I've never been a person to believe in soul mates but I feel that me and him were made for each other. We were good friends for years before the one night in London. He was everything a woman could ask for. He was the one I could see spending my life with. But one thing made it all go down the toilet. I felt like I was in a desert. Lost and confused. Wondering if this is how it would end. I didn't want to believe it. Things happened,choices happened. Hearts being broken. When it was over the look in his eyes just made me think. I've never understood why it happened. I don't even think I will. Who knows where he is right now. He could be married for all I know. He could be dead. Just all the endless possibilities of what could've happened to him aren't stopping. I've tried moving on but I couldn't, it still felt like one piece of the puzzle is missing. And has been missing for 5 years..
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You may say I'm a terrible person to leave the friends I've known for years but tell me this in all honesty would you watch your ex girlfriend get married or date a guy who everyone likes and thinks he is the one for her. Would you? No I wouldn't. I've moved on with a great life. I couldn't be any happier. I just don't know why lately I've thought of Monica. Lauren knows the story between me and Monica. She understood why I would be a bit hesitant with things. She makes me want to be me again. I never thought it was even possible and me and Monica broke up. We've been together for a couple of years and it amazed me that I hadn't gone well me and mess everything up. I've just been so happy lately with Lauren it just works with her so well. But then there is Monica. She will forever have a special place in my heart. So will everyone else have a place in my heart. I..I just wish at times we never ended. Where did that come from? Why am I thinking about her? She ended it. Then it hit me. Its been 5 years since I left. Its been 5 years since me and Monica ended things. It all made sense as to why I have been thinking about her. I know she moved on just like I have. Happy in life with everyone. I just know it.
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But in reality Monica was miserable. She tried to move on but she couldn't. She couldn't quiet try at all. If you were to ask her what would you do differently and she would knew exactly what she would do. "I would go back 5 years ago to stop everything would happen.." Was all she would say if she was to be asked that question. She loves him. She will forever love him. He would be the one that got away...
Well I'm thinking one or 2 more chapters and this is over. I'm not entirely sure it will be a happy ending but you never know. ;) And maybe...just maybe a sequel aswell. Really hoped you enjoyed this chapter.
Until Next Time...