Day 4: Wedding. / Pregnancy.

He found her crying in the kitchen, and it broke his heart. Some other person would've blamed it on the hormones, but not James. She might have been crying because they ran out of chocolate and still he'll be heart broken, because she'll be crying and that was one of the things James promise it would never happen.

James approached his very beautiful, very pregnant, wife; and sat besides her. He placed a hand in her shoulder to make her know he was there. She turns a little, her red hair makes a curtain, but even so James can see the red eyes and tears behind it.

He removed the hair from her face, placing it behind her ear and then, softly he kiss the tears going down her cheeks; then he grabbed her to move her closer to him. She let him.

"Lils, what's wrong?" James asked softly to the side of her head while caressing her hair.

She sobbed and try to breath before answering, "I miss her…" was all she could said before breaking again. James eyes grew big. "I need her, James… and… she's…" she couldn't finish the sentence.

"I know, love" he kissed the side of her head, and rubbed her arms.

"I don't know how I'm suppose to do this, I want to ask her so many things," she continued trying to convey everything she felt.

"You'll be great, Lils… I don't think anyone be more suited for the job," James tried to reassured her.

"She was the best," she said quietly.

"Yes, I bet she was; and she taught you things. I know you miss her, and you're scared, but she taught you to be wonderful, and you'll do the same with this little guy," he places a hand in her big belly.

"I guess you're right," she placed her hand on top of James', "I'm just so scared, I'm loosing my mind, I even thought to talk to Tunie, is sad that I want my big sister?"

"No is not, if you really want you should do it,"

"I don't think she'll like it… she didn't even want to come to the wedding,"

James remembered it well.

Lily was crying, much like that day, she was clutching a letter in her hand and tears kept falling from her eyes. She cried for days, James tried to help; to make it stop but nothing seemed to work.

James didn't had much expertise in the matter, he didn't had siblings (even if he considered the Marauders his brothers) and his cousins where older, much older, than him. He asked advise to Remus, but as James, Remus was an only child.

They were rather surprise when the one that helped Lily in the matter was no other than Sirius Black.

Sirius was a lot of things, prankster extraordinaire, a loose canon, but he did have experience in the field. He been disowned, his brother stopped talking to him before he even left the Hogwarts, and his parents weren't exactly supportive.

He talked to Lily, and managed to calm her, or at least made her accept that as much as she loved Petunia, her sister wasn't as open as one would want to; that didn't meant Petunia didn't love Lily, just that she couldn't be as supporting as Lily wanted. This seemed to work; it made James kind of jealous.

They kept the plans, the minister, the followers, tux and dresses, their friends, everything. And on that day she looked… looked… James didn't have words to describe her, he could've said "angelic" but at the same time "godly"; and from the lust that gather inside him after she said 'I do' she looked; sinful; so many contradictory words that until this day he couldn't describe her.

They got married, he didn't remember much of the ceremony, he wanted to kiss his 'wife' and was a little impatient, she looked so happy and beautiful, but even so he noticed once in a while that she searched amongst the familiar faces to the only one that was related to her by blood; and not find it.

"Is been a year, Lils, maybe she changed her mind," he didn't believed it, "just give her a call, I'm sure she'll be happy to hear from you,"

"Yeah, maybe you're right," she calmed herself and clean the tears from her face, "I don't know what I would do without you," she hugged him more tightly.

"Good thing you don't have to find out,"