest - Well, I'm honored you like it as much as you do :) it means a lot.
Julz19 - Thank you.
Lana - Kurt, Quinn and Rachel will warm up to Brittany soon.
Glee4ever123 - They will.
The smiles plays on my lips effortlessly throughout the whole morning, the excitement and curiosity of what Brittany is planning for out date this afternoon. Alexis and the other models have been teasing me but I honestly couldn't care less because after 5 years, I finally have everything that I have wanted and my life is in a place that I want it to be in. Since Brittany has came back into my life, I have had a constant smile on my face and I haven't cried myself to sleep once or found myself thinking about the consequences of what the future will be like for Camila when she starts to ask questions about her.
I'm just thankful that Camila took Brittany coming into our lives so well and she immediately took a liking to Brittany after I explained everything to her and told her that Brittany wouldn't hurt her. The only other person that she has ever taken a liking to as quickly as she has done with Brittany is Megan and I am actually still in shock about that too. Camila has always had trust issues along with her anxiety and I'm glad that it seems to be getting slightly better now that I have taken her out of school. That I should probably tell Brittany about also and all of her other problems too such as her health, maybe even what happened with Alexis and I.
Brittany deserves to know what happened with Alexis and I because she has been nothing but honest with me since she has come back into my life and I want to return that. I want her to know everything that I went through when she was away and I want her to know everything that I want to happen with us for the future. Maybe the second one can wait a little longer until we are in more of a comfortable place in our relationship before we start to talk more about what is going to happen in the future with us. As the photo-shoot comes to an end and I am sat down with Alexis, waiting for my two girls to arrive, my boss walks over to me with a man that looks somehow familiar to me.
Alexis gasps beside me and her eyes widen as she looks at the man with shock, obviously not knowing what to say or do; this man must be important is Alexis is reacting like this because she is literally always confident around all people. "Santana, Alexis. This is Sir Jordan Gomez" my jaw falls open as the realization hits me of who this man is, the recolonization buzzing around my mind. Why didn't Madison tell us the he would be here? This man is the manager of some of the most successful and talented models around the world. "He would like to add you to his long list of clients" holy fucking shit, is this actually happening right now? I mean, I knew that I was a good model but I never knew that I was that good as to have Sir Jordan Gomez hire me and become my manager.
I let out an excited squeal and run over to the young looking man, throwing myself into his arms before I realize what I am doing and quickly pull away from him. Clearing my throat, I mumble out an apology and he just laughs at me along with Alexis and Madison. "Its fine, it is refreshing really to see somebody this excited to get started with their career. I will Email you details and we will have to organize a meeting once we are back in New York for when you are both to start" he says with a smile before the two of them walk away.
Turing back to Alexis, she has a grin spread across her face and I giggle excitedly. "Fuck Alexis, is this actually happening right now?" I ask her dreamily and she laughs as the two of us start to tear up, the news finally processing in our minds. She pulls me into a hug and I have to try my hardest to force away the tears because I don't want it to ruin my make-up, knowing that I will have no time to do touch ups before Brittany arrives for our date; I'm not even going to have time to get changed before we go. I am snapped out of my thoughts by a small body running into my legs and I look down to see Camila beaming at me happily, her bright blue eyes sparkling with happiness. Brittany then walks over to us and my breath hitches in my throat when my eyes scan up and down her body. She is wearing a tight blue dress that stops just below her ass, showing off all of her curves and making her legs look even longer. She has applied her make up lightly and her hair is straightened and framing her face perfectly. "You look beautiful" I tell her and she blushes, looking down at the floor while pulling her bottom lip between her teeth making her look even sexier than she already does. "Did you have a good day with mama, princess?" I ask Camila who is still looking at me with a smile and she nods her head excitedly, looking between Brittany and I. She really is the cutest and I'm not just saying that because I have too.
"Yes, mama took me out for food and we went to see where the Queen lives mommy!" Camila explains, practically squirming in my arms because of how excited she is right now. "Do I go with Aunt Lex now so we go get cookies from her mommy?" I nod my head and Camila wiggles out of my arms before jumping onto Alexis, both of them giggling when Alexis spins her around in the air.
Alexis grabs her things before they wave goodbye and walk out of the building hand-in-hand. I turn back to Brittany and she offers her hand out to me as I smile at her. It still seems unreal for me that she is actually here with me and we are trying to get back what we used to have. Well, not exactly get back because I'm pretty sure that the love we had for each other never disappeared since it was so strong. More like get back the trust so that we can start again and continue on with our lives together instead of separately, just like we have both always wanted.
I look over to Brittany as she drags me out of the building and onto the busy streets of London, but it still feels like it is just the two of us in our own little world. "Britt, can you tell me where we are going?" I whine as she continues to pull me down the streets, the two of us dodging in and out of all the people around us. Brittany just turns to look at me, giggles and then points in front of us. I follow her finger and I smile widely when my eyes land on the London Eye, the memories all flooding back to me, "you remembered?" she nods her head and leads me over to the waiting line.
For our first date, I took Brittany to the carnival that was in town for a while because I knew that she would enjoy it. We basically spent the whole night re-riding the ferris wheel over and over again because it was like we was isolated from the world. When the date was over, Brittany promised to someday bring me to London so that we can spend the day riding the London Eye together. We was young then, still in high school and I didn't actually think that she would remember that but it makes my heart flutter knowing that she did even after all those years.
Brittany sighs and brings me to the front of the line, flashing some sort of pass to the guy who let's us onto the wheel with a smile before shutting the door and letting it go round. "I got us a pass so we could just sit here all day with no interruptions" Brittany whispers when she sits down on the seat and I rest my head on her lap, looking up at her as I lift my feet across the chair so that I am laying down.
"Britt, I have to tell you something before we get too serious again and then you find out by someone else" I say to her softly, worry in my voice because I don't know how she is going to react when I tell her about my past with Alexis. "It was just after Camila was born. I had no idea what to do and I had myself convinced that I had to move on from you if I wanted to do a good job at raising her because I was a mess" tears come to my eyes at the memories and Brittany runs her hands through my hair encouragingly.
Taking a deep breath, I continue with letting everything out to Brittany. "I kissed Alexis and she let me. I tried to force myself to fall out of love with you by kissing her but it never worked. She knew what I was doing so she let me, nobody else knew what was happening but the two of us. After a while she told me that I had to stop because I was only hurting myself for doing what I was doing" my eyes are closed, scared to look at Brittany because I have no idea what expression is going to be on her face.
"I knew she was right, so I stopped and just accepted the fact that I would always be in love with you. We have never spoken about it since, it is like nothing ever happened and we have just been best friends. I get it if you can't trust her now but I want you to know that she has a girlfriend for two years now and our feelings for one another have never been anything more than just friends" I tell her, finally opening my eyes to see her looking back down at me with a small smile playing at her lips.
What? She isn't mad at me or even upset? "San, I'm so sorry that I hurt you so much that you had to do that to try and make yourself fall out of love with me but I'm not mad at you; I have no right to be. I'm just glad that your plan didn't work and you still love me as much as I love you" Brittany speaks to me gently and I grin at her words before lifting my head to connect our lips.