Work. Eat. Sleep.

That had been her ritual for the past month. Waking up early in the morning, going to work, eat then go to sleep, try to at least, and repeat the tradition again.

If she was really lucky, which was almost never, she would be able to sleep in a dreamless sleep. But she had more nightmares than she could count.

All of them involving a certain green eyed boy.

She had thought of nothing, forcing her emotions and body to go numb so she wouldn't think, wouldn't worry, wouldn't anything.

She didn't deserve anything now. She was going to leave and never come back and that was all on what she focused on.

She couldn't afford to even think about him. No, this was for the best and whenever her heart began to pound painfully, rejecting what her mind was trying to do, she would force her heart to listen by pounding against it emotionally.

She would force her heart to become hard like stone so she wouldn't succumb to her grief and pain. She deserved this. She deserved punishment.

Tears, no matter how hard she tried to force them back, would come and she had begun drinking sleeping tea so she would be able to fall asleep.

Spirits knew she needed it. She needed to forget and move one. She needed to forget about ever meeting him and what she had done.

Whenever her body started to go find him, she would physically force herself to think about the horror and shock and the pain she saw in his face when she bloodbent him.

It was more than enough to make her stop herself from seeking him out. The memory reminded her of what she did and what she had to do to make sure that it never happened again.

And it was that memory that had haunted her. It was horrible but she deserved it.

Spirits, did she deserve it. She hardly could contain food in her stomach now because it always threatened to come right back up.

She had lost weight and she looked haunted. Her once healthy skin was now pale, her eyes lifeless and haunted, her face lost its glow.

She was a ghost.

But she didn't care anymore. Nothing mattered anymore. Nothing.

The only thing she needed and wanted was gone and she would never get it back. So she threw herself into her work, forcing her body into near exhaustion so she wouldn't dream of him.

Sue just wanted the darkness. The emptiness that was now her life.

Nyla had tried her best to cheer up her master but Aylin was almost robotic. Her body did what it needed to do but her mind and heart wasn't in it.

It would never be anytime soon.

Aylin hadn't cared if the moon spirit possessed her body anymore. What was the point of fighting when she had already lost?

But the sick, cruel irony was that the moon spirit didn't try to possess her. Ever since the full moon, her body no longer fought because the moon spirit wasn't trying to possess her.

The sick cruel irony of it all.

She shook her head and forced her mind back to the present on taking orders from the customers from Kuuang's Cuisine.

She had half a mind to quit because the memory of being here with him on a date.

It hurt too much to remember what they talked about and what they did but she needed the money to leave Republic City.

So, Aylin had done what was becoming easier now, blocking her memory and emotions associated with it.

She would work and leave.

She took orders, sent them to chef's and clean and pick up dirty dishes as she waited for the food to cook. She asked if anyone needed anything and focused her mind on the task at hand.

She was surprised when her boss called out to her saying she had a visitor. It had never happened before because she had no friends.

"Okay, I'll just finish this order." She said but her boss just shook his head and took her order.

"I'll take care of it. Your visitor said it was important." He said, pointing towards the front of the restaurant.

She quickly walked towards the front of the restaurant, her mind wondering what was going on. When she reached outside, the cool winter air chilled her skin and she wrapped her arms around herself for warmth.

"Hello?" She called out, wondering who was out here.

"Aylin? It's me."

She froze, heart pounding in fear. Her visitor stepped out from the shadows and dread filled the pit of her stomach.

"Asami?"

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